Chapter I: Clandestiny
Blue Bayoux
golden blue
almost silver
I want to taste
your sweet liquor
this longing
heavy on my chest
this breathing
shallow and repressed
shut my lips
quiver as they will
this secret
it must never spill
this tension
both of us can feel
thumper of the heart
as I hold you dear
oh how much I yearn
just to hold you near
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I study the stars without a guide
hoping they’ll lead me north where the sun shines
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Letter in Reverie II
thunder
in my heart
you make me wonder
just how far
feeling will take me
to the stars?
how much might rip me
right apart
glowing, gleaming
such a sensual feeling
now my heart’s finally beating
now my lungs let me breathe in
the salty air
heavy on my chest
the shore unclear
left in a daze
trying to tear
through this foggy haze
feet don’t fail me now
I might find out
that golden spark
unclear but bright
just like a star
it shines so bright
can’t look away
might burn my eyes
ignore the pain
I might find out
what led me here
right through the noise
a quiet soul
that silver poise
can’t look away
I might find out
if I can stay
cause I can wait
cause I can wait
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the compass needle of my heart is helpless to the gravity of you
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Tender Tempest
the ghost of a past
or maybe a future
I never had
if I reach out
then can I grasp?
echoes of blue
circulate my system
if I lean in
will I just have missed it?
if I keep the distance
then can I stay?
if I conceal the heart
will you let me wait?
take a spark
light a match
hold it close
hold it tight
through the cold
through the night
they’d say it’s so dark
I see all the thunder
they’d say it’s a spark
I see all the fire
the danger
makes it
so much more
enticing
almost wanna
bite in
fragile as it is
instinct says give in
conscious of my teeth
sharper than I knew
heavy on my jaw
more than I could chew
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Blushing Blues
cold, sharp
metal on skin
thoughts in my head
feel like sins
clutch the wound
yet it keeps gushing
spill the blood
cause I keep rushing
but I’ll never regret
bringing about lushing
to a garden of blue roses
that leaves me blushing
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I admire its glow on the sea surface
and the red of the sky,
an untamed fire
breathing folk tales
of its presence
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Clandestiny
holding my thorns tight
roots affected with blight
without the physical
you touched my with spiritual
held up a mirror
glimmering garden reflecting
the glory unseen
a tall tree you were
bent down to whisper in my ear
something ancient
in the bloodlines
through the fabric
of the timelines
fingers hovering over lines
engraved in my skeletal
where others dug their nails in
you were gentle
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