The Broken Vagina Monolgues

B: 25. J:26. TTC #1. B: PCOS, ONLY ONE TUBE WHICH IS DAMAGED. J: FINE. IN THE PROCESS OF EGG SHARE IVF CYCLE #1 WHILST PLANNING A WEDDING. OUR LIFE IS CRAY.

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I just wanted to say congrats!!! I'm due May 27!! Its cool to follow someone so close in the journey!

Oh thank you so much and congratulations to you too. Oh that is very close!! Bump buddies!!

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Everything was fine. Heart beating away and even moving around like a jumping jelly bean. Moving his little arms and legs too. Amazing. Most magical thing I've ever seen. Here's a picture. His head is at he bottom. Feet at the top. So blessed.

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So yesterday we were 9 weeks, we also heard our babies heartbeat on our home Doppler for like 2 minutes. So amazing. It was beautifully overwhelming. I'm so in love already. Been up since 5am as got up to pee but now I can't sleep! Got our second ultrasound at 8.30am. So excited to see our baby again.

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So just given the house a quick straighten up/tidy and it's nearly killed me. Out of breath like I've just been for a run. Oh. My. God. Sweating?! What?

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I've been reading and I really want to do hypnobirthing with a water birth. Anyone any experience of this with their labour or considering it themselves?

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Our baby is a raspberry. Can't believe how quickly he/she is growing. I'm still getting morning (well more like afternoon) sickness on off. My boobs are huger and still sore. I've started to get a mini bump. Going to start doing some bump pictures tonight.

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8 weeks.

8 more days till our next scan. At the doctors tonight to notify the NHS of my pregnancy. Not looking forward to it as I have zero faith in the NHS. Wish I could stay private.

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Definitely starting to get a belly. It's hard so it doesn't feel like my bloat of fatty bits. So strange. 7 weeks 5 days today.

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Bought our first baby stuff. A little T shirt, booties and some stretch mark oil for me. Positive thinking. We are having a baby.

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So scan went well. We have one baby with a heartbeat. I cried. It was just amazing. We are having an actual baby!! We go back in 2 weeks for another (which they aren't charging us for! Yay!) Next step is to see my GP on Wednesday and book in with the midwife. Oh my god. Can't believe we are here! P.S the baby is the little grey splodge at the bottom of the black.

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First scan tomorrow.

Please be ok.

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Also being pregnant, and nauseous and tired its hard to rein my eating in. Trying my hardest to be good. I don't want to gain weight as my BMI was already high at 28. Anyone any tips? My energy is just so low at the minute. All I want to do is sleep.

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Anxiety

I'm starting to feel super anxious about our scan on Thursday. There's so much hanging on it. I don't know how we will cope if something isn't right. I'm really starting to panic. Please be ok baby.

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I find a can of coke helps with migraines, and don't worry to much about the caffeine I was told no more than 4 cans...or you could try caffeine free coke. But It helps for me :) if not try and drink lots of water because normally migraines are from dehydration or stress. Hope this helps x

Thank you for the tip I will try it next time.

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Migraine

Right I'm pregnant and I have my first migraine.

I can no longer take my usual medication, triptans because they can cause birth defects.

So does anyone have any recommendations.

So far it's been paracetamol, water and a dark room.

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Got this this morning.

Feel totally reassured now even after the spotting at dead on 4 weeks.

I’m 4 weeks 2 days today.

Only another 12 days till our first scan. Looking forward to it now.

C’mon squishy. Be ok!

We went to ikea last night and looked at baby furniture as well as getting some decorative stuff for the wedding, candles ect. Only 11 weeks to go and still loads to do!

OH told me I looked like I was glowing last night. <3 

My skin has improved so much with pregnancy, it’s always been awful because of my PCOS so very happy.

My boobs were killing me on Wednesday so we went to buy maternity bras after work, they’re so comfortable! I’ve also gone up a cup size already, a symptom that J is loving.

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We are 5 weeks today.

Our baby is the size of an apple seed.

Only 2 more weeks till our scan. Hoping it goes quickly.

Other than that my boobs get worse every day, going to buy a maternity bra this week and nausea comes and goes.