Finally catching her eye, it warmed Edgar’s heart to see the smile on Minerva’s face. A gesture as simple as an honest smile was always enough to lift his spirits and already he was feeling better than he had in a while.
Minerva went on to thank him, admitting to him that she wasn’t fine. It was a relief to hear it, as bad as it sounded, but he knew that neither of them would be able to get past this if they didn’t first admit that they weren’t alright.
She continued to speak and Edgar let a soft smile of his own fall on his lips. Though he was reluctant to accept compliments, still having difficulty believing that he had no choice in the matter, it still felt nice to be called a ‘good man’ and to hear the sincerity in her voice as she said it. At least there is one person who truly believes that.
Nodding slightly as she spoke, he said, “I – Thank you for saying that. It’s…” I want to believe it. “I’m glad your opinion on me hasn’t changed, despite our…encounter.” He gave an embarrassed chuckle, suddenly feeling self-conscious. “The same goes for you, I don’t think any less of you because of this.” She’s right, we were both victims here. I didn’t have to sell myself but it would never have crossed my mind if I hadn’t been imperiused. We’re victims. The words still sounded like excuses to him, but he was slowly starting to convince himself of their truth. It was progress.
These thoughts were interrupted by her question and his half-smile faltered. Already his breath hitched and he shot a suspicious glance at the surrounding patrons. Ever since the curse had been lifted he had barely left home except to go to work. Besides that he had avoided going out in public if at all possible. He felt ridiculous, but even before he had been cursed recent events had increased his anxieties and he had been experiencing frequent panic attacks. Being imperiused had just given him the final tap that had him too terrified to stray far from home.
Today had been an exception, as he knew he had needed to talk with Minerva and his fear of what might come of this talk was enough to override his paranoia. Unfortunately her comment had brought it back full-force and he instantly felt surrounded by potential threats.
“Uh – No – No, I didn’t see anything. I-” Rubbing his brow, he tried to push back the sudden insecurity. “Everything was going well – I was just at work – and then suddenly I, well I was cursed. I didn’t see anything suspicious, I haven’t got a clue who did it.” It was this that frightened him most. Whoever had cursed him knew who he was, had targeted him for one reason or another, and he didn’t have a single clue who it could have been. They were still out there, they could do it again at any time, they could make him do something worse.
His knee bounced even more violently as he looked around once again. Stop it! I doubt they’re here, so just calm down! You’re here to talk to Minerva, so just do that and stop thinking about what might happen. Nothing is going to happen, and people will notice this time if it does. Giving a sigh, he ran a trembling hand through his hair, doing his best to calm himself down.
Focusing his attention back on Minerva, he shook his head. “Yeah – Sorry, I really don’t know. It could have been anyone at the ministry.” Looking at her with a fleeting hope, he asked, “You didn’t see anything? Nothing at all?”