Coyote Howls

Sometimes I have things to say.

[thecoyotelovely]

Confused

Dear XXXXXXX,

I’ve been having a rough time of it lately. Of us. I have an even worse time trying to tell you about it. It’s natural to be defensive, it’s natural to feel that you’ve had no part in the muck going on in my head - but...

Who knows, maybe I’m not being fair. Maybe I’m the problem and I’m simply blaming it on you. There’s no amount of distance from the situation that give us true logical 20/20. There’s always going to be bias.

I know you care about me, love me even. But I struggle with other parts of it. I don’t think the love is really enough. There’s the distance to consider. Distance I’ve very patiently put up with for 6 years, with no real indication that it’s going to get better. There’s also the fact that you don’t really seem to want me. You say you do - but you know that saying; actions speak louder than words.

I feel like I’m nothing more than a good friend, a good friend you say “I love you” to every day. And in exchange, I don’t really know what I get... I don’t feel desirable, or desired... Hell, I haven’t even gotten so much as a birthday or Christmas present from you in 2 years. I don’t usually bring that one up in conversation because I know it would come out wrong. It’s not about the materialism, really... it’s about the connection there. I don’t really feel like we have one. Not anymore, anyway.

And then you applied for a new job, a good job, an ‘I-wouldn’t-close-the-distance-if-I-got-that-job’ job. Granted, you didn’t think you’d get it, but what if you did? How much more waiting would you expect from me? How many more nights would I turn down invitations to see friends in order to listen to you talk about video games, or dogs, or military history - and never hear you talk about us?

I’m confused because something woke up inside me, and it suddenly started yelling at me that I’m not living - I’m just surviving. And now here I stand with only the barest inkling that there might be MORE out there, and wondering if giving up a 10+ year relationship is worth it.

If you don’t want me, can you please just let me go? Let me have my nights back, and let me find casual encounters to fill the void until someone DOES want me. Let someone who would choose me tell me I’m pretty again. I’m not getting any younger, but I am getting more tired, more lonely, and more empty.

I know you feel like it should be - but it’s not okay to tell me you’ll want me later. It’s not okay to tell me I’m the asshole for being hurt by something hurtful you said - even if you tell me you didn’t mean it that way. Our relationship is not okay.

I’m not okay.

And this isn’t about wanting someone else. Though the wakeup call came from long brown hair and a really rich laugh. No, I haven’t made a move on him in earnest (you do know I like to flirt). In part, because I respect you even still. In part because I respect him. I realize I don’t want him to feel like a side fling, and I certainly don’t want to hurt you.

No, this is about us. This is about the problems in our relationship. Problems that stretch back before the start of this year - long before I met him.

So I just feel lonely. Unwanted by you. He’s oblivious.

And I can’t even find the words to say this to you.

Maybe I never will.

Until then, I know we’ll talk tomorrow. Just not about this.

Sincerely, The Coyote

[thecoyotelovely]

Dreams, Nightmares, and Reality

She sat down with her text, lengths of scrolled paper that detailed her experiences within the Dream Realm, and the magic she pulled from within. She had horrific handwriting, and so her text was on two copies. The first was where she wrote fast, ignoring good penmanship in favor of getting her thoughts down quickly while they were fresh in her mind. The second was where she cleaned up her handwriting, and ensured that her sentences were not repetitive or unclear. Tonight was the first draft. She lifted a quill and began to write swiftly. She and the other Dreamers had spoken today, round table style, each talking about their challenges and successes - the former outnumbering the latter by quite a bit. But Dream Magic had been dead for many thousands of years. None of them should expect to get it overnight. Laurel hadn’t done much with the Dreaming since the Nightmares of the Hunter began - she’d been too afraid to expend more time in the realm. Add to that, she hadn’t had a reason to use the Second Circle of the magic, though she had learned it.  But - conversation had come up, she’d had an idea. And here she was now, trying to get everything on paper before she forgot herself.

Her pen scrawled along the page with short, swift strokes. Her finger cramped under the speed of the writing as she whispered the words she was writing to herself to ensure they made sense in a sentence. She was fine for awhile. Three pages in before the change happened. In the concentration of the moment, she didn’t notice it at first. The screaming started so gradually that she mistook it for an impending headache.

It drowned out her whispered voice, which changed from a soft, if insistent tone - to one near screeching as she implored the screaming to stop. The screams were joined by a dog howling - and her blood ran as ice. She pushed away from the desk and covered her long ears, trying to drown out a sound that had no genesis outside of her own head. Abruptly, it ended, and she found herself on her back on the floor, curled into the fetal position. She’d shoved herself out of the chair and could feel the slight bruise on the back of her head from where her head had collided against the ground. Her hands were still clamped, painfully over her ears and she was breathing hard. It took a second for her to realize she was okay... “No...” she whispered, drawing her hands away from the side of her head. “No, gods, please... not now. I thought I’d escaped this...” She got up, and pulled herself up using the edge of her table. Looking down at her notes, she let out a soft sob. Her words had ended two paragraphs ago, and her hand had continued by scratching the sharp quill of her pen into the surface of the table, gouging wood free in deep gashes, and splattering ink across the paper and table as though it were blood. She touched the gash with trembling fingers and lowered her head, pressing her hand to her forehead as she tried to process what had happened. She needed more whiskey. She needed to forget... The Dream’s price was due. She was going to pay for ever believing this day wouldn’t come...

[georgetakei]

When you hear someone talking about you from another room.  Source: Nerdgasm

[thecoyotelovely]

I can’t stop watching this gif, she’s so gorgeous....

[thecube42-deactivated20171212]

YOU WOULDNT DOWNLOAD A DRAGON

[howtotrainyourbabyboo]

If I could download a dragon all the cops in the world couldn’t stop me

[thecoyotelovely]

^ This.

[gotinstarblog-deactivated201512]

[oceanabylonianshell-deactivated]

oh god I’m excited so excited help me out roger you got this

[mudkip-vevo]

Please give me my financial aid back, Roger. I need it to go back to college.

[mustangsally78]

CHAAAAAAAAAASE MAYBE I JUST NEED TO REBLOG ROGER!

[marinarusalka]

I don’t know whether anything amazing will happen, but that’s a very cute fish. Look at his little smiley face awww.

[thecoyotelovely]

Well, it can’t hurt. I mean, look at his cute widdle face.

[thecoyotelovely]

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This is why I love the Girl Scouts! They want to make sure that everyone is included! Help them out if you can, spread the word!

[sheldontinydino]

[thecoyotelovely]

I just wanna snuggle him.

[ladieswholarp]

Hi! I've finally found a LARP group that will actually let me participate. Many would not let me play because I was under 18. As a first time 17 year old female larper that will be going in solo, do you have any tips? I'm worried about being left out because I don't know anyone. I'm also worried that the males in the group will try some funny business.

Hello! As ever, here is my LARPing 101 post, and here is more detailed info from LARP Hacks. As a general LARP starter kit, they should be helpful, and I’m happy to answer any other more specific questions. Like that one you just did!

Keep reading

[becomingthecrone]

Also, there is almost always at least one self-described LARP Mom at a game who will make an effort to watch out for and integrate new players, and they tend to be particularly protective of underaged girls. See if you can reach out to the community ahead of time (via FB, game forums, etc) and let the players know you’re coming and are a little bit nervous. You’ll probably have several offers of help and connections pretty quickly.

[thecoyotelovely]

^ This! LARPers are protective of one another. You’ll find your niche.

[lesbianfreyja]

the phrase “curiosity killed the cat” is actually not the full phrase it actually is “curiosity killed the cat but satisfaction brought it back” so don’t let anyone tell you not to be a curious little baby okay go and be interested in the world uwu

[violet-nomad-deactivated2018120]

See also:

Blood is thicker than water The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb.

Meaning that relationships formed by choice are stronger than those formed by birth.

[espurr-roba]

Let’s not forget that “Jack of all trades, master of none” ends with “But better than a master of one.”

It means that being equally good/average at everything is much better than being perfect at one thing and sucking at everything else. So don’t worry if you’re not perfect at something you do! Being okay is better!

[theshantiestme11ophone]

These made me feel better

[thecoyotelovely]

I needed these today. <3

[queenbradbury]

omg so yesterday i put a salt line on the pathway to our front door because i was fucking around and my brother was pretending to be a demon

and today we ordered pizza and the salt line was still there

and my brother went outside to sign for the pizza

and the pizzaman refused to step over the salt line, like he almost did and then he backed up and handed my bro the pizza and left; which is pretty ridiculous because it’s far from our door

so a heads up to everyone i’m pretty sure domino’s is actually run by demons??? kind of like how in men in black the post office is run by aliens

[pep95]

demono

[dpdjohneggleg-deactivated201608]

((”Not just pizza”))

[cutest-angle-in-heaven]

((”but eternal damnation”))

[thecoyotelovely]

If we find out this dude is a Crossroads Demon, let me know, I have a request to make.

[oldman-logan]

[feministlikeme]

I SERIOUSLY NEED TO GO SEE THIS MOVIE.

[thecoyotelovely]

Yes, yes you do. It’s fantastic.

[wilwheaton]

Is a tabletop game the same as a board game, or are there differences? Thanks!

I think it’s the same, though some people like to use Tabletop as a name to identify what we used to call “hobby games”, like the ones we play on Tabletop, versus games like Monopoly, Pay Day, and Ants in the Pants.

[thecoyotelovely]

Two Cents! Tabletops are games that don’t have a board that comes in the box, like D&D, Warmachine, etc. You have to build the board (or don’t need one at all). Board games are the games that physically come with a board, like Settlers of Catan, Tsuro, or Smallworld.

But, that’s always how I’ve seen it - not sure if it’s accurate.

[thecoyotelovely]

I’m convinced you will never look more insane than when you’re trying to find that one hair that somehow got stuck in your shirt.

[irisconfusa]

So I’m doing a project on modern witches and I’m looking for some statistics. Please reblog this if you identify as LGBTQ and practice some form of witchcraft!

[thecoyotelovely]

I dunno if I’d say I’m part of the LGBTQ movement, but I’m at least a fair percentage Bi. I like kissing women, that’s gotta count for something.

[thecoyotelovely]

Foot in Mouth Syndrome is Strong with this One...

So I've been debating with myself about telling this story - not because I don't think it's funny, because when you really get down to it, it's freaking hilarious... but because I have some incredibly empathetic people on my feed, and I worry that they'll erroneously be concerned for me.

So before I tell this story, I want to start by saying that I'm okay, my feelings aren't hurt, and I know I'm awesome. I'm an Aries after all, it takes more than this to get me down.

Last night I went to a meet and greet that served as a party for my niece and her Sister Queens who are headed to Nationals to represent Nevada in the Miss United States pageant. It was an AWESOME time, and I had a great time seeing my family, and my adopted family and friends, and basically just cracking jokes in my own usual style.

There was an opportunity to pass out business cards there, so I brought some with me, but I didn't do much networking only because I was more interested in seeing the people I was there to see.

Toward the end of the night, this woman B-LINES for me, like comes out of nowhere sort, and our conversation proceeds thusly:

Woman: "Can I have your business card?"

Me: "Sure!" ::pop open my case and pull one of my cards out, holding it out for her.

Woman: ::hands over her card:: "I work for a Doctor! He helped me lose weight, I used to be 500 lbs, he can help you too!"

Me: ::the 'are you FUCKING kidding me' face has happened without me really having to contemplate its existence. It works better than if I'd said anything::

Woman: "But, I mean, he's just a really great doctor!"

Me: "I sew costumes." :;blandly::

Woman: "I'll call you!" :: she runs off before I can say anything more.::

Me: ::under my breath:: Good thing my phone number's not on my card....

The comedy of this, to me, is that this woman is SURROUNDED by beautiful girls of all ages - some secure in their beauty - some not so much so (as evidenced by the sheer volume of plastic surgery I could pick out in the crowd). I figure she was like "SCORE, I FOUND ONE I CAN ADVERTISE TO" and she stuck her foot squarely in her mouth.

Out of morbid curiosity, I read the back of the card, and it's an advertisement for a "chiropractor" (clearly friends with the first one I saw....) who does consultations and conventions for his body wrap therapy "Guaranteed to help you lose 4" - 14" the first time you try it!"

I have better things to spend my money on than some ridiculous meeting with a "chiropractor" who wants to sell me hocus pocus... you know, like my trip to LA this weekend to buy more yards of fabric than I can comfortably carry.

Out of spite, I got Ice Cream after the party. Or well, Greek Frozen Yogurt - but that's only cause I LOVE Greek Frozen Yogurt. If they hadn't have had Greek Frozen Yogurt, it would have been Ice Cream.

[dr-archeville]

Jurassic World: The Spoiler FAQ

Jurassic World is delighting audiences, smashing box office records, and making people excited about dinosaurs again.  But did you notice the movie is also sort of terrible?  If the new installment of Jurassic Park left you with questions, our patented Spoiler FAQ has the answers you didn’t even know you needed!

[dr-archeville]

I missed some of these observations on first viewing (but I believe I am getting better at noticing them),so this may help you decide if you want to put up good money to see it or not.

[breefolk-hates-staff]

Fully worth reading, but I have one minor change I would make: their Titanic analogy? Yeah, change it from “making a new Mega-Titanic” and instead raise the old Titanic from the depths, patch it up and polish it to make it prettier and change the name to ‘Mega-Titanic’. Because they literally built the park on the same island as the old park.

Also, I can kind of forgive the stupidity of the park operators in handling the Indominus on the grounds that they didn’t realize they were holding a literally weaponized dinosaur. Seriously, what accountant didn’t point out the RIDICULOUS amounts of funding coming from the U.S. Dept. Of Defense?

[thecoyotelovely]

Okay, okay, wait, let’s back some of this up here for a second: “Oh, and to teach one business-oriented woman that her life running a multimillion dollar operation utilizing the most advanced genetics research in the world is completely worthless without children.“ No. They’re saying her life is worthless without family and connections. Every woman who doesn’t want to have kids is gonna have that one family member who tells them they’ll eventually change their minds. Trust me, I’m there. But Claire didn’t get to the end of the story and tell Owen that they needed to go turn her into a baby factory. She WAS too uptight, and he was WAY too whatever the opposite of uptight is - but they both found a way to respect each other by the end of the movie. Maybe they only go screw once. Maybe they have a great relationship. Either way, she’s learned she’s not an island, and she can rely on other people. Everything else is people spending too much time reading into it. Why does Pratt know so much about dinosaur behavior? It’s all those dinosaur classes the Navy makes its recruits take. In this universe, they’ve had some TWENTY years, and several outbreaks of dinosaurs for people to get involved. Obviously some people took up Dino-wrangling, because they *exist* again. They’ve made a point to say that Dinosaurs are now passe in pop culture - people are too accustomed to them. Not really. He was referring to this clip, in which Pratt’s badass was all cool and natural and sexxxy, and calling out Howard’s exec for being uptight. And she called him out for being a slob. People keep leaving that part out. The Indominus asks them? Yup. Like, in… dinosaur language? And this, to me, is really the central part of the story. That the dinosaurs are smarter than we give them credit for (re: Claire seeing them more clearly as creatures instead of assets when she sees the dying one with Owen). It has NOTHING to do with her ovaries, or any of that nonsense, it’s all the debates among the staff about their rights as living creatures. *** Look, I’m not saying this movie doesn’t have issues. But it’s a summer action flick about giant freakin dinosaurs. It’s not out to win any Oscars for being a tear jerker, and it is not NEARLY the sexist trash that people are ragging it for. The one thing I would have taken out of the movie were the divorcing parents. It didn’t add anything. And to stop this massive amount of harpying, they should have played up the fact that Pratt lives in a ramshackle hut like a bum. He and Claire come from SUCH different backgrounds I’m surprised they ever went on a first date at all, but hey, hormones. And, let’s be real, I’d bang Chris Pratt, even if he showed up in Board Shorts, so it shows Claire is a better woman than I. Anyway, I’m a bit tired of people trying to rip Jurassic World to shreds. I know it’s apparently cool to hate on the big popular things, but in this instance it’s reaching. HARD.

[azulila]

momma raptor and his raptorlings

[thecoyotelovely]

Adorkable, really.