I want you, L'aer. I want you beyond the affection my dragon has for yours, beyond being dragonriders at all. I want to be your weyrmate in every way possible, to share your bed at night, to share your thoughts each day. I want to spread you out on the bed daily, to worship you with my hands, mouth, and my own body. I want to taste the salt of your sweat, the sweet musk that comes with being a Rider, the seed that spills from your body as I draw it out of you. I want to have you writhing beneath me, begging for more as if Rolith were soaring high, controlling your desire with her heat. I would show you the stars in an entirely new way, let you feel the heat of my magic at your very core. I would have the entire weyr hear your moans, make your voice hoarse from crying out my name so loudly. And after we were both sated, slick in our own sweat and panting from effort, I would gather you close and hold you like the precious soul you are to me.
[ He knows the ways of others, of men and dragon risings and what it's like to be the center of attention and wanting to run away and hide but can't because it's about the dragon first and the Queen second, and Pern third and the Weyr fourth, and the Hold fifth and the bronzes' sixth, and then browns, blues, and then greens, and the individual is last. When there is no family, and no children, and no marriage, where it is reprehensible to be with another man outside of the weyrs but Green Riders don't count not really - because they are just replacements for females. So they are propositioned, and Green Dragons rise four times a turn versus the Gold's one, so sex becomes something that some look forward to and others get used to because they are apart from society but at the bottom of the hierarchy with no chance of any voice, with fifty percent of all births being Green - they don't count.
So Loki comes to him not as a friend or another rider or his superior for he rides a Brown, but as a weyrmate, and the things that are said so candidly are things not spoken (to him) outside Rolith rising, and what does he say to that? Because dragonriders are not monogamous by tradition, save but rarely, and like a few before him (and some after), L'aer wishes for another way, but the dragon decides in the end. So, L'aer speaks in a rush of emotion of words spilling over one another, and it's not words of self-depreciation or low self worth but gratitude. ]
I am not - used to this. Greens rarely take a single partner...ever, and in the fifty two risings that Rolith has had, she has never been caught by the same dragon but thrice, and she rises high, and flies as far as she can - but I have not been with someone without her flying and me being with her. There are many other Greens to be flown and - that's not what I mean to say, I mean to say that your traditions are different than mine, I understand that what is done here isn't done the same elsewhere, even outside of the Weyrs, it's not done like this and -
I can't give you much, as a Green Rider, other than Rolith being the fastest, but I can give you my attention, and myself, and because I am equal parts Rolith as I am me, I believe that is enough. And I can give you this for every day except for Rolith's rising because we both know that instinct prevails and - I don't want your perspective of me to change because of the chance that Rolith may get flown by another.
[ it's a conversation that all Greens and Golds have with prospective weyrmates, whether he is aware of it or not ]
