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"do not focus on the object or imagery itself, focus on the elemental innergy it represents" ✨ - ChiefessBri https://www.instagram.com/p/BmBK5J3gsCd/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1khwktd92x1al

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breaking point of a creator

gettin to a point where the normal way of gettin ahead ain't workin, you be thoughts a way from grindin it out by twerkin

in the box is not where im supposed to be, comfortable in struggle shouldnt even be in my genez

especially if im a descendant of the literal galaxy, a starseed but still mankind corrupted mentally, physically, and spiritually

"it'll get better, hang in there Bri" repetitive mantras of those who fear stepping in your shoes, because staying on the outside in the realm of critiquing you keeps them safe from feeling your blues

the "get better" shyt has to come from pushin harder from where youve been, changing how its gonna be done comes fron the God within

i am a creator

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the cleansings

sheesh..... cleansing is definitely on a plural in my world. emotional cleansing is cake, the spiritual part isnt that bad either but this mental stuff is again.....sheeeeeesh!!! the things we allow to rest and manifest in our minds since childhood is fukn amazing. what amazes me most is how clear the negative stuff sticks then forms your style of perspective of you and your life. growing up with a narcissistic mother wasnt always fun but once i cracked the code on it, things became clear, then sad.

we pass down not just DNA but karmic, emotional and behavioral shyt too. cleansing and reprogramming from years of dysfunctional parenting is mad work and honestly, ive only been at for about four days and im beyond tired already lol from dysfunctional momz to dysfunctional boyfriends.....yeah, its gettin a lil real in my head as im confronting what has took root and weeding that crap out. the repetition of telling yourself that you have worth in various ways is one of the weapons of choice and the release thru tears is a plus too. but that real real work, is still being a functional human being during your cleanses and not becoming a depression statistic.....cuz thats what's trending in our insane asylum we call "society." meditation is on the menu in the a.m.

I'll Holla 😘

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healing the healer

life has been hard but is it all my fault??? nah and yeah. i mean, i could have made better choices but how can one make good choices when one wasnt taught to decipher whats good and whats bad in detail.....from how to pick the right boyfriend to how to love or even find yourself. the generation before me in my family were not healed. communication between parent and child was foreign, so the broken home mentality keeps passing thru time, blood and space....repeating the same sad story, the same abuse, the same pain and the same tears. its hard to remain optimistic when all you know how to do is live in darkness. you want to be vulnerable but are afraid to trust anyone with your story. the fear then seeps into your very destiny. you no longer feel like the limitless child you were but instead you feel the gravity of losing your imagination to society's adulthood. i am in the process of reprogramming my mind, rewiring my whole Being. i have come to mend the cord between Self and InnerChild/InnerGod. i have lost the will to be a creator but i will not lose the fight to reclaim my power and my destiny......into the rabbit hole of Self i go to reclaim what is mine, inner-getic lost things i must find so i can become Divine.

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healing my aura and remaining in my meditative state, while Oggun shows me how to use my strength renewed #blueagates #celestines #selenite #iron #oggun

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i am my solution cuz ima CozmikGangsta #ganggang✨

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push thru like a lotus in the mud. manifesting your destiny is like a literal birth. its fun to conceive but each phase of its growth comes pain from the transformation of Self. stay in tune with your breath, for it is the natural pulse of time itself. breathe deep as the contractions aka your struggles appear and follow thru until you physically manifest yo stuff. #currentmood #currentlife #pushthru #therebirth

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CUT OFF THEIR SUPPLY EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY. break the fukn spell and remember, the abusive cycle only continues the more you keep giving of yourself and losing yourself. THEY RARELY CHANGE. your not in love, youre not helping them get out of it YOU ARE FEEDING THESE TOXIC ASS PEOPLE! dont even pray for em, cuz youre still feeding these jinns your innergy. Codependent ppl are high risk for lettin these shytz linger in their lives. #FukNarcissism

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the purge

so it's winter and the weather sucks in the physical realm but i will say it is very helpful in slowing down time in a sense. the need to change is there and so is the action, hence why winter is necessary to analyze all of my life thus far. not to highlight just the bad times but to figure out how to maintain the positive. solitude is MUST. for extroverted folk this is difficult at first but once we get past the first week, shielding from the outside world enough to focus on our healing becomes like clockwork. social media, empty connections becomes unnecessary and connecting with yourself becomes absolutely the most important thing in your life.....if we dont disconnect often, you will flood yourself with everyone else's innergy and issues and that adds on to what you already have to work thru.