i'm nobody, who are you?

she/they 16 TW

[thefallenchildofthestars]

i’d like to reinvent myself again, thank you

[thefallenchildofthestars]

my ao3 didn't immediately take down my post so maybe i'm fine?? idk i just want to go back to writing and i am not a huge fan of tumblr anymore

[thefallenchildofthestars]

I AM SO MAD AT AO3 RN

because SOMEONE REPORTED MY FUCKING ACCOUNT and now everything is being taken down and it being hidden, so i've gotta copy and paste everything either onto my new account or just into a google doc because i had a lot of work in there, and like some of my favorite poetry, so i'm kinda mad.

whatever, ill cope but still. it even took down the post about me complaining about them taking down my posts which the IRONY

idk just dont be shocked if i'm more active here than i was before

<3

[thefallenchildofthestars]

yk im gonna have to come back to tumblr because ao3 emailed me about my journal entries so i’m like alright whore.

so yeah i’m not a huge fan of this platform anymore but i’ll take what i can get, i have another ao3 account but like idk i have a lot of works on my main

[thefallenchildofthestars]

almost crying over chips & queso is pathetic but here i am

[thefallenchildofthestars]

i cannot believe i just redownloaded this app for fucking pro tips again.

[thefallenchildofthestars]

it’s bad when he’s playing the guitar and singing so badly at 3:30am and all i’m doing is smiling and it’s the wrong boy and i shouldn’t be doing this it’s the wrong boy

[bogsheep]

if someone close to you is disabled, you have to take that into account when you go places with them. you have to think about accessibility, fatigue, pain, flare ups, etc because its exhausting and hurtful when people who say they love you dont bother putting the effort in to make sure you ACTUALLY have a good time.

🔪abled people are required to reblog this🔪

[thefallenchildofthestars]

bo burnham just released his songs on spotify; and i can already predict my spotify by the end of the year.

thanks.

[thefallenchildofthestars]

i was handed a screen when i was young.

it was shoved into my face without a second thought.

i asked my mother if i could play outside,

she said maybe later

and hit a button that turned the box on in front of me.

when i say i wish i was born in the 70’s,

grew up in the 80’s

not because the aesthetic is nice,

which it is,

but because it was real.

curfew was when the street lights came on,

you went to the arcade with your friends,

you went to 3 dollar movie friday’s.

it’s was authentic.

but it doesn’t stop me from being apart of this generation.

my screen time is double digits on the daily,

i’m on all social medias,

i even got facebook.

turning 16 is an odd experience,

i wasn’t even sure if i’d turn 16 to be totally honest with you.

but here i am,

blowing out my lighter at 12:30am.

i’m not sure what happens next,

but the conjuring 3 is a good movie

and it’s 5 dollar tuesday’s,

and i think that everything is okay.

[thefallenchildofthestars]

let's talk inside by bo burnham

it is fantastic. as a mentally ill person? it hits a little bit different, especially during an episode (when this conveniently dropped). this touches a lot of topic that are important and i'm glad he mentions them.

that being said, please watch with caution. the warnings are suicide and language, but like there's a lot more. there dissociative tendencies, overthinking, depression, helplessness, among a lot of others those are just on the top of my head.

so just like watch with caution.

but here is the link to my full out review that is over 1,000 words (mind you i have so many missing assignments but reviewing the comedy man's film? priorities.)

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[thefallenchildofthestars]

ok happy post on ao3 done, now time to talk

jesus fuck i wanted to die tn. and like me and kayleigh made jokes about climbing to the roof and jumping. that would’ve been a fucking scene.

i had a lot of flashbacks tonight and was not grooving not moving (that’s a lie i did dance a lot tonight).

i want it to stop. everything all at once. i want him to stop texting me and stop lying to me and stop calling me pretty bc it’s a big joke and i can’t be the punchline and i want to cry and i can’t breathe and i can’t fucking stop shaking and i want a drink so badly right now oh my god

my nails glow in the dark which is kinda sick and i’m gonna try to focus on that and my breathing and try not to freak.

because i don’t need therapy or medications or a hospital because i’m fine. i’m fine i’m okay please don’t make me do this again please don’t make me go back

i wanna puke.

[thefallenchildofthestars]

im not saying what this is, you can figure it out

BULLSHIT. I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY AND HOT AND IM LIVING MY LIFE SO WELL, SO FUCK U. SINCERELY. (at least i didn't get back with my ex) its catchy ill admit that, the chorus is good but you cant hear jack shit. probably for the better.

the beat is kinda shit, i guess i get the vibe of summer but idk, OH THAT VOCAL WAS GROSS. i do not like this song, like the lyrics are alright but like it gets wiped out by the bad drums. (this is the song that made me text claire and sent the link to talk about it). god, pick a new fade out

HAHHAA THE BEGINNING SOUNDS LIKE A FUCKIN SPOTIFY AD IM GONNA PEE MYSELF wallows vibe, oh it was good until the lyrics started. bs take ur god complex and put it up ur ass, you care a lot about what people think of you you just want to act like you dont. the vocals arent great theyre too faded. i like the concept of the song i wont lie, but they couldve done better (i know that bc they have).

oh this hurts my head, the bouncing back and forth. WEEK BABE THAT LASTED MORE THAN A WEEK. ok the beat is good but the lyrics dont match it well. ok that was cool. its funky and more upbeat, which im happy to hear bc theyve been trying to work on that a lot more. oh that referenced the ep! that was clever. okay this is probably one of the better songs off the ep. i do like the first one a lot its super catchy, but this is a good one too. oh ive heard these lyrics before. lmao that's embarrassing.

ok yeah im done with this but this was fun ig

[thefallenchildofthestars]

a statement im shouting into the void.

i'm doing it!!! i'm done, i've dreamed of it for a very long time so i think it's time.

i'm writing my royalty/fantasy book.

and yes, i've said that this was it, that this was gonna be the time. but i'm not pressuring myself to write it. and i might not even post it chapter by chapter until i have at least most of it written. it's just going to be something done, simply because i've never had a royalty book hit in all of the right places.

some do very well, like long may she reign?? fantastic!! i love it!! and i am determined to take all of the parts i love and smush them into one for my own enjoyment and fangirling.

yk what, i will make it about a princess and a guard. and no one can stop me. is it cliche? yes. is it overused? most definitely. will that change my mind on this? n o

so yes, i will be writing this and it will take however damn long it takes bc deadlines stress me out

if you have any ideas or would like to share your fav prompts lmk!!

[thefallenchildofthestars]

a piece on moving on.

there kind of comes a time in this,

this mess of a break up,

where i finally get to let go.

i didn't think i could, for the longest time, you know.

almost like you weren't letting me.

but i think that,

by myself,

i've gotten to the point where i dont need you,

or anyone for that matter.

i simply want them.

so i'm moving on.

yes, i'll still think of you from time to time,

or i'll mention you in conversation on how dumb i was for how naive i had been.

but the bottom of my shower will no longer collect tears over you.

and that feels so nice.

[thefallenchildofthestars]

i miss you.

i don’t think i’ve ever stopped.

and it hurts so badly.

(please come back from the hospital)

[thefallenchildofthestars]

it was something in 7th grade!!! i was confused about gender and i confided in you (YEARS AGO MIGHT I ADD) and you brought it up to him and that was so uncalled for and so not cool and it was something i didn’t like talking about with other people and my gender identity is personal. i don’t mind sharing my pronouns but my past i do. my personal things i do. the things i said to you in private i do.

so fuck me i guess, you have no respect for my boundaries

but he dropped it when i asked him to and i cannot believe how much i love him as my best friend