[ashimonster]

[thefatbutterflyx]

I’ve done my piercing two days ago and can’t chew on food since then. Good way of sticking to your diet lovelies, I recommend

[skinnygirlcornerrr]

when I eat too much it makes my stomach hurt.

when I eat too much I lose my progress.

when I eat too much I gain weight.

when I eat too much I am not in control.

when I eat too much I am unproductive.

when I eat too much I look bloated.

when I eat too much I hurt at practice.

when I eat too much I am not perfect.

[guitarplayermrs]

[cigaretteprincess-deactivated20]

The struggle is real.

[thefatbutterflyx]

🦋

[annahmolly]

[im-full-thanks]

woke up the same weight as yesterday. um wtf i restricted hella good yesterday. i don’t deserve this disrespect.

[wsrod-chmur]

[thefatbutterflyx]

☕

[angelicsthinspo]

everytime anyone i know says they’re gonna lose weight, my ed goes crazy and makes me feel so competitive against them? the idea of someone becoming skinny before me is so scary and makes me so angry with myself. 

[thefatbutterflyx]

Word

[frigid-ice-queen]

will being skinny solve all my problems? obviously not.

will I assume it will until I actually become skinny? almost definitely.

[re-relapse]

Not wanting to eat in front of anyone because it makes you anxious

Vs

Only wanting to eat in front of people so your eating habits look normal

Vs

Wanting everyone to think you don’t eat anything

[thefatbutterflyx]

This🖤

[aloneshisharrr20]

Me in my mind in a restaurant...

My ed: you look so fucking fat like wtf you don’t deserve to eat

My depression: eat everything. No one cares anyway. It won’t matter because you’ll be dead anyway.

My anxiety: but what if someone sees me eat? I’ll look like a whale!! Oh god what do we do??? Ugh.

Me: ok I’ll just eat something healthy. I’ll take a salad.

My ed: NO

My depression: NO

My anxiety: NO

Me: ok well I’m starving wtf do you want me to do. I haven’t eaten in 18 hours.

My ed: good. You gonna be skinni Queen In no time.

My anxiety: but what if people start to question why I’m not eating anything?

My ed: make up and excuse goddamit you’ve done this before.

My depression: no one will care enough to worry if you’re eating or not.

Me: ok ya know what what if I just die

My ed: yes

My depression: yes

My anxiety: yes

[understands]

[sticklythinskinny]

Goals on goals

[thefatbutterflyx]

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[pr3tty--girls]

[thefatbutterflyx]

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[darkesttrip]

[ryczytka]

Marzę o tym, żeby pewnego dnia stojąc na wadze móc zobaczyć te pierdolone 50kg…

Me.

[epamietnik]

38 ☹

[thefatbutterflyx]

46

[disappearing-ana]

Sorry, but…

… You aren’t special. Those thoughts of “I need to eat something, I’m feeling lightheaded.” and “I’ve done well, I deserve this.” or the worst, “this one thing won’t hurt.” have been had by tons of people. The only difference is some people ignore them and keep moving forward, and the rest give in to the cake or sandwich. We all know who the skinny ones are though.

[thefatbutterflyx]

*cough*