•The First Nocturne•

[lifeinpoetry]

And isn’t that the most beautiful thing? To want to survive even your sleep?

Isn’t it terrible to know you must?

—  Kayleb Rae Candrilli, from “I Imagine Juliet and Snow White Would Make a Beautiful Couple and I Would Watch Them Kiss Without a Question (Or, Being Awake Makes It Much Easier to Realize Yourself),” published in BOAAT

[theyellowfinch-blog]

Goals

[sexetc]

Sometimes gender identity changes throughout one’s life!

Read: A Crash Course in Gender & Gender Identity 

[lifeinpoetry]

I want to be soft and what is softer than the sky before it breaks?

Kayleb Rae Candrilli, from “When I transition will I lose my taste for the storm?” published in Pittsburgh Poetry Review (via lifeinpoetry)

[lifeinpoetry]

… rusted metal, blood wrapping around the head of a train, and I want to blame all sadness on the moon—it’s red meat dangling above us.

Kayleb Rae Candrilli, from “Crescent Line #20 and the Blood Moon Is Still on Us” published in Beech Street Review (via lifeinpoetry)

[lifeinpoetry]

I am scared of my partner

being face to face with my blood because I love them.

— Kayleb Rae Candrilli, from “During my top surgery consultation, my partner says to the doctor, tell me what you will do to their veins,” published in Tinderbox

[lifeinpoetry]

If your hands weren’t still around my neck, I’d tell you what you already know, I could love you better sober.

— Kayleb Rae Candrilli, from “My Chest as Monsoon,” published in Nat. Brut

[lifeinpoetry]

Remember: A mouth feels like it has many teeth / only when it closes.

Kayleb Rae Candrilli, from “Sinners must live with what their sins sow,” published in Grist (via lifeinpoetry)

best line i ever wrote, i think <3

[lifeinpoetry]

… the bottom line is I plan to rip myself apart.

Kayleb Rae Candrilli, from “on wanting top surgery in the fascist regime,” A Portrait in Blues (via lifeinpoetry)

[lifeinpoetry]

&

i’ve decided my body is evil

and evilly religious it climaxes in tongues

— Kayleb Rae Candrilli, from What Runs Over, published in The Wanderer

[thefirstnocturne]

it’s so cool when my stuff makes rounds on tumblr <3 <3 le sigh

[jackiepapanieruarts]

Digital diary

[jackiepapanieruarts]

Digital diary

[lifeinpoetry]

There is nothing more powerful than my mouth and who I choose to let live                                               there.

— Kayleb Rae Candrilli, from “A Limbo Moon In Love // You Will Fall In Limbo Love,” published in Sixth Finch

[thefirstnocturne]

It’s me =] 

[thefirstnocturne]

top surgery!

hi everyone, haven’t been on here for ages but I’ve started a youcaring for my top surgery. everything helps! and reblogs would be amazing. 

https://www.youcaring.com/kaylebcandrilli-881112 

[mikeyduss-deactivated20180207]

Reblog for insured top surgery.

[insomniac-arrest]

why I use ‘y’all’

it’s fun to say

gender neutral 

I like rubbing my gay little hands all over southern culture out of spite

fun to say

[birdasaurus]

[jackiepapanieruarts]

March 28th, 2017 Digital diary