My Complex Feelings Lurk In Darkness

Hoping for a better tomorrow.

[thefreudianiceberg]

Celebration.

It's the 6th of February.

If you're out there - you know what I want to say.

Sto lat.

For many more to come.

Until next year <3

[thefreudianiceberg]

I love you.

April 2, 2010.

I love you.

April 2, 2021.

Thank you for the last 11 years of friendship and love.

[thefreudianiceberg]

A year ago today.

I saw you and I knew this was it.

The ease and comfort you gave me... The way you took care of me at my low... you completely embraced me for who I am.

We both knew that what we have is special. Unstoppable.

Timeless.

I loved you and will always love you.

I'm yours forever.

Soulmate

[thefreudianiceberg]

2021.

Resolutions?

Honestly -- 2020 was amazing. I plan on continuing what I have been doing.

Keep being healthier.

Keep being focused on my career.

Keep cherishing the person I dearly love.

Make every day better than the last.

#boo

[thefreudianiceberg]

Merry Christmas, Darling.

[thefreudianiceberg]

2020 pt 2.

If you had asked me a year ago where I would be today I wouldn't even come close to where I am now.

Not only do I live - yes you read it correctly - live with my high school sweet heart/bf/soulmate. I also own a condo.

Christmas time is only a few weeks away and I truly have everything.

I'm a very happy camper and I can't wait where the future brings me (us).

To many years to come.

[adeptofpureblue-blog]

Some mornings are brighter than others.

Goodmorning “you”. :P

[thefreudianiceberg]

2020.

This year has been remarkable. I found someone who loves me for me. Never expected this but honestly.... when it's right.. it's right.

Full 9 yards with this one.

Pure utter bliss.

Can this Covid be over and we can find a place already?!

[thefreudianiceberg]

It has a bumpy ride but I can now confidently say I am in a happy place with my most favourite human since I was 14.

It was completely unexpected and if you asked me months ago if this would have ever happened I would have laughed it right off and called you crazy.

For the first time in my life, there is:

No red flags.

No bullshit.

No more questioning.

This is it.

I feel valued and goodness ... I cant wait for the next steps.

Come what may.

[thefreudianiceberg]

Hello.

It's been a while.

The last few years have been better than the years prior.

I figured out who I am, I understand my body and its needs, I am more confident/honest/self-reflective than before.

I know what I want in life.

I want to be with someone who understands:

My chronic pain is a packaged deal;

I am flawed;

I wish for honesty; and

I want to enter the next steps of adulthood.*

*I want to share a home, have a dog, get married, and have kids.

Overall, I am a person who's made mistakes but without them I wouldn't be the person now.

That's all folks.

Until next time.

[positivepastel]

[cwote]

you’re stronger than them :)

[thefreudianiceberg]

Vibrations.

I look off at the distance and sigh. I sigh so loudly that it echo’s in the square box I am in. The vibrations tingle every hair in my body. I look around me in hopes that someone can hear me. 

[thefreudianiceberg]

Crumble.

The ground beneath me shakes. 

There is no way to stop it. 

Only time will tell.

[thefreudianiceberg]

Monsters.

Monsters come in all shapes and sizes. They can be your classmates, colleagues, people you see on the TV, or your parents.

I can say that my parents and I broke up.

The final straw was pulled and I’m washing my hands of them.

I always wanted my parents to be there for me and my brother. Wanted them to be in my future family. Wanted them to babysit when I’m at work. Wanted them to be.. something they are not and never will.

My family would always say, “don’t let people who make your life miserable continue. Break it off.” But if it’s certain family members you want to break from – then you’re the worst kind of person.

A vulcan would say, “illogical.”

Some of you on tumblr know me in real life and know what I have dealt with.

But I can say, as a 24 year old, I’m taking control of my life.

Enough with the emotional abuse. No more threats. No more irrational behaviour. Sure I’ll miss the financial support with only a freelance job to support myself, but living a double life is fucking exhausting.

This was the end of the line.

I always knew this day would come, since I was 11, which was always heart breaking. What kind of child wants to end a relationship with their parents? What kind of “parents” treat their child like their property? I can say I truly tried… but my entire family was absolutely unsuccessful with turning these people around for the better.

—–

Monsters are always conquered in stories. And this is my story.

[buzzfeeduk]

[sundayepiphany]

I’ve become really good at smiling and pretending like everything’s okay.

- D.N. // excerpt from a book i’ll never write #161 (via sundayepiphany)

[inveens]

Wolno Ci tęsknić. Wolno Ci płakać. Wolno Ci mieć słabsze dni. Ale nigdy nie wolno Ci się poddać.

(via inveens)