Solliloquies💌

my quiet corner of the world | muslim

[thegentlenomad]

hello my angels, this night was beautiful I ran down this lovely hill at midnight with my friends feeling the wind dance around me as the adrenalin rushed all over my body, the beautiful sky line never fails to amaze me, how everyone is in there in their one little worlds worrying about similar things and being happy over small things. remembering most people are ordinary people who simply want love and joy is so grounding.

I cannot believe I forgot to mention I finished college, I do wish I was more organised with my time and could take advantage of the free time but as ashamed as I am to admit I spend the first couple of weeks in a heavy rest where I was so demotivated but these past few days have been really nice to me and the suns shining I feel all warm and giddy.

I have a little plan for today to eat a healthy breakfast, keep on top of my cleanliness and also start gym!!!! this is all so very exciting as I haven’t been gym before and I’m so excited to just get myself moving.

I spent all of yesterday reading and cleaning and wow I must say a good book really puts you in such a trance once together finished your world feels so distorted, I believe they’re the best types of books.

Alas my rambling must come to end and I should get up and actually enjoy my day, I hope you’re all looking after yourself, treating yourself with kindness and grace and doing things that make you happy.

Sending you so much love as always <333

[thegentlenomad]

7.04.2021

Today I have been reading a lot which is making me feel warm and jolly and lots of ballet documentaries not to forget ruby granger my favourite youtuber. but the fear of college is so draining and a constant presence in my life , I cannot wait for it to all be over.

[thegentlenomad]

today I feel chatty , I just want to give life the due appreciation she deserves, thank you for your beautiful seasons , your lovely painted skies that greet us at the beginning of the day and wave us good bye towards the end , for your lovely rain and gentle breeze , for green green and green. thank you for animals and poetry , for warm mugs of tea and sincere prayer , for lovely chats and comfort of a loving God. i feel so blessed , always.

[thegentlenomad]

there’s something so beautiful about anonymity , I couldn’t possibly imagine the world knowing who I was , watching my every move , every look and interaction scrutinised. i couldn’t bare the thought of not having a private little life where the only concerns revolve around me , I love that I simply care about making today better than yesterday, the joy of living for yourself rather than for other people. the freeing feeling of knowing the world is yours to dip into and that being away from the public’s eye allows you to feel less pressure. i never envy influencers or popular people in my community or town , they seem miserable to me, living for the likes and approval of others , missing out on the joys of being yourself for yourself!

[thegentlenomad]

oh the joys of a new book!! I’m so enthralled and simply cannot wait to continue with this book, I had watched Anne with an E last summer and it was everything , I am hoping to watch the movie soon after I finish this book.

I need to catch up on my revision time table as my exams are only 5 weeks away and I need to give college my final push and then I have all the books I want to read waiting for me.

I hope you’re all looking after yourselves , it’s hard on my period because I miss praying but I also know it’s my responsibility to upkeep my iman.

Have a lovely night my angels I hope to wake up early tomorrow, sweet dreams :>

[thegentlenomad]

I hope the moon knows we love her dark side too !!!

[thegentlenomad]

Am I the only one that wishes aesthetics and academia was also filled with poise dainty dark skins and beautiful Afro 4c styled hair or perhaps moonlid eyes or melanated Asian skin idk I feel as if it’s always filled with the skinny Caucasian girl all the time and I suppose there’s nothing wrong with that in essence I just wish there was more inclusivity so that we can feel represented and it can also be relatable to POC people as well .... just a thought.

[shadesofacademia]

y e s

[thegentlenomad]

Thank you 😭 I’m so tired of the aesthetic always being catered to white people ALL the time like be inclusive !!!!

[thegentlenomad]

Am I the only one that wishes aesthetics and academia was also filled with poise dainty dark skins and beautiful Afro 4c styled hair or perhaps moonlid eyes or melanated Asian skin idk I feel as if it’s always filled with the skinny Caucasian girl all the time and I suppose there’s nothing wrong with that in essence I just wish there was more inclusivity so that we can feel represented and it can also be relatable to POC people as well .... just a thought.

[thegentlenomad]

MAY 13th

Study With Me...

Peace and blessings my angels so tonight I have a lot of work waiting for me because I was fasting during the day which means I find it so hard to get up and do work by myself. I believe my period cramps are coming in and all in all I’m feeling so slumped and demotivated right now and I’d love to get back ontop of my game.

22:45 - poetry anthology so I printed out my anthology so I’m just annotating according to the screen cast

23:45 - psychology pwp slides from pages 19-28 which is going to be a lot of note taking

1:00-2:00 - sociology pwp and sociology notes from the booklet

Tonight could be laylatul qadr so I’m going to spend 2:00-3:00 doing Quran and salah tul layl inshallah to again the rewards.

Love you my sweetest potato’s 🕊💛