We are totally dysfunctional right now and I’m at a loss.
Jake was recently diagnosed by a VA therapist he sees bi-weekly with PTSD and anxiety. He is medicated. But I don’t see much difference. In fact, I think things in our relationship are getting worse. He refuses to go to marriage counseling and he’s been telling his therapist he doesn’t have problems in our relationship. Because I do 100% of the work; with the marriage, the house, the dogs, the kid, and the foreign kid. I take care of everything. I do everything short of wiping his ass. And you guys, I’m tired and resentful. I can’t do everything anymore and he asks me whats wrong, I tell him I’m tired and then we fight because I’m resentful. I read blog posts of women who are or have been suffering the same fate. Some left, some stayed. Some got better with time, others are still struggling.
He has days like yesterday where he will go fishing all day with his dad and come home and work on the yard and train the bird dog and help with dinner. Then he has days like today where he just sleeps.
Currently, the toddler is being high maintenance, the foreign kid is hiding in her room, and Jake is sleeping on the couch while I attempt to entertain the toddler with toys AND work from home on real estate listings for commercial storefronts. I am just overwhelmed. My boss offers to move us to wherever I can find high traffic, lofty priced, art gallery type, retail space. I think about going with just the kid. It’s so wrong. Jake needs me now more than ever and I just can’t deal. Why can’t he just hold his shit in and suffer in silence like the rest of us?
