~Gabriel Miguel Anders~
bonded Guardian of Lorraine Melwood ~23 ~ He/Him
third year student at Brightwood
from San Antonio, Texas
Classes and Clubs:
Introduction to Submission
Caring for your Guarded
Introduction to D/s Relationships
Human Anatomy
Photography Club
Astronomy Club
At your absolute best you still won't be good enough for the wrong person. At your worst, you'll be priceless for the right person.
~Iamfearlesssoul
Gabriel, darling, the shoes are so beautiful! I love them, my sweetheart, and of course I will go to the Sadie Hawkins with you! I love that you asked, my sweet boy. How are you feeling? How was your day?
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Miss Lorraine, I hoped you might like the shoes. Not just because they’re shoes, but the butterflies, felt fitting for me. And I thought it would be a cute way to ask you to the Sadie Hawkins Dance. Of course I’d ask you. I hope you know that. I’m glad you said yes.
I am good, better than good actually. That’s thanks to you mi reina. My day has been good too. How are you? How has your day been?
Oh, yes. My darling, don’t you worry, I’ll teach you everything you need to know. Would you judge me, Gabriel, if I said a really good pair of shoes almost…Turns me on?
That’s what I like to hear, mi rey. Good boy, you know me. What are you waiting for, then? On your knees, Gabriel. Right here, at my feet. Your belt? How creative, my darling, you know I’ll use it should you step out of line. I see you, speaking to me like that, you know what those words do to me. What your words…Do, to me. Hands on your thighs, palms up, I want to be able to see them at all times. Tell me, darling, what are you thinking about right now? What do you want to do to me?
No. I wouldn’t. Then I think I need to make sure to learn all about shoes. And make sure to buy you a good pair of shoes anytime I buy you lingerie as well.
Yes my beautiful Miss. On me knees right now, at your feet. I meant for the belt to bind my wrists behind my back, but this is good, better, even. To be able to still touch you but know I can’t, yet, until you tell me to. Hands on my thighs, palms up, where you can see them, where you can reach them, if I’m tempted, if they move. I’m thinking about you, mi reina, about how stunning you are. About how you’re going to tease me, and wondering how long I’ll be able to hold out before I’m begging for you.
Mmmmm, don’t tempt me my sweetheart. I do have an entire wishlist.
Do you like what you see, handsome? I could do that…Or you could get on your knees for me, I could dance for you, slowly…Tease you….Until you beg me to let you touch me. Until you can’t take any more. Until you’re desperate for me.
An entire wishlist of shoes? I think I need to learn more about shoes...
Mhmm, I do. I really do. You’re stunning; truly. Yes. I can do that. Here, take my belt, keep me from trying to reach out and touch you when you haven’t let me yet. When I haven’t begged for you enough yet. When I’m not desperate yet.
Good boy, Gabriel. Keep that up. You aren’t in trouble my darling…At least, not the kind of trouble you’re thinking of. I may have been doing a little shopping…
What do you think, mi rey.
Good, because I swear I’ve been good. A little shopping? Did you buy more shoes? Do I need to build you another shoe rack beautiful?
¡Ay! Apparently I’ve been very good. Wow.... Come here, please, let me experience that...
1.) Everyone in this world is aware that Guardians and Guardeds have one soulmate, one member of the other classification they’re destined to be with for their entire lives. How did you first learn that you’d have a soulmate? Who first told you? How was the topic introduced? (i.e. parents could use this as a bedtime story, perhaps a grandmother told the story, etc.)
I’m the first person in my family that has been marked this way, but my family is a big believer in soulmates. My parents were high school sweethearts that went their separate ways for a while and then came back together. They are very close, and very in love. My grandmother would often point out to me that as a Guardian, once I found my Guarded soulmate, it would be similar to the relationship my parents have, except even more so. Between my grandmother and my parents I learned all about what would be expected of me as a Guardian and the very special role that had been carved out for me the moment I was born with this mark on my wrist. Which is a little daunting.
2.) How do you feel about having a soulmate? Soulbonds?
When I first came here I thought it was cool and all but it also added a new level of complexity to any relationship with someone of the other mark. But I couldn’t even imagine what it was going to be like once I found my guarded. And now that I have, I know I was right; nothing, not even my parents relationship could have prepared me for this. It is overwhelming, in the best possible way. I feel like I am inspired, constantly. To be the best version of me, to be the best Guardian I can be, and to be open to life.
3.) What is your strategy for finding your soulmate? Do you have one? Why not, if no?
I did not have a strategy at all when it came to finding my soulmate. I just tried to be involved with as many things on campus as possible. And for a while that lead to me having stronger personal relationships with my fellow Guardians than Guardeds. Getting more or less called out on that by the gossip in that regard led me to taking more chances to be more open, more vulnerable with Guardeds just in case. And being a little more brave, a little more bold, taking a chance was apparently just what I needed.
4.) What are you looking for in a soulmate? What do you think you need? (For example, Eddie Kaspbryk is very high strung, and becomes stressed easily with worry about a variety of things- Emmett’s carefree nature and spirit help to calm that, and even that out. Meanwhile, Emmett’s spastic and at times unfocused energy is calmed by Eddie’s organized and structured nature)
Someone who inspires me, who believes in me, and challenges me. I can get content to just go with the flow and chill. Sometimes I need that little push, that motivation to go after things. Family is a big thing to me, so that’s important too.
5.) What specific personality traits do you usually look for in a partner? Do you believe your soulmate will have those traits, or do you think they’re someone different?
Mostly this was answered above.
6.) Is there any specific reason you believe you have not yet found your soulmate?
Well, I have now. But I think it did come down to me not venturing out of my comfort zone quite enough. I got involved but still stuck to people I knew from classes, etc.
7.) Often times, Guardeds and Guardians choose to adopt a D/s lifestyle after bonding. Is that a tradition you’re interested in pursuing? Why or why not?
Yes, absolutely. I think that will provide me the grounding I need and give me consequences to consider as I walk through life with a partner. I also believe there is a great intimacy in that kind of a relationship that would enhance a soulbound.
8.) Following the question above, Guardeds are the Dominant personality within soulbonds, while Guardians are the more submissive partner. Do you believe you fit this, or that this accurately describes you? Why or why not?
Mostly, I think I fit the submissive partner. In part because this was also something that my parents and my grandmother made sure I was aware of with my mark. Even when I was young, they taught me the importance of how to take care of another person, anticipating another’s needs. And showing me that doing for another is as important as doing for yourself.
9.) Is there anything that worries or scares you about entering into a soulbond? About having a soulmate?
It’s a huge responsibility. It’s a big commitment. I’m aware that not everyone feels the same way about it, or about soulmates, and soulbounds.
10.) Do you believe your soulmate is attending Brightwood right now? Is there anyone you believe could be your soulmate? If so, who? If not- if you could tell your soulmate anything, what would it be? What would you say to your soulmate right now, if you could say anything?
Since I’ve already bonded, yes, I know that my soulmate is attending Brightwood right now. When you get closer to someone of another mark, it’s always a bit of an elephant in the room; could you be soulmates? A part of me of course wondered if Miss Lorraine could be my soulmate, and I wanted her to be. It wasn’t really something I let myself think about or admit to often, apart from when I was with Miss Lorraine, because that is when it seemed so possible. All of that said though, I can’t believe how lucky I am to be bonded with Miss Lorraine.
True that, you’re right. It could be, it could always be. Woah there, someone’s excited about it. That’s cool though, you should be. Rainey is great, and from what I hear these soul bonds or whatever you want to call them are supposed to be pretty fucking phenomenal. So, enjoy that my friend. Maybe one day I too will board the saptown express. Until then, I’ll just wish you the best.
I’d never been with a Guarded when they were taken for exams until these most recent set. Definitely an eye opening experience. Who wouldn’t be when it comes to a person like Lorraine? Plus it’s part of why we’re here. They are definitely phenomenal. Thank you, I will. We’ll keep our fingers crossed for you. It’s so worth it.
Lorraine kept herself wrapped around Gabriel, holding tightly to him as he spoke, taking in everything he had to say. She nodded when he confessed he’d wondered if Blake’s initials were the ones on the card, having figured he would put two and two together. Lorraine leaned back a little when she was released, locking her eyes onto Gabriel’s. “I don’t know. It’s not necessarily relevant I suppose but I…I don’t know. Somehow feel like I should have told you. Like I should have said something, or at lest have made you aware. Perhaps that is just an anxiety, or a thought that you might have wanted to know something like that. I’m sorry if I’m mistaken.” She nodded, understanding what he was saying, though it was hard for her to process. Deep down she knew she wasn’t responsible for the actions of others, but everything in her experienced told her maybe there was something she could have done, though in that moment she wasn’t sure what. Gabriel’s questions came, and she did her best to work through them before answering, wanting to leave nothing out. “The relationship ended for a few reasons…We were together for about two years, we…Came into Brightwood as a couple. But, things changed here. We’re both Guardeds, first off. And it wasn’t as though either of us were ignorant to what that meant. But…It was more than that. He didn’t…” Sighing, she dropped her eyes, fiddling with her hands in her lap. “This is going to sound so cliche, but in a lot of ways he didn’t….We weren’t able to give each other what we needed. We weren’t for each other, fundamentally. He works a lot, I work a lot, and in those times when things got rough and I needed….He couldn’t be there.” She put things as simply as possible, without going into too much detail. “He left about a year ago, to work on a project overseas with his parents. He does production things for them, for their studio. Editing and whatnot. He came back because, well, he’s still a student. He still needs to graduate and find his soulmate.
Gabriel’s questions swirled in her mind. “I don’t know. I know Blake well. This sounds like him, like something he would say but…This doesn’t seem like something he would do. He’s not a homewrecker, first off. And, we’ve always both accepted that what we were wasn’t…Sustainable, long term. We both know the score. And I just don’t see what he’d get out of doing something like this, on either end.” Lorraine took her bottom lip between her teeth, thinking things over in her mind. It made her nervous that he’d let her go, that he wasn’t holding her, that he seemed to be pulling away, though maybe she was misinterpreting, letting her emotions get the better of her. Attempting to push those thoughts from her mind, she offered a small smile when her Guardian tipped her chin. “As always, your Abuela is right. I know that, you know that. There isn’t trouble, my darling, there isn’t. I love you, Gabriel. You’re my soulmate. When we think of these things in the easiest of terms…We were literally made for each other. I would never, never, never do anything to hurt or disrespect you, to risk anything about what we have. Blake may be my past, but you, you are my future.” Leaning forward, she pressed her lips to his, bringing her hands up to rest against his chest. “I wouldn’t be surprised if this was, in some way, connected to everything going on. Drive a wedge between Guardians and their Guardeds, and leave both parties exposed. Or, it could be some sort of distraction. For something…Something else, though I don’t know what…” Sighing, she shifted a bit, swinging her leg so that she was straddling Gabriel, facing him directly. “I know. I know my sweetheart. This is….Ridiculous. But I love you, Gabriel. I love you, and this isn’t going to put even a scratch on what we have.”
“Well it’s not like I thought you hadn’t been involved with anyone else before, I mean, that just isn’t really possible. You’re an intelligent, beautiful, charismatic woman. I don’t feel like I need a whos who list,” Gabriel admitted. “I just trust if there is something or someone I should know about, you will tell me. I know things happened kind of quickly with us too.” He nodded his head, understanding that sometimes it was easier to get to know, and be involved with someone of the same mark. As Lorraine explained more about her relationship with Blake, Gabriel’s own nerves flared a little and he found himself pulling his arms around the Guarded again. “I know you need someone who can be there for you. And I want to be that person, just... everyone is different, and everyone needs different things, plus this is new... so can you... help me out a bit? Help me along sometimes with what you need and when you need it. I wouldn’t just leave you alone, and let you suffer if I knew. And I promise I’ll learn.”
“I didn’t call him a homewrecker,” Gabriel smiled softly. “Maybe now that I have you, and we’re bonded, I know how special what we have is, it’s easier to not pay a lot of mind to something like this. Or maybe it’s remembering things I’ve been taught over the years, or wanting to respond in a way that pleases you, that makes you proud and doesn’t embarrass you.” His smile grew. “She’s pretty special and I think she’s going to love you just like I do.” Gabriel nodded. “We are. We’re made for each other. We are each other’s futures.” He smiled against Lorraine’s lips as they kissed. “Mhmm keep doing that and I’ll be the one distracted.” His hands moved to her hips as she straddled him. “That could be the case. It would seem that if that is the plan though, who ever it is doesn’t even understand what a soul bond is like. A distraction though, that could be it.” Gabriel pushed his hands up through Lorraine’s hair. “I love you too mi reina, and I won’t let anyone touch you, or what we have. Now let’s put your flowers in some water. It was very kind of whomever to figure out which were your favorites, and send them to you.”
Feeling Gabriel’s arms around her was comforting in ways Lorraine couldn’t describe. She leaned even more into him, wanting nothing other than to feel as safe and as comforted as she did in the moment. She studied the Guardian’s face, his features, as he read the note, feeling as though she were simply waiting for the other shoe to drop. Still, even after he read the note, she could feel his confusion, his misunderstanding, and his uncertainty when it came to the situation. “It’s….” Lorraine sighed, taking Gabriel’s hand and leading him to the couch in the living area. Motioning, she waited for him to settle himself before climbing onto his lap, her head resting in the crook of his neck as she made her body as small as possible, wanting nothing more than to be held. “I’m just confused, I don’t understand. Those…Appear to be from…From Blake Turner. But he’s…” Closing her eyes, Lorraine took a deep breath before letting her thoughts out. “He’s my ex, Gabriel. I’m sorry, I know I should have told you sooner. But I don’t…I don’t understand what this is. Why he’d send that. He knows we’re bonded, it was one of the first things I said to him in response to his post when he returned to campus. I don’t know if this is a trick, or….Or what but I….I just don’t know what to do with this. In a way it feels like someone…Trying to stir up trouble between us.”
Gabriel followed as Lorraine led him to the couch and he sat down at her motion for him to do so. He didn’t hesitate when she climbed into lap and curled around him. His arms went around her. He listened, even though the words, and even the thoughts did very little to ease his own uncertainty. Gabriel nodded his head. “I did wonder if that is who BT was. Especially given the ‘Rainy’ nickname.” He pulled back. “Why should you have told me? What do I need to know?” His brows furrowed. “You aren’t responsible for other people’s actions. I can’t do that. But you know him better than I do, obviously, so you have to have some sort of idea. “ Gabriel shifted. “Why did the relationship end? Why did he leave, why did he come back,” he asked. “Those might all hold some partial explanation at to why he would think it was okay to send those. Even though you told him we’re bonded. Do you think it was Blake? Or do you think it was someone else?”
Gabriel leaned back, letting his head fall onto the back of the couch. He let go of Lorraine, as he brought his hands up to up at his temples. “Who and why would someone want to stir up trouble between us feels like the first two questions.” He wouldn’t rule it out himself; the uneasy feeling the Guardian had felt since the food poisoning incident stirring itself back up. It had settled since exams, since their bond. Since the overreaction conversation with Bijou. He lifted his head and tipped Lorraine’s chin until he could bring them forehead to forehead, eye to eye. “My Abuela always said people can’t stir up trouble that isn’t already there. Yes, they can make people think things, other people, but the only two that matter are sitting right here, face to face. Is there trouble? I don’t think so but the idea of anyone disrespecting our bond that way isn’t a great feeling,” he admitted.
It absolutely will be a great time, I guarantee it. It’s Sebastian, he wouln’t let it be a flop. And, he’s my best friend, so I’m sure not letting it flop either. Since it took me a beat to get back to you, it’s now tonight! Oh sure, sure, go ahead and ask, you’ve go to make sure it’s okay with everyone. I’ll hope to see you there but if I don’t, I hope you have a good night anyway. Yeah. I get it. I’ll bet that would be nice.
The party flopping isn’t exactly something I would worry about. Well yeah, of course I’d check with her, she’s my soulmate. And with the headmasters rules that bonded partners stay together as much as possible, it’s a Jack and Rose type situation; ‘you go, I go’. Thanks, I hope you guys have a great party; maybe we’ll see you there for a bit at least.
Lorraine: That's sweet of you, my darling. But I do want plenty of time for us tonight. I have...Something for you.
Lorraine: I trust you.
Lorraine: Thank you for being honest my darling. I need and want that, you already know. I...Oh, my sweetheart. My Gabriel. /I love you, did you know?/ I can't wait to speak with them, genuinely.
Gabriel: Then plenty of time for us you will get.
Gabriel: Good.
Gabriel: Since we're on the topic of family, what should I know about yours going into the family weekend. Is there something I should be doing to prepare? Is there something I need to know about how to act or what to say...or anything?
Lorraine leaned into her Guardian, her emotions and mind swirling. She could feel his confusion at what was occurring, and his concern over her response. Taking a deep breath, she passed the note to Gabriel, her eyes closing as she leaned against the counter for support while he read it. Your favorites for my favorite. I miss you, Rainy. xoxo- BT. Chewing her bottom lip, Lorraine was nervous to look at Gabriel, even though she knew he could feel what she felt. Bringing her eyes up slowly, she did her best to focus on his feelings, knowing they had shifted once he’d finished reading the note. “I don’t…” She began, reaching out to place her hand gingerly on Gabriel’s arm. “I don’t know why….I don’t know what would give….I don’t….Say something, please darling.”
Gabriel put his arms around Lorraine as she leaned into him. When she passed over the note, one hand fell to her lower back. His eyes continued to narrow as he read it, and he swallowed before exhaling deeply as he tried to make sense of all the feelings swirling around. Everything was so new, it was hard to tell what he was feeling, what she was feeling, and it was in the moment overwhelming. The Guardian turned and looked at his Guarded, shaking his head. “I don’t know either.” His shoulders shrugged. “I don’t want to be worried, or concerned about this,” Gabriel whispered. “But you are...or at least it feels like you are. And I don’t... I don’t understand.”
