The Half Naked Ewe

Witchcraft connoisseur ,spinner,knitter ,blogger, shameless groupie. mental health advocate

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Um not looking good for my son in law

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This resonates so strongly with me, the fact that I’m a Scorpio is a blessing and a curse sometimes😭🤷🏼‍♀️💯

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Some of my words

I’m too much for those people outside in the world,far too complex for them to unfurl,leaving me broken lost and alone with nothing left but my rickety throne.

Sitting alone in my castle I’ve built in my head leaving me too ponder the things left unsaid ,cursed to wait for karmas return in recompense for the bridges ive burned

I stare at the world through red blurry eyes wanting nothing more than too curl up and hide.from the nagging self doubt and the judgemental eyes ,From those who walk past with noses held high .

I know who they are ,so I don’t even try.I’m too much to handle so just leave me to die.

-HNE

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I fucking love when I can find a way to communicate without using words , even though FPS is a bit of a abusive fuckboy , oh how ironic 🤦🏻‍♀️🙅🏻‍♀️🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫🚫

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Like for real ,,,,

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INFJ, BPD, BIPOLAR hell,

i hate myself for real. My anxiety is through the roof these days, The level of betrayal i experienced this past year is astounding. Growing up in a seriously neglectful and abusive household I’ve developed some rather destructive behaviors. I have zero people skills, mainly because i have strong misanthropic tendencies. I detest small talk, i hate wasting my energy listening too you prattling on about what you ate for breakfast, I glaze over and retreat to the safe space I’ve built in my head. And people get pissed at me because they figure i don’t care,,, well i don’t don’t care about the nonsensical conversation but however, i actually do care about the person. I seem to value things differently than others, I value heartfelt communication over meaningless words about nonsensical things. 

I’m an artist i create for myself, sharing my art is akin to being naked in a crowded room, well actually I’m MORE comfortable being naked. As I’ve got an innate ability to completely disassociate from the here and now.-thanks mom.I’m more confident swinging around a pole than being at a party. I wear so many different masks that sometimes i forget who i truly am. I have one for work, one for play, one for fiber, one for writing, one for my friends, one for my lover, that’s the closest to my bare face as anyone will get. Only because every time I’ve lowered my mask I’ve been hurt. displaying my art to someone is absolutely mortifying as its the most authentic communication i have. when my words fail me art never does. 

It’s like i want to be invited, but i don’t wanna go. just thinking about it gives me a panic attack. I don’t fit in anywhere. I over commit myself. I try so hard to fit, but it’s like trying to fit a square peg in a round hole, I’ve been called a narcissistic asshole, But i feel like that’s a crutch for the shallow motherfuckers out there as an excuse for the abusive bullshit they’ve put me through. I have innumerable faults, i can be self-centered and slightly egotistical. I live in a constant state of black or white thinking, you either “get” me or you don’t. I live in a world where people are placated by platitudes rather than action. You cant save the world  “with thoughts and prayers” if i see someone drowning ill jump in blindly and save them, rather than saying I’ll pray for you from the shore.

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I’m so done. I loved him so, but I can’t handle being lied to . He broke my heart with lies and it was like I was only living for a day that would never come #liar #imout #neveragain

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Oh this man ,,, starwolf is going to be the death of me for sure . But at least I’ll die smiling

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Gratz Park in the rain, October 30, 2012- Photos by Louis Zoellar Bickett II (Lexington, KY)

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Man O’ War and Groomer

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Cosmic Rainbow status report! I’m moving right along, slow and steady. I just transitioned into my second round of rainbow. Polwarth is such a buttery soft and lovely spin. There are still 4 braids left of Cosmic Rainbow on Polwarth top in my shop of you would like to spin along! Link in profile. #ontheround #cosmicrainbow #spinalong #fiberfriends #igspinners #spinstagram #rainbow #rainbowalong #indiedyer (at www.ontheround.com)

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Omg @

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Georgia Backyard Barn Wedding: Kara + Hank Georgia Rustic Country Wedding Source: http://rusticweddingchic.com/barn-wedding-in-georgia-with-vintage-decorations

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#soap #handmade #goatsmilk