maddie though....maddie breaks my heart!!! buck had already been resigned to his parents' lack of love long ago, but maddie always had hope. maddie knew they were bad parents but comforted herself in the fact that they at least loved each other. like that maybe makes up for it all. and now her life is a lie, again. her parents didn't love them and don't love each other. so what was the point of it all? maddie who is terrified that she'll become like her parents, unloving and unloved, realizing that their future is not her's. because she loved evan when they didn't, and she loves chim through everything. that she loves jee and nash no matter how difficult it is, that her parents when faced with obstacles to their love looked away and tried to bury them, but she faced them, she came out the other side, and she found people who would fight with her.
maddie who listened to the last call and knowing that there are people out there choosing to stay with each other even when it's hard. maddie listening to a husband who went through a time when he was suicidal, remembering walking into the ocean. maddie listening to him telling her that he chose to live because of her, knowing that she chose to live because of chim, and buck, and jee. maddie who lost sight for a moment but remembered -- she is not her parents. she has so, so much love in her life. and it was all because she fought for it.