THE HIDDEN SPARK

[thehiddensparkworld]

DRAMA

I always need that spark, be it life, love, work, friendship or moment. A life without a spark is a dead life. I used to think earlier that everything is all about career and work but now the definition has changed and I am confused because I am unhappy when I am worst at my work and I was unhappy even when I was best at my work.  Hearts get broken and mended too. People move on but they always leave a part of their lives when they meet somebody. Sometimes its not about how much time you spend together instead its about how you feel, that strong feeling has nothing to do  with the time period. I am not sure that I would ever find love because I read it somewhere that love is rare. I just want to give justice to the life that God and my parents has given to me. I will try to live it to the fullest and be thankful for the people that entered in my life because they all taught me a lesson in one way or other. Nobody other than you can motivate you to work harder and give the best shot after every dark night and trust me, nights are beautiful, I love them.

Nobody in this world is happy. Happiness is a myth. :) 

[thehiddensparkworld]

Life, Drama and Loneliness

I don't know much about others but I know how it feels to be alone and dejected. I feel like I am happy where I am today, alone and free. The World wants to fall in love, go mad in love and to be loved. Here, I feel that I just need a bottle of whisky , nothing more nothing less. Daaru mh bhi ek alag nasha hota hai, kabhi tumhe bahut sukoon de jaata hai ur kabhi kabhi babhut dard. Mere case mh dono mh se kuch ni hota, mh bs kahin chali jaati hun. This feeling of loneliness comes with a lot of benefits, honestly, loneliness can make you lift in love. I have fallen in life whenever I wanted to chase my dreams but I have always come out stronger after failing and that is the only thing that pushes me to give extra care and love to myself. I would always want that I work harder than I can, I need a push and that accelerator needs to be none other than my inner voice.

Drama comes with a cost. I try to act cool and independent some times, well, over independent, which I am definitely not. I wear a mask and a fake smile around people because nobody loves/likes to be around people who are always sad, sadly I am one. Its hard or I should say almost impossible to be accepted the way I am. So, I have almost denied the factor that I can ever find somebody who would understand me or love me. I think that its okay to be the way I am and I am okay being alone, well, with tears filled in my eyes. I like to call out this drama is not intentional but this is the way I am. I have tried changing myself a lot of times but there is one part of me that leaves behind in that process.

Milenge kisi dinn toh puchenge tumse, kahan khoye rehte ho, sukoon ki raaton ke liye khud se hi naraz ho jate ho?! :)

[thehiddensparkworld]

Value your TIME

Just when you realize that you are closer to death, you realize the importance and value that the word ‘TIME’ holds. There is a spark that enlightens within you and motivates you to work harder and give it the best shot because you might never know which is the one going to be the last one of your life. So, every time you go on bed to sleep and wake up the next day, always keep a thought that you have got an another chance to live these beautiful moments of your life and you just can’t let them go off so easily. I understand that writing and reading these lines is very easy and it take a hundred million courage to implement these and wake up early in the morning. Trust me, I am dealing with this daily. I curse and hate myself every night to not give this day a best shot but then the next day, the spark is lost and this cycle just keeps on going. There has to be a FULLSTOP. There is a reason why at school we were told the importance of full stop. As an Indian woman, it’s not that easy to stay at home and stay an ambitious girl. You need to boost yourself everyday and prove yourself. Well, this journey is more about self satisfaction because at the end of the day, its you.

Just a random thought and also, the new beginnings! Cheers!