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We went out to an amazing (AYCE) sushi place last month (on a Sunday) for my birthday so we chose there tonight with reservations (also a Sunday) to splurge from my tournament winnings and it was a not great experience.

Jason and I are not the type to cause a ruckus (and we didn't at all), but we appreciated the manager coming over to apologize and take half off our bill. Basically the kitchen was just super behind and was not ever going to get into a position to catch up. We had been waiting for 5 items for over an hour.

Server still got a 30% tip off the original bill and we won't write the place off, it was just still a bummer. The kids were champs about it, and we used it as an opportunity to talk about patience and how to handle situations like this as a consumer who isn't a dick in frustrating situations.

LFG 💪

The team we beat for gold, I've played them for gold twice before and fell short both times. This time my partner and I found a strategy that worked and just kept on course. One of the women has a 5.676 rating so it was a big win for me! Highest rated player I've ever beaten.

This was a new-to-me partner - we've played some pickup games together over the past year but just a handful. She's actually the tennis coach at the high school I went to. Very different play style than my regular women's partner - took some time to figure out how to adjust to that but I think we did great. Our energy and mental game was also very aligned.

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Maybe the most damming thing about Nolans odyssey is i haven’t seen a single gifset from it

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#This is hilarious

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Without naming your job, tell me something you say over and over again at work.

"I can note your interest in that feature for future development."

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"Colleagues, I am pleased to share..."

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"Yes, you actually need to read the articles you find before including them in your research paper!"

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"Reviewed and approved."

#Bonus:#I failed to locate [essential document]. Please review and advise.

The kids got their 4th grade class assignments today (we kept them together again) and we got news that our offer was accepted 😮.

Buying a house was actually the major disagreement/misalignment Jason and I were facing a couple weeks ago.

So, while I'm excited for the house... There's also some underlying anxiety about it.

I wanted to wait longer, Jason was ready to go. We had a huge disagreement about a different house a couple weeks ago and I was straight up like, dude, there is no way I'm dropping that amount of money on a house I don't love. And he was pushy in a way he never is about anything.

We both love THIS house, but it still feels like things are moving so quickly. After the whirlwind of 2025, I'm a bit scared about this.

#75ccc

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We're putting in an offer on a house today 🫣

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Offer submitted. It's pretty close to our dream house!

Should know within 24 hours.

We're putting in an offer on a house today 🫣

It occurred to me after this exchange that if you weren't familiar with some pickleball "slang" this could possibly be taken the wrong way 😅.

"Bag me" refers to "bodybag me" which is a - sometimes contentious - term for hitting a person in the body with the ball. Some people don't appreciate the imagery/metaphor so "getting tagged" is also a pretty common term.

This guy is my favorite to shit-talk with when playing and amongst friends at my level it is amusing to hit each other. We're of course never intending to hit anyone in the face, but hitting someone anywhere else is 🤷‍♀️. It's basically a whiffle ball and even though we can all hit it really fucking hard, it's not going to do much damage (again, not at the face).

#Yes I am also trying to bag people in competition #But I can't act like it's funny in a tournament

I am a food of convenience girl at this stage in my life. I do not have the bandwidth to meal prep so I have a bunch of grab and go items I know will satisfy me.

I'll surely grab chips or crackers from the work kitchen at some point today as well as grab candy from somewhere (there's an abundance). We also have a freezer stocked at work with icecream for us and clients.

I'll also eat some sort of dinner after I play pickleball (which I do after lifting). That will likely be protein heavy, like a dumb amount of rotisserie chicken and some frozen veggies.

Listen, I'm sure this is some baggage that needs to be unpacked, but I absolutely hate when people call me skinny. It makes me deeply uncomfortable and I want to correct people immediately.

I think two things are underneath it:

1. Some level of body dysmorphia that doesn't register all of my body changes over the past year and a half.

2. Distaste for the idea that people may think my "goal" is to be skinny. I don't want to be skinny. I want to be strong/fit/athletic.

My women's doubles partner said one time about my stamina/being able to play so many games "well you're in such great shape" and 😍 that was a great compliment for me! The other day someone else said "that's probably why you're so skinny*" and 😤 I've been obsessing over it in a bad way since.

#*we were talking about playing in the morning and our approach to food #I cannot eat breakfast before I play #Which admittedly isn't great for fueling my body #But I will absolutely throw up if I try to eat #But it's not like I don't fuel my body AFTER #I go home and eat plenty #I think I am very defensive about my intake #I don't know why l #Probably lady disordered eating #It's like I need to make sure people know I eat plenty (my average is 2500-2700 calories per day even on days I don't play)

Why am I such a BITCH?

God, over the past 6 months I've been, like, just truly awful and impatient and not great to both of my partners and I can see it happening in real time and I just. can't. stop.

Today at work it struck me that I used to get SO NERVOUS whenever anyone would stop by my desk to ask a question. Half the time I didn't even know enough to understand what they were asking me, let alone answer their questions.

Today I got flagged down by 2 people as I was walking around to answer questions and I felt totally confident in my answers. A couple other people swung by my desk to ask questions and I knew the answer!

There's still a ton to learn and I did have to confirm with my chief compliance officer on two items today, but it feels good to know that I'm making peogress and that I'm a productive member of the compliance team.

Jason and I are having a disagreement about a pretty big life decision and it's one of the few times in 21 years we haven't been aligned and it's stressing me out.