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It is so difficult to get out of our mind. To take action when there is nothing else to prepare or to take care of, nothing to use as an excuse to postpone this... And it is difficult to understand in which direction you are supposed to do it, this desired and needed, but also feared step. Where to start from, which way would be the best...
So slow down for a moment. Take a deep breath in. Ask your heart to answer you, to get louder than your mind, and to guide you to that one picture, one pile, one message, that is the right one for you now. âĄ
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(the king of wands and the moon)
Right now, when your mind is so confused and clouded by choices and doubts, when your body is tired even though you seemingly are not doing that much, all of your energy being taken away by the fear, and uncertainty, and stress... It is enough for you, it is the most important thing actually, to just move forward. To keep on doing, whatever, something.
Because as stupid or easy as it sounds... It is exactly that one thing that is breaking you right now. Just the fear of doing it. Any of those ideas or goals or plans of yours. Doing them and failing, or wasting time, or your potential. Doing them and be mistaken again.
You are not still because you don't know what to do, or don't have any options, any opportunities that could be good enough and give you something... You are still because you are paralyzed by the responsibility of your own choices. The consequences that will be all yours, the victories and the lost battles. You already know. You've already decided. You are just not so sure about it.
Because no one by your side is either. And their voice, their opinion, is still and always will be something that you can't pass by. Not when so many times their harsh words and predictions were right, and yours only a mistake, a lie to your own self and a delusion... Or did they?
Because, think about it for a second, for how much time your ideas and projects survived, when they were only yours, a little secret? And for how long did they remain alive, after the voices of others touched them?
Did your really fail, all those times, because you made a mistake of judgement and convinced yourself that you could be capable of doing something that just wasn't right for you? Or did they become something wrong, something impossible, something useless, as soon as another perspective came in, in your world and in your journey?
Right now it is only you, it's true. No one can touch something that you don't even have nor chose. But... The memory, the echo of those voices doesn't vanish, does it? It remains, somewhere deep and hidden, and it finds every single of your secrets, even when you yourself don't know to have them. It finds them, it touches them, it changes everything. Even before they have the time to reach your conscious mind, before they have the chance to become more, an action or a decision.
You are still and stuck because you are heavy. Your mind, your heart, your soul. They are heavy because there is so much in them. They are carrying both your desires and dreams, and the voices and judgment of someone else, even when they are not by your side anymore, even when they themselves don't remember those words.
You are still because you carry too much. And feel responsible for it. You feel responsible for your own self and your dreams, the need to fight for them, and to follow and trust your desires and intuition. And you feel responsible for the vision others had and have for you. You feel the need to prove them wrong, or right, you even don't know yourself. You just feel the need of something.
But it is okay, I promise you. Everything, anything, is okay, is enough, is right. Because even if it won't be, you will make it be. Just do anything, the first thing that comes to mind. Without planning, without analysing or trying to imagine how it will be first - you will discover it as you will do it, and you will always have the right to continue or to let go. You just need to move now. To do. It is the only and real way to not give all those voices the time to catch up on you. It is the right way for you to understand what can work and what not, by experiencing it, even if only for a brief moment before realising that it is something wrong - in the meantime you will already have one thing less to consider and worry about.
You are ready to do it. You are ready to try on your own, and choose, not based on what others say, they or their ghosts, but on what you feel and the things that actually are happening out here in this world, and not inside the one in your mind, with all the worries and fears that you hold bottled up.
(the seven of swords and the knight of coins)
There are people that are completely lost. No idea, no advice, no plan. Nothing coming from their heart, their mind, or even others, that simply don't seem to care. There are people that just stand there, confused and awkward. Not knowing where to turn, where to start from...
And there are the ones that, like you, are too overwhelmed with them. With those choices and opportunities. Not really, perhaps, in the literal and material world - but more in form of ideas, inspiration, that keep on coming at you, interrupting each other, right when you are finally about to choose and stop on something.
It is a sort of a sweet and yet dangerous situation. On one hand you feel confident, you know deep down that you can do it, that you can achieve whatever you want if only you really put your mind to it, work on it truly... And on the other, how can you choose? How can you know which is the right one for you? It takes time to try, to experience it, to understand it. And you don't have it. You need progress and results already yesterday.
So you feel like you don't have another choice but to do everything, all at once. In one of you steps there are many more others hidden. In your one day, you live so many lives and journeys, almost like a sim controlled by a perfectionist and strict player. Your every minute is full, your mind is always active, hopping from one way to do things to another, trying to cover it all, so you could have more chances and succeed, in finding the right one that could change your life finally for the better.
And you feel proud, you feel excited, electrified even. Just a possibility, so many of them, is enough to uplift you in the moment, selling to you the conviction that this one is the right one, that sooner or later it will start to work all together, you only need to do it...
But how many of those infinite projects worked really? How many, after all this time, gave you something more than just lessons and understanding of yourself and what you are best at? How many of them stayed, gave you real and tangible results that you are doing all of this in the name of? How many of them really made it, in your life, winning over other hundreds journeys that you dedicate yourself to every single month? Not that many.
And it's not because they were wrong, or your feeling that you can make anything work if you just focus on it enough was a delusion - it's rather because they were true, they were possible, but not all of them together. Not when you give each one of them, all at the same time, just crumbs of your attention and intention. Because none of them made you feel safe completely, enough to have faith in them only, without any plans b or c or any other.
You can do it. Truly. Everything. For real. Because you are that capable, you are that fierce when you choose to be it... You just don't do it for enough time. For more than a few obsessed weeks before throwing them aside, once you feel like they are too slow, or too little.
You are in a rush. In constant movement that feels good because it makes it look like you are doing so much. But how much further, realistically, you can go on a path, if you constantly need to turn back for a moment to do a little piece of another one, or perhaps two or three. Needing to restart again, regroup, recenter yourself every single day on every single journey?
You are not bad at judging or choosing. Nor you are delusional. You just don't have patience. And faith. In your own self and in time. You don't trust it, nor a journey, you can't bring yourself to believe that it will indeed work out well enough and without any problem. So you choose, just to be sure, to do many of them, all together. Tiring yourself, consuming your energy and your time, and also all of your potential, or the one of a situation.
Slow down. Breathe. It is all right. You are safe. Even if you don't have constant back up plans. Even if you would make a mistake and need to start a new thing later, instead of falling back at something that you pushed a little bit further for some time earlier. Because it is not an advantage, to have so many paths around you, it is only an illusion. Even if you'd to make a wrong turn and decide to go back and try a different route - it's not like you spawn right in the middle of it where you abandoned it, with time paused, with all the people involved, that still wait for you and need you. The time moves, as you do. And so do every of your journeys when you turn your back at them, caught up in that moment by something more exciting.
It is not needed, all of that. It is enough one thing, one journey. That you trust enough to stick to it, to give it time and space to really unfold in front of you and show you what really is there for you on the horizon.
They can work. They really do. But why they should, when you yourself never give them real and honest attention and intention? When you run from them, at every occasion?
You don't need nothing more right now. To make real progress. You need less. You need one thing to dedicate yourself to for some time. Enough to understand if it really is for you or not, and let it go if that's the case, instead of keeping it in your life like some clutter.
Choose one. The one in which now you made more progress. Or that offers you more. In terms of connections and their support. Or materially. Or simply in terms of feelings. Choose the one that speaks to you a little more confidently, and loudly. That convinces you a little more than others. And listen to it. Trust it. Try it. Only you and that journey. Only one adventure, one connection between you and a subject, an idea, a project. Exactly like you would do with a person that you are getting to know. Exactly like you would love them to treat you - with patience, with focus, with hope and faith that this could work, with trust in the process.
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