The Kill Manual

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A change in scenery.

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Anna Childs - The Kill Manual

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In my head I am infinite, in my imagination I have everything, in my heart I am always free.

Portrait by Olivia Quinn

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palace of the mystics

Portrait by Olivia Quinn

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There is something revolutionary about the way we learn to accept and cherish our appearances as women, and I mean all women, anyone who identifies as a woman. To be able to say, “Yes, this is me. This is my body, my face, and although I may not like everything on this body or face, it is still mine, and if I’m ever going to change anything about myself, it’s going to be because I want to, because it feels right, because it is in alignment with my perception of self, and how I wish the world to see me, the real me.”

Portrait by Olivia Quinn

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You are the Essence of the Divine, both the Creation Mother and the Death Mother, here to give life to the parts of us that must live, and to rid us of the parts that must die.

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There is no lack of intimacy,

I’m a very intimate person,

but there is an overwhelming

lack of trust,

of willingness,

of love.

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The rooms we inhabit throughout our lives.

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She was a sorcerer I tell you, the moment she gets you all to herself, it’s like you can tell her anything. Things you’ve never told anyone, years’ worth of tears you’ve never cried, anger you’ve never shown, honesty that comes pouring out of you like lifetimes worth of tension and sweet, god damn release. All coming to the surface. For both of you to sift through. Mending the hurt. Kissing the scraped knees. And if you think you can lie to her, well, you’re wrong. She would never call you out on your bluff, but she’d know. She’d respect you for not wanting to share. But she’d know. Because as magical as she is, as easy as it is to open up to her and sacrifice your sorrows to her cleansing fire, to live in a world such as hers can be incredibly challenging. One can only imagine where the roots of her wisdom must be planted, what she has sacrificed and endured in this lifetime in order to reach the zeniths of unconditional love for anyone who comes to sit by her side.

Portrait by Olivia Quinn

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National Suicide Prevention Week (NSPW) is an annual week-long campaign in the United States to inform and engage health professionals and the general public about suicide prevention and warning signs of suicide. By drawing attention to the problem of suicide in the United States, the campaign also strives to reduce the stigma surrounding the topic, as well as encourage the pursuit of mental health assistance and support people who have attempted suicide. About The Book: ‘The Kill Manual’ is a hybrid-memoir of poetry and prose pieced together to create a story, a full-length narrative that explores the plight of overcoming a life twisted by the realities of domestic violence, mental health issues, abuse, and trauma. The book is broken down into five chapters. Each chapter represents a different stage of personal metamorphosis. ‘The Kill Manual’ can be purchased here: https://www.amazon.com/Kill-Manual-Anna-Childs/dp/1797072196

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The enlightened journey is, in part, pure surrender; surrender to the ceaseless thoughts and emotions of ones gut and mind, surrender to the circumstances of the past, surrender to the projected implications of the future. It is only in this pure state of utter and complete surrender that we are able to relax into a calm, serene state of conscious awareness. In this state of conscious awareness we are present, grounded, and at peace. We must discipline ourselves to return back to this state as often as we can. We must pull ourselves out of the thinking, thinking, thinking and into the feeling, feeling feeling. Into the present moment. Until it becomes the new basis for our every day reality.

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Book Signings ❤️

From Me, To You

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You have spent the entirety of your life being told you are too sensitive, inconvenient, and unwanted, a person unworthy of being cared for, you open yourself up ripe like the gates of heaven to the first person who makes you feel anything holy.

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Chicago circa 2019

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Language is wine upon the lips. — Virginia Woolf

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The distance between two stars, the distance between two hearts.