pharaoh of d a r k n e s s

Open, independent, multi-ship and semi-selective RP blog for Pharaoh Atem of Kazuki Takahashi's Yu-Gi-Oh!, penned by Lulu. Must be 18+ to interact. Cover photo edit credit: @du3list.

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// Alright everyone I’m about to jump offline for a bit. I have a eye appointment for new glasses. Hopefully my eyes aren’t too bothered after they’re done shining shit in it and so on lol. I should be back after it is over but, I’m not sure what else my mother wants to do afterwards. Hopefully we’ll just come right home ♥.

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Silently, a blanket was draped down on the man's shoulders. Softly did her lips peck on the top of his head as her arms wrapped around him, holding him close as Yuugi simply wanted to cherish his presence and to offer whatever comfort she could manage.

Atem had been slipping in and out of consciousness on the bed as he was on his phone doing a few emails. When he'd felt the softness of the blanket over him and the soft peck to his head, soon to be greeted by warm arms, he leaned into her hold as he had shifted awake for a mere moment.

Lazily, he put his phone on the wireless charger on the nightstand before turning to fully lay into his wife's arms. The one he adored and cherished.

Little happy yet groggy and sleepy mumbles left the man as he nuzzled into her. He'd felt so safe within her arms. He never wanted to leave them.

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Atem had heard from a priest that his brother had been casting ka’s. This was wonderful news to him as he hurried to Heba’s side as he was excited to see what ka’s he was able to summon....

What he wasn’t expecting was to see a very large black dragon curled up with Heba..

Gandora, the Dragon of Destruction.

The absolute panic that filled Atem’s heart at the sight was enough to make the man’s eyes widen and he could feel his vision fading out before going black itself and soon enough, he’d fainted. His body falling back onto the ground hard at seeing the scene before him.

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A laugh bubbled up and out of Heba at Atem’s threats at other people. He hadn’t even fought when Atem had hugged him, simply allowing himself to enjoy the embrace. It was much gentler than before and it made him feel cozy. While Heba hated being hot, he always basked in Atem’s warmth.

“I’ll take it if you promise not to cut the tongues out of anyone’s heads,” Heba replied, a smile tugging at his lips. He reached up with one hand to wipe at the lingering tears on Atem’s cheeks, but his hands were a little shaky still, so it was a little difficult, but he didn’t want to see any tears on that beautiful face. “And you’ve already had my love, Akhi… All of it. There’s never been a day that I didn’t love you with all of my heart. You’re my most precious person, after all.”

Heba blushed a bit at his own words, but they were true, truer than anything he knew to be real. “My heart has always been yours.”

Atem winked playfully as he grinned at his brother when he was cleaning his face and asking for him not to cut people’s tongues out of their mouth. “I can’t make any promises. You know how I get when people start talking poorly of you. I get upset.” He said to him as he had nuzzled into his touch. “Then stay and receive my love?” He asked of him.

He never admitted to it but, he loved his brother more than he should. He was the only person in his life that made him happy. He didn’t want that to go to anyone else.

“If your heart is mine then allow me to give you mine..”

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“You’re… so dumb.” Heba shook his head before, quite suddenly, losing all the strength in his legs. He fell to the ground a little hard, hard enough to hurt his rear. Leaning forward, Heba pressed his palms against the well polished floor. Just vaguely, he could see his own features in the marble. Had he the strength to do so, Heba would have broken the floor so he didn’t have to look at himself. He made the compromise of shutting his eyes tightly.

“All I want, what I really want, is to be with you, always,” Heba admitted, his voice sounding a little hoarse. He hung his head, shaking it a little as his tears dripped onto the floor and the backs of his hands. “If I’m with you, then it doesn’t matter what the nobles and priests say about me! I don’t care… It’s when I’m alone, when you won’t see me, that I–… I start to believe them. The previous Pharaoh, he-he hated me with everything he had and it’s like his vengeful ghost still chases after me! I thought when you became Pharaoh, it would end, but–!”

Again, Heba shook his head. He was rambling, he knew it. Arms refusing to hold him up any longer, Heba leaned forward until his forehead touched the cool marble floor, sobbing a little loudly as he covered his head with his hands. “I just wanna b-be happy and with you… Aren’t I allowed even just that much…?”

“Then stay with your dumb brother...I want you to stay! If you want to stay with me then stay with me, you butthead!” He fussed at him as he dropped down to his level and pulled him back into his arms. “We don’t need anyone’s approval but our own...not even our father. I’ll chase him and anyone off of you. No one says bad things about you without getting their tongue cut off!” He huffed as he refused to let anyone trash Heba in front of him. Heba knew that without a doubt.

They always got either a sharp look to try again or they got worse.

“Give me your love and I will give you mine.” He said down to him as he smiled warmly before he pulled back a little to look down at Heba, reaching his hand up to his cheek to stroke it. “What do you say to that?..Will you take it?” 

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“Why… Why can’t you understand that I’m no good for you…?” Heba shook his head as he held onto Atem so tightly, his arms and hands ached. He wondered, for a moment, if he was hurting Atem, too, with such a tight grip. However, Heba was sure that, somehow, Atem enjoyed that particular pain, only because it came from Heba’s embrace.

“I–… I love you, Akhi… You can’t have someone like me around,” Heba whispered, shutting his eyes tightly, which only served to squeeze out more of his tears. Saying it aloud sounded so weird and foreign to him. The Prince wasn’t even sure he was allowed to love, but it was true, all the same. “I’m the worst that there is… It’s not a familial love, you know. You don’t need me making things even more complicated.”

Heba never planned on confessing. It was a secret he was going to take with him to the grave. However, it was his last chance, the last thing he could think of that might make Atem hate him and push him away. If Atem had only bitter feelings for Heba, then Heba could leave and every headache that he caused the people in the palace would be lifted. No more glares and whispers, no more ostracization, just the total loneliness that someone as horrible as Heba deserved.

“But...you don’t understand. You are good for me..I can’t keep doing this without you..you are the light to my darkness.” He spoke to him as he kissed at his brothers head softly as he held him still in his arms. “I love you too, more than I’ve ever loved anyone before. You’re my everything.” He replied back until he heard the next thing that he flown out of Heba’s mouth.

Yet again his brow furrowed as he pulled Heba from his arms by his shoulders as he looked down at him with wet eyes. “My love for you is not fake. It is real!! That’s not true to me at all...how can you say that to me?...Do you know understand how happy you make me?..I feel lucky every day to have you beside me..loving me, supporting me. I know I get..frustrated by little things and I sometimes blow up a little out of proportion...I never mean to take what I deal with in the background out on you..I understand how awful...that makes me...I am sorry I’ve been blind to the pain I have caused you. Not only that...but you’re held in my shadow..and..the priests treat you based on that...you don’t deserve any of that.” He spoke as his hands had fallen from his shooulders.

He realized he’d been holding Heba here when...maybe he didn’t want to be?..

The thought hurt to be without him but, he would ever want Heba to be unhappy. “But....i you don’t want to stay here...I get it..the way everyone even I treat you..I wouldn’t blame you if you want to get away. I support you if that is what you want. I just want you happy and healthy.” Atem spoke trying to bare with the idea of losing his brother. He felt like his world was caving in from the thought but, he meant it. If this was what Heba wanted then he wouldn’t stop him from achieving that happiness.

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Heba made some kind of strangled, choking sound when Atem pulled him into a bone crushing embrace. When he’d seen tears shining in bright, ruby eyes, Heba felt like he truly deserved every hit from their father, every glare from every noble, stone and stick thrown at him when he was child by other children. To think that Heba made Atem cry…

“D-Don’t… Don’t lie to me…” Shaking hands lifted and hesitant arms wrapped around Atem’s torso, those small hands grasping so tightly at the other’s tunic. Garnet eyes overflowed with tears Heba had sworn to himself that he wouldn’t shed in front of Atem. Just as Atem had tried to protect Heba, Heba had tried to protect Atem. His beloved brother didn’t need to know to the exact extent that Heba suffered.

Atem didn’t need to know that Heba was drowning in the shadows that pulled him farther and farther into the darkness.

“I don’t deserve it! I don’t deserve you, Akhi!” Heba wailed, clinging as tightly as he possibly could have to Atem. It was fairly clear that everything he’d said, he’d said for Atem’s benefit, even if it hurt his brother. Heba’s true will was to always stay with Atem. If he had his choice, then he’d even be entombed with Atem. “No one but you thinks I deserve to even live! So, let me help you by leaving! They’ll be nicer to you a-and I won’t be around to be a brat when I don’t get my way!”

Yes, Heba was well aware of his own shortcomings.

“You won’t have to deal with me messing everything up, anymore… What heart or soul could someone like me be…? How could she have loved me…? When she lied there, dying all because she gave birth to me… How could she have felt anything but contempt? How do you love me?”

His eyes closed at that, the pain Heba was feeling...it was all his fault. All of it. His brows furrowed as he held onto Heba even tighter, like he was scared that he’d be torn away.

“Because I was so lonely...so lonely without you. Once you were in my life..I wasn’t so lonely anymore..your big brother is so selfish...mother died because of it. She wanted to make me happy...and tried to have you...she died because I was so excited to have you by my side. Someone to share something in common..that’s why..it’s always been way I loved you from the moment you were born. I promised to her I would never let you feel unloved...and yet...you feel unwanted. I failed the both of you. I’m so sorry..I never knew you were struggling so much...please....please don’t go.” He pleaded with him as he’d felt selfish to even ask him to stay...but he couldn’t help it.

Without Heba...he’d feel soulless, like a husk.

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“I’m nothing like the woman I murdered.”

Heba’s hand was on the doorhandle and he’d been about to leave, but when Atem said something so outlandish, he couldn’t stop himself from answering, from denying it. His voice was so cold, so unfeeling. Heba just couldn’t bring himself to give in to the anguish that was tearing him apart, inside. He felt sick. Any more of this and he was sure he’d throw up.

“You did nothing to ruin me, Atem. I was ruined the moment I was born.” Heba didn’t face his brother. “You’ve always been kind to me and I have no idea why. I killed your mother.” Heba hardly ever acknowledged that the late Queen was his mother, too. He’d never known her and what right did a murderer have to call the person he murdered ‘mother’? For that matter, he often didn’t think of the previous Pharaoh as his ‘father’, either. “My first action in this world was to hurt the Pharaoh and you. It’s not something I ever expect to be forgiven for. It’s not something I can be forgiven for. You tried, I know you tried… But, even you can’t make miracles happen.”

Heba hesitated a long moment, maybe too long of a moment, before he turned to Atem.

“Thank you, for giving me the life I have. Without your kindness, I wouldn’t be here. But, I understand, now, that I really do just do more harm than good. I’m sure the priests will be happy this way, too, and your inner council.” Heba shrugged his shoulders. “I hear that unwanted princes often congregate in Cyprus. I suppose I can go there. That way, I can’t ruin anything else.”

“That is not true!” He immediately spat out as he could feel the pain in his heart swell over Heba’s words, causing tears to rise and start to fall. “Mother loved you and so do I! I always have! I looked forward to every day you came closer...mother said you would be my baby...I couldn’t’ve been more happier to meet you even with her death. She did her best to bring you into this world with love and I damn well won’t let that stop.” He fussed as he made strides over to Heba as he immediately held his brother in his arms tightly.

“...I miss her I do but, I never blamed you for her death...she was already ill before having you. Her dying wish was that to make sure you were loved and that you knew that you were loved...she loved you, Heba, as do I.” He said to him softly as he buried his face in his shoulder. “You’re not allowed to go...not without me. I’m nothing without you.you keep my head steady and my soul kind...without you I would but stuck with father’s lessons...as harsh as they were..I would’ve never made it through them without you..you’re my strength.” He admitted as he held onto him tighter.

There was never a day Heba was held so highly by the man and he would never let Heba think so poorly of himself.

“You’re the heart and soul of Egypt whether or not you know it....but you are.”

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"Papa!" Ra called out, a can of chips in her hands as she approached her father. "Can you open this for me?" She asked, fluttering her eyelashes at him as she held the can up to him to open. Unbeknownst to Atem, the can once opened would shoot out glitter and baby powder into his face.

Atem looked over to see his little girl running to him over something she was struggling to open. A gentle smile appearing on his face to her as he nodded and took hold of the can.

"Of course." He said just when he went to open it and have glitter and baby powder shoot him right in the face.

"......" He was silent at first before looking right at his daughter. "RA!"

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Heba whipped around to glare at Atem, balling his hands into fists at his sides. “No!” he shouted, the loudness of his own voice startling even him. “You don’t get to be mad about this! You don’t get to be depressed because I’m mad at you!” Heba felt as if he couldn’t breathe. How could he not want Atem? How could Atem even think that? And to hear the other call the affairs private, when Heba had an actual duty, as the Crown Prince, next in line after Atem (for now), to know the problems of their kingdom was the final blow. It was like a knife plunged right into Heba’s heart.

Even Atem didn’t think Heba worthy of the title.

“If I’m so unbefitting my station in life, then it’s no longer about what I want. It’s never been about what I want. Apparently, everyone agrees that my wants, my will, my existence are all better left ignored. There are no exceptions. No one believes I should be here, so I won’t. I’m tired, Atem.” Heba almost never used his brother’s name. He preferred the affectionate ‘Akhi’, to show his love for the other every time he called to Atem, or even just spoke about him.

“Even you can’t handle the no-good Prince, anymore.” Whatever anger Heba had had, it was all gone. There was nothing left if not even Atem could really see Heba. The one person in the world the Prince had thought could see who Heba truly was… couldn’t. It seemed Atem viewed Heba the same as all the other nobles did.

The same as their father had.

“If you’ll excuse me, my Pharaoh.” Not once in his entire life had Heba used Atem’s title when speaking to his brother. Another first came when he bowed at the waist, before turning for the door, once again, though his steps seemed a bit more sluggish, this time.

His eyes widened as Heba had rose his voice at him, using his name instead as well. That had meant Heba was serious, that he was hurting. However, the words coming from him were untrue. He never felt he was unbefitting. Never. The man was just shielding Heba from this life. He had no intentions of dying and letting Heba experience this never ending stress that plagued him every day and night. He didn’t let Heba in because it was too much.

If his brother really saw what he dealt with at times he would grow concerned for Atem’s mental health...but, he didn’t let him see it. He just wanted his brother to live a happy life. After all their father had been so cruel to Heba.

But to see this explode in his face like this was hard. He didn’t know how to approach this as he was watching Heba growing more upset by the second. 

“That’s not true! You’re not some no-good prince! You’ve never been no-good. You’re smart and gentle just like our mother...” He then looked down as Heba had used the terms he was using towards him. It really hurt but, it was clear signs Heba was hurting too.

“I never meant to make you feel like this...to feel so lowly of yourself..I just wanted to protect you..instead I did more harm..I am sorry, Akh..you don’t deserve that.”

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Heba frowned, deeply. He hated when Atem talked down to him, as if he was some stupid kid that knew nothing. If anyone should have known better than that, it should have been Atem. The Pharaoh was the only person who knew that Heba was actually quite intelligent. It didn’t matter that he clowned around a bit, nor did it matter that he neglected most of his studies. He was still bright. He understood what went on around him.

“I waited until you both agreed on the trade agreement,” Heba huffed, reaching up to swat Atem’s hand away. The prince moved away from the Pharaoh, turning his back on his brother. “I’m not stupid enough to risk having important things fall through because of me. Or, well, maybe you don’t know that. After all, I wasn’t allowed into that meeting you had with the priests. You told the guards to bar me from it.” Was he bitter? Yep.

Frustrated, Heba started to walk towards the door. “It feels like, in order to get any attention from you, I have to resort to doing something you hate. Maybe I should just stop, all together. It would make your life easier and everyone else would be happier for it!”

Atem had paused at that as the situation was blowing up in his face at this very moment. His heart sinking that he’d missed this detail as he was just overworked and wasn’t thinking properly and yet...he just kept messing up.

He’d felt like he was failing his brother massively. Not being able to meet his needs and had been making mistakes. He never meant to come off like that aat all. He loved him after all. They only had each other and even he promised to their mother that he would always love him and take care of him no matter what.

“Is that what you want?..” He asked softly as he’d started to feel like he wasn’t good enough. The thought alone that he made his brother feel this way hurt..it hurt more than he expressed. “I only banned you because it’s private matters and I don’t want to stress you out with my problems within the kingdom but,...if I am not meeting your expectations..I understand if you look elsewhere..”

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Heba looked upon Atem with a bit of suspicion. He wondered if the mentioned servant was going to get in trouble. Then again, Atem didn’t know which servant had known of Heba’s location, so if he stayed quiet about that, then he could avoid the girl getting admonished.

After a long moment, Heba sighed, crawling out of the wardrobe and tossing the tunic back inside, before standing upright, stretching. It was a little cramped, hiding out in there. He then rubbed the back of his neck, looking away from Atem, thinking about what the other had said.

“Dummy Akhi… I wouldn’t ever think that you’d hurt me,” Heba huffed, puffing his cheeks with a pout as he crossed his arms over his chest. Did Atem think so little of Heba? Heba trusted Atem completely, and while he expected to get punished for his outbursts, he never thought that those punishments would come in the form of some physical outburst.

That was more their father’s method, when dealing with Heba.

Another sigh left the man as he looked down to Heba and watched as the young man puffed up his cheeks with a pout on his lips, arms crossing at him. “No I know you know I wouldn’t hurt you but, still I know you’re used to father’s treatment..I just didn’t want you to equate me to him.” He said softly to the other as he stepped forward to fix Heba’s hair as it was unruly from being in the closet.

“Heba you can’t keep pranking me in that manner when I’m handling business like that..it was rather important. Our safety lies in that man’s wares. I am very stressed out about our enemies and his business and loyalty means a lot and could cost us.” He softly fussed with his brother as he went to move his hand to cup at his cheek. 

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Dumps water on him for making her chosen Patron mad.

"W-Wha?! WHAT DID I DO?!?!?!" He fussed as he had water dumped onto him.