Zach beamed, really surprised that he was friends with Prefects sometimes because he was as troublesome as they got. It had its perks, clearly. His smile unfortunately faded, though, because James had a pretty good point. What if people did hate them? Maybe they shouldn’t. What if someone died in this whole mess? Zach wasn’t all for that, so… he tilted his head with a shrug. “If they hate s then… at least they’ll talk about us, bitch. And then I’ll be, like, famous by association.” Zach was joking, entirely joking, and he quickly shook his head just to let James know that he was. “I’m joking. But, yeah. I’m still trying to do this plan. It’s my new favorite plan, I’ll have like a sense of accomplishment if we end up succeeding.”
When James got out of his seat to sit next to Zach, Zach was quick to hug him right back, fully and appreciatively. He was always reminded that James was such a big, big teddybear and Zach absolutely adored him for it, but even more so now, because he felt now that he really needed a hug. “Thanks, you sap.” He said, squeezing his arms around James a little before pulling his arms back. It was strangely random but, well, it was just that people don’t do these types of things anymore. No one let people know how much they’re appreciated and no one wanted to do super fun things because it might be seemed as uncool and everything that seemed boring was underrated because emotions were too much, and Zach just really appreciated that. James would be the type to just do this type of stuff. He listened to James, too, seriously, hanging on every word like he had to or he’d die. He didn’t even drink his butterbeer when it came because right now he needed that clear head. And he found himself smiling a little at how much sense he was making—a lot of sense. He would hate to be judged for something in his past, too, and he should’ve thought of that, especially when he knew Eli. Or, well, he felt like he did, but… yeah. People made mistakes. “Oh, stop.” Zach said, smiling sadly as he reached for James’ hands, snapping his fingers for them because he was in the mood for being sappy, too. “I hate when you’re right. I really do. I’d hate… I’d hate for someone to do that to me. Like, judge me and stuff for something that is just not me now. I just… James I am so afraid, okay? You say that I’m awesome or whatever and I don’t understand because I don’t think I’m worth the commitment or something, so I was like… scared. If I ended up dating Eli or something, y’know, what if he just cheats on me? First boyfriend and that happens and it’s my worst fear. And it would just reaffirm what I think about myself and it’s fucked up, but. I’m just not like… that type of person for people, I think. So I’d be scared but you make sense… and I hate you for it.” Zach sighed, pouting a little. “Like I… I don’t know, mate, I’m just. I actually don’t see how I’m as lovely as you think I am, I don’t know. I don’t see it. I see a lot of my faults and I wish I didn’t or something but I think it, like, affects me with this type of stuff and you can’t repeat this to people because I’m actually very insecure so.” At some point, he started talking very fast to the point where he wasn’t pausing for sentences.
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