The Roach demon

So that bug demon i had in the basement broke out and fused to my body. so technically I'm both Alive, dead, bug demon, and myself isn't that wonderful? anyhow I should make a secondary post to my intro with all the shit im into

[thelocalroachdemon]

Guess its time I introduce myself:

I am (Formally) TheAllConsuming: i am 18 year old bisexual male of Latino decent. And I am not of any faith, nor involved in any real Notable factions or groups to list. Save for conditions i live in shame with, such a ADHD. Amongst other conditions im not willing to vocalize yet. And expect this blog to be BIPOLAR AS HELL, we'll go to fandom stuff to me ranting, to me talking about something that came around my mind. So,get ready bitches

DNI: if you dont like to hear about topics that are kinda sad or would fall under "dead dove" and whip into me being down bad, to angry and so on

LIKES

● Sleep token (and most rock & metal music)

● Dr pepper

● Most of my fandoms

● art with passion (even if a little jank or ugly)

● the complex creation of OCs

● reading literature whenever i can

● the few loyal strings that keep me in reality

● really strange humor

● studying fictional biology of species in media

● horses, harpoons, and Hyenas

● clear and concise orders

● fanfics

DISLIKES

● most political candidates

● at least 35% of people

● art of all forms without passion or heart

● my failures

● most of my biological family

● my ADHD

● the eternal hunger that plagues me

● unclear and muttered orders

● my existence

● MOST COUNTY MUSIC

MUTUAL

my only real association with anyone is my "boss" or "sibling" whatever title they may choose to represent themselves with. And they are nobody else but

@pyxilate

CONCLUSIONS? Well its that

I have nothing but my sorrow and I want nothing more. It has been, it still is, faithful to me.

Why should I begrudge it, since during the hours when my soul crushed the depths of my heart, it was seated there beside me?

O sorrow, I have ended, you see, by respecting you, because I am certain you will never leave me.

Ah! I realize it: your beauty lies in the force of your being. You are like those who never left the sad fireside corner of my poor black heart.

O my sorrow, you are better than a well-beloved: because I know that on the day of my final agony, you will be there, lying in my sheets, O sorrow, so that you might once again attempt to enter my heart.

[thelocalroachdemon]

HEY HEY HEY, GUESS WHO HAS SOMETHING TO ADD ITS THIS GUY

So to add all the fandoms (or media i interact with) im into and can expect post vaguely referencing it, or what not. Now this isn't the complete list but the ones you might find me in should you track me down across all forms of social media or find me interacting with

SHOWS/ANIME/MOVIES (mostly anime, because im a dork)

RWBY (had a big phase when I was kid, hadn't watched it since, been planing on a rewatch)

Jujitsu Kaisen

Chainsaw Man

The Amazing Digital circus

Gachiakuta (hey bud if your reading this, there's fine women over here)

Umamusume (horses? i love. Funny ladies? I love. Mixed together? I adore)

A decent chunk of marvel based shows

Same with DC comics

Kpop demon hunters (it made me laugh really good so obviously I'm looking out for it)

Don't watch many movies, mostly since I get impatient or too busy insulting or joking about it's logic to care about the plot

GAMES (I have a lot, but not all I can share so I'll condense it to groups)

GACHA GAMES (Genshin, ZZZ, HSR, and others alike like Wuthering Waves, or ARKNIGHTS ENDFIELD, Umamusume. AND LIMBUS COMPANY)

Any hoard shooters such as: payday, Left 4 Dead, Darktide, Vermintide, (killing floor i think it's counts will edit)

Rogue-lites/likes: Hades, Balatro, Darkest Dungeons, binding of Isaac, (Mewgenics. been meaning to play this one, but don't have it due to being broke), Dead Cells

Soulsbourne/Souls-likes: Bloodborne, Sekiro: Shadows die twice, Lies of P, Elden Ring (and Eldenring Night Reign)

Shooters: Call of duty/modern warfare (used to anyhow), TitanFall 2 (God i miss that game), TeamFortress 2 (had the orange box back on ps3, played the shit out of that, and now on my shifty laptop). Deadlock (technically a MOBA but it's in closed beta and im ACHING FOR A INVITE CODE)

Horror games: FNAF (classic), Outlast (love this series especially Trials), No I'm not human (love that vibe), Mouthwashing (first psychical horror that actually made me silently complement my life)

Cozy/chill stuff: Minecraft (occasionally when it's on my PS I'll mess about with it assuming I hadn't deleted it), Coffee Talk (making brews and getting to do impromptu VA work with my brothers? Good stuff...)

Man i just realize i don't have Cozy games in my library, no wonder I'm so fucking strung out

MISCELLANEOUS SHIT

WARHAMMER FANTASY/40K: (I know more about 40k, it's really interesting. It's just huge chunks of the fandoms suck)

WORLD OF DARKNESS: (also a real interesting little TTRPG with all the lore and the funny shit in it. Also if you need to be introduced to it? Just watch Bruva Alfabusa's video on the WOD it's a real funny intro of what to expect, hell he even has a web series set up inside WOD that's a good way to learn how to really get into the mood

PROJECT MOON: Lobotomy Corp, Library of Ruina, and Limbus company. All goated with other small little addiction to its lore like Distortion Detective and Leviathan (i think that's the right title). It's music and writing? It's absolutely fantastic. And I've been trying to find a way to properly introduce it to my buddy

DC/MARVEL/IMAGE COMICS: I like comics, like a lot. I go to a comic store pretty regularly with my brothers (i don't buy any personally since I have no interest in having a collection) i love them.. I just don't like taking the limited space i got up

Minecraft ARGs: you find me a good ARG with a decent plot and maybe a good narrator as they bisect it for me? Oh baby im good. Plus it's all yours.

Epic the musical (and anything by Jorge Rivera-Herrans) if you take a left at the cross roads you'll find my addiction to this musical and my awaiting for my next fix. I won't die until it comes and INJECTS ITSELF INTO MY BRAIN

[thelocalroachdemon]

GUESS WHAT? MUSIC TIME, THATS RIGHT I HAVE GROWN COMFORTABLE ENOUGH TO SHARE MY MUSICAL TASTES ON THIS SITE. This isn't a full list of all the artists I listen to but the ones I certainly enjoy

SYSTEM OF A DOWN: i like metal, and social commentary and they do both

SLIPKNOT: IM A METAL HEAD I GUESS. NOT TOO BIG BUT PLENTY OF APPRECIATION FOR IT

KORN: music kinda helps me with my home life. Even if some songs don't apply to me but my brothers more.

PIERCE THE VEIL: emo Mexican time

SLEEP TOKEN: mean....do i have to add anything more to this note

BAD OMENS: that singers voice does something to my body I can't say

TYLER THE CREATOR: it's basics but I like it, plus Why not?

KENDRICK LAMAR: been listening to more of him as of late, with a lot of a older rap. If yall got suggestions send them my way

6LACK (BLACK): i like his music, sure I don't know much of the guy but he's earned a spot

AVENOIR: also don't know much of this guy but FUCK is this music a good one (especially when reading a real steamy fanfic)

THE WEEKEND: mean I was probably too young to be listening to his music, but when you know the guy and his struggles it really gives you a certain perspective on his music (even if he gets out of his league by trying to make a movie)

MFDOOM: been listening to his stuff, and they've been joining my personal Playlist

GORILLAZ: I grew up on this shit and I don't skip any of the rap in the music

WILL WOOD (plus Will wood and the tapeworms): it's good music that I find myself listening to

ADO: one of the best Japanese artists i found myself listening to

KENSHIN YONEZU: wonderful music by this lad, can't help but vibe anytime they come up on my Playlist

JOHNNY CASH: one of the few country folk I actually like. (May god bless his soul)

REFUSED: they make good music i can't help but find myself scream singing "Jackels can't be bothered to dream" or "I wanna watch the world burn" anytime it plays, even if it makes me seem like a loser

Paramore: do I? I'm sure you blasted misery business in you ear before

AND ONE: found him off social media trends and all that. But damn the music is good.

SHE WANTS REVENGE: now this is the freaky music. And I can't help but enjoy

KINO: now I don't speak half a tidde wink of any Slavic language but damn do I enjoy this music

SADSVIT: Ukrainian, I don't speak any of it. But I enjoy the music, and well its good music and I want to support. So who cares

[thelocalroachdemon]

Everytime I look at some of my content I have to remind myself of how much of a dork I am. I just see this image anytime i make new content or rework old stuff

[burnttoast7272]

holy fuck this is disturbing… oh my gods

im guessing life is strange is disturbing

dudette, i need more context lmao

[pyxilate]

I WANT THIS UGLY ASS MAN DEAD FUCK THAT GUY

[burnttoast7272]

im not fucking no guy

[pyxilate]

good, he deserves to die in a ditch. no, even that’s too good for him.

[thelocalroachdemon]

May i suggest?

[pyxilate]

STICK HIM IN THERE ON THE HIGHEST POWER LEVEL

[thelocalroachdemon]

How about Highest power level, but the dullest blades we can find?

[thelocalroachdemon]

Sometimes I feel like this is what people think of me when I talk to them first...maybe it's because I normally look like a fucking maniac

[burnttoast7272]

holy fuck this is disturbing… oh my gods

im guessing life is strange is disturbing

dudette, i need more context lmao

[pyxilate]

I WANT THIS UGLY ASS MAN DEAD FUCK THAT GUY

[burnttoast7272]

im not fucking no guy

[pyxilate]

good, he deserves to die in a ditch. no, even that’s too good for him.

[thelocalroachdemon]

May i suggest?

[thelocalroachdemon]

So i may be inventing a language for nothing more than just bullshit because my brain thinks it's a good thing. Imma take some references duh.

[thelocalroachdemon]

So self reflection was done and I have come to a conclusion

Im a fucking Incel (involuntary celibate for translation), I don't get any action of the opposite or same sex, im a loser, and im ugly (or at least a 5/10 or maybe a 6.5 on a good day). And i don't have the skills to stand out in the current job market

BUT.... GOOD NEWS!

Im not a dickhead who will attack and act like he's owed pleasure or dating. And im doing my small steps to improve who I am as a person and feeds my hobbies

So am I bad?

Im not necessarily. I shall be improving as i can, making myself better even if i may never get a kiss from a cute guy or a pretty girl.

Although I certainly could use a nap right now

[literallylink--who-tf-is-ravioli]

Just almost had an argument with my stepdad because he said that next year(when my brother is SEVEN) little brother is going to start mowing the lawn and I said

"probably not mowing the lawn, it's not safe"

And he said

"well I did that when I was his age"

And I said

"well times are different"

And he said smth like

"no it isn't, people are just sissies"

And I said

"it isn't sissy to care about your child's safety"

Istg I can't be in this house when he's off work and my mom is working

[pyxilate]

take a golf club to BOTH HIS KNEES :33

[thelocalroachdemon]

Nah you gotta go big, slash his Achilles tendon. The knees can heal after a while, that leaves some real permanent damage if you cut them sloppy enough last I checked

[thelocalroachdemon]

I guess I gotta charge my little pen before I do it tho

[thelocalroachdemon]

God i suck at shading, pic unrelated but I think it best summarizes my feelings on the situation

[thelocalroachdemon]

Accidentally made one eye be: She’s serving cunt (as they say)

And the other: “There is nothing beyond the veil of life, it’s all nothingness, a unyielding void that devours us all” while also serving a little less

[pyxilate]

ok but why is this song so good

[thelocalroachdemon]

Okay it was actually good

[pyxilate]

ok but why is this song so good

[thelocalroachdemon]

I'll be the judge of that

[thelocalroachdemon]

Kinda came to a odd conclusion, I was listening to some Mexican music and most of the male artists have very powerful and loud voices. But not large spiking high notes. Im guessing that explains why we have big ass lungs and deeper voices for singing...guess I can practice my lungs and vocal control and be able to bust out into full mariachi gear when I have to perform for my life in the apocalypse to earn my rations

[killer-offical]

i was born in June, pride month. thats why im

gay

[pavement-offical]

I was born in August, nothing happens in August. that's why I'm

boring

[killer-offical]

uHhhh ummmm what event occurs in august uhhhhh

[pyxilate]

i was born in September, that’s why I’m

Autistic

[thelocalroachdemon]

I was born in August, that's why I'm

Tragic

[thelocalroachdemon]

Question for all who see this: is it odd I get absolutely heated whenever someone is near me as a work? (like angry and have a compulsive hatred for anyone who is even in the same room as me as I draw which makes me unable to draw , because the same thing happens whenever I play video games I hate people acknowledging my existence as I partake in hobbies)

So if anyone knows anything please tell

[queenaegon]

is that song actually character-coded or is your brain a character-shaped hammer looking for lyrics to nail down somewhere