Selfless vague.

030817 ♥

[thelostempress]

08.23.15

How would I ever forget this day? Ito yung araw na chinat mo ako 9 years ago. Haha

[thelostempress]

7

I hate that number. But it’s been 7 days since you admitted your mistake. It’s also our 7th year celebrating our love. So, what’s good with 7?

[thelostempress]

March 29, 2024.

Today is a good Friday. It's my last day of work for this month, and I have the opportunity to take a 3-day paid break.

After finishing my shift with my two clients this morning at 8 AM, I spent time talking to EJ, playing with Luna and Thor, and browsing my social media feeds. I came to realize how far EJ and I have come as a couple.

This month, we celebrated our 7th year together, both got promoted at work, and he finally got his dream Nike shoes when they came back in stock, which we bought the same day.

Today, we spent the entire day intermittently planning our next steps and goals for April, including our plans to move out here.

Tomorrow, we'll visit the house we're considering moving into, and I hope everything goes well so we can decide if we're going to take the risk.

What a way to spend my first day of work break. Thank you for this kind of life.

I just realized I've made a reflection? Haha.

Today, I started writing again to express how grateful, thankful, and blessed I am for all the things that were once just dreams but are now my reality. As I reflect on this Good Friday, I'm reminded of the words from Psalm 107:1, "Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good; His love endures forever." Indeed, His enduring love and blessings have brought me to this point, and I'm filled with gratitude for the life I have.

[ice-block]

It’s so fucked up how tiktok culture has made clout-poisoned people turn the public into content, every day I see people minding their business have their entire faces put online for thousands of likes, a couple kissing on the train, a lady dancing across a cross walk, a guy nodding his head to the music at a club, a lady buying a banana at the store, ring camera footage of the neighbors kids being stupid. Just let people live jfc

[ur-daily-inspiration]

Even coming from small towns, the biggest dreams are possible. - Stephanie Labbe ♡

[thelostempress]

[remanence-of-love]

[thelostempress]

It’s over.

[thelostempress]

I’m wretched.

[bpdamn]

something inside me has given up. i always at least tried to look happy, now i don’t bother faking a smile. talking wears me out in a way i can’t even explain. things that brought me joy now are things that i don’t have the energy for. i’m hurting people i genuinely love by ignoring every single message i receive. i‘m disappointing everyone including myself. getting out of bed is torture i avoid at all costs. i’m spending my days waiting for them to pass and let my thoughts consume me at night. how is life supposed to get any better when i don’t care about anything anymore?

[prone-to-suicidal-tendencies]

[surviving-somedays]

In that moment it was silent

Not in the physical world

But in her heart.

The pain shattered her

But no one would understand

Not even she understood.

But she collected up the pieces

And glued herself together again

But the pieces didn’t fit anymore.

She had broke so many times

It was like pieces from many puzzles

And finally she gave up.

-MM

[somewhatsomelikepoetry]

I don’t have much fight left in me

[prone-to-suicidal-tendencies]

[depresseddisneyprincess]

[blindedbythedarkness]

I feel completely dead inside right now. Not just dead inside in the sense of having no emotions, but dead inside in a way that seems like my entire mind body and soul have given up. I feel like I’ve been fighting so much and for so long and I simply don’t have the energy or motivation or hope or willpower to carry on. Frankly right now I couldn’t even kill myself because I simply can’t be bothered. It feels like every spark I had has gone out and all I want to do is stare out the window or sleep.

[thelostempress]

Napapagod na ko. Tulungan mo naman ako?