Hi, I'm Stella. My pronouns are She/Her/Herself🏳️⚧️ I'm a 19-year-old, aspiring artist, photographer, and student. If you have any questions DM me on Reddit or Email me at: [email protected]
Pansexual and a furry, wow, yeah Im trans to lol. I like stardew valley, and build a bear products, I also have a tendency towards substance use but I try to keep it healthy
Ash(She/they/it)
I'm demisexual, and the current main host, used to like writing but now mostly play video games, I typically do the chores and go to work, im like a caretaker
Jane(She/her)
I'm the youngest out of all of us, embodying perpetual childhood, i like animals and plants, i spend my time watching my little pony or sleeping with my stuffed animals
Ember(They/She)
I'm aroace, I like collecting my little pony merch, and try to protect the system from harm, I also have some anger issues. Working on it.
Greg/George(he/him)
Demisexual, and consider myself transmasc due to the situation, emotionally supported the system for a long time and held a lot of trauma, I am by far the longest existing alter/headmate in the system
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I hate when a piece of queer media is so obviously meant for hetero/cisgender people to fetishize us. When the lesbians are just identical big boobs, asses, skinny waists, and fan service walking in heels. When the gay men are two muscular dudes who only ever focus on the sexual side of their relationship. When the trans person is highlighted as having a specific body part and that's their whole character.
When the only mention of struggle shown is a moment of "Oh my, we shouldn't! What would people think?" During intercourse and there's never actual fear or struggle shown.
When the story has no ups, downs, plot, climax, anything. It's all just "Look! They're hot and they're horny!" Like a zoo animal being caught acting funny.
When the only affection shown is sexual. No romance, no awkward moments, no drastic actions taken for love, no cuddling and kissing, nothing. Hell, the characters themselves will only ever have backstory if it's for the tragic explanation of what "turned them" gay/lesbian/trans.
When there's no depth. No love. No gain as a result of their cured pain. Yet, we're all supposed to be thankful nonetheless. Like we aren't being used as a fetish, as a kink, as a point and stare game.
What does it take to have a good story, a long thought out plot, a fleshed out cast of characters, and everything else that makes a story... And the character(s) just happen to be LGBTQIA+? Why does the point have to be that we're different, that it's crazy if we fall in love or have fun sex? Why the fuck can't we just be treated like a normal romantic subplot to add to an already existing and enjoyable story?
The FBI cut the phone lines during the 1977 disability rights sit-in. Then they turned off the hot water.
They locked the doors from the outside. One hundred and fifty people were trapped on the fourth floor. Half of them used wheelchairs. The government assumed they would leave.
Kitty Cone was thirty-three. She had muscular dystrophy. Her muscles were failing, but her logistics were flawless. She knew how to organize people.
The federal government had promised to sign regulations protecting disabled Americans from discrimination. The policy was known as Section 504. They printed the promise on paper. Then they stalled. Without a signature, it was just typography.
The protesters entered the regional Health, Education, and Welfare building in San Francisco on a Tuesday morning. They took the elevators to the director's office. They brought sleeping bags and catheters. They informed the staff they were not leaving until the law was signed.
By sunset, the police surrounded the exits. Kitty sat near the windows. She organized the floor plan. She assigned committees for security and sanitation. She kept her medication in a small cooler.
According to federal memorandums released decades later, the strategy to end the occupation relied on medical attrition. The building was not equipped for long-term habitation. The FBI calculated that a population requiring ventilators, specialized diets, and daily medical aides would voluntarily evacuate if the environment became sufficiently hostile. They instituted a blockade.
The blockade went into effect immediately. No food deliveries allowed. No medical supplies permitted through the lobby. Guards stood at the main doors checking identification.
Kitty's muscles deteriorated faster under the physical strain. She couldn't walk. When the phone lines went dead, the fourth floor lost contact with the press. The government waited for the quiet.
Kitty dropped to the floor. She realized the barricades were designed for standing adults. The police had blocked the hallways at waist height. They hadn't blocked the linoleum.
The floors were covered in cigarette ash and spilled coffee. She dragged her body through it. She crawled under the barricades to reach the restricted elevator shafts and unguarded offices.
She carried notes in her pockets. She found a single working payphone the FBI missed. She called the local news desks. She called the mayor's office.
She crawled back. When her arms failed, someone pulled her by her ankles. The Black Panthers heard the news reports. They crossed the police lines with hot meals. The FBI could not stop them without a riot.
They shut off the elevators, so she crawled.
The occupation lasted twenty-five days. It remains the longest non-violent occupation of a federal building in American history. On April 28, the Secretary of HEW signed the regulations without a single alteration.
The protesters left the building the next morning. They went back to their apartments. The Rehabilitation Act regulations laid the groundwork for every accessibility law that followed. The HEW building still stands on United Nations Plaza. The elevators run on a schedule. The doors are heavy glass.
Kitty Cone: the woman who crawled under the barricades.
Brad Lomax who was disabled and a Black Panther was key to the Black Panthers involvement. They did more than provide meals and didn’t just hear it from the news. They were actively involved.
Explore Brad Lomax’s under-reported contributions to the early disability justice movement.
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How very depressing that Neil Gaiman had trended not even a tiny bit for demonstrating what a fucking horrific person he is.
As a reminder, he's suing Caroline Wallner, one of his accusers, for breaking her NDA. Not for libel. He's saying she shouldn't have told anyone about it, not that she lied.
The author says Wallner broke her NDA by sharing her story with the media, including with New York Magazine.
He doesn't need the money. He's risking the Streisand effect. He is punishing Caroline, he's trying to intimidate other victims who have signed NDAs to scare them into continued silence.
He is no friend to women, to the LGBTQIA+ community, to anyone quite frankly unless he thinks they are of value to him.
Share the story. Put it on Facebook and bluesky and whatever else you're on. Make it clear what a horrifying person he is. Tell your friends. He's paying Edendale a fortune to try and cover this up. Make this hard for him. Make it cost him money.
weird how abled people don't want you to have supports because it may Annoy Them. no, you can't have a shower chair, it'll get in my way. no, you can't put subtitles on, im here to watch a movie not read. because the needs of the disabled are somehow lesser than the wants of the abled.
Friendly reminder that asking your lycan partner to turn you is incredibly insensitive! Seriously can we retire this trope already? Not only is it just offensive, but no one would ever actually choose this life! Lycanthropy is a curse. Full stop.
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Ok user "moon-moon" as if that original meme wasn't created to mock pack nomenclature 🙄
Anyway I'm not gonna touch that internalized lycanphobia with a ten foot pole. Being turned by your partner is something that can be incredibly intimate as long as both parties are consenting and the one being turned is 100% sure they want it. Literally the only downside to transforming once a month is the pain, but midol works just fine. No one with these "lycanthropy bad" takes ever wants to discuss the legitimate positives that come with this "curse" lmao.
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I'm literally reclaiming moon moon but go off I guess. Anyways turning your partner is absolutely disgusting and morally reprehensible and anyone who does it should be muzzled permanently.
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lmao my wife literally saved my life when she turned me but i guess she should be muzzled huh? we run through the woods hunting deer together and can each haul in groceries in one trip now, but nooo she's obviously a danger to society because she cares enough about me to help me when insurance wouldn't cover my medicine
also it was confirmed that the creator of that meme literally makes and sells silver bullets so if you still wanna use moon moon for yourself that certainly is a choice. source: (X)
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I love that instead of naming the more common benefits of lycanthropy, you mentioned that you and your wife can carry all the groceries in one trip. I think that's definitely a positive that gets overlooked far too often and I commend you for speaking your truth, sir
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lol thanks but I'm a woman 😅
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Plus werewolf blood tastes way better and is as filling as 10 humans 👍
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Oh my GOD you vampblr freaks will just flock to anything. It clearly says "vamps DNI" in my bio!
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lmaoooo of course you're a vampire exclusionist
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wasn't OP the same guy who said fursuits were offensive to lycanthropes and doxxed a werewolf fursuiter?
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They ARE offensive and harmful to this community and I'm tired of pretending they're not. They perpetuate harmful depictions of what a humanoid wolf is actually like.
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me when I dox someone for making candy colored animal costumes that look nothing like what a real werewolf does
Hi, I'm Ashley, or Ash for short, im an alter of Stella, the chick who made this account. Feel free to ask questions of you'd like :)
I just kinda wanted to ramble about my personal experience with DID and coming to terms with having a dissasociative disorder. I feel like its important because acceptance of systems, plurality, and the general idea of more than one person inhabiting a body has lagged behind.
[More below the cut]
Back in August of last year i began thinking a lot about my life, my total lack of memories, black outs, and so much more, I begun looking, searching for a reason, i learned about plurality. And after a while of considering it, I chocked it up to stress instead. But after moving accross the country, things seemed to get... strange, now I had someone with me more than not and the blanks in my memory became much more apparent.
My partner noticed Stella's mood changes, our over all unstable presence and brought it up, we at the time thought we probably had bpd because, well, the symptoms sort of aligned. We didnt have to money to get that checked out though, so it was left as just an assumption.
After a while, we cracked, Stella was feeling horrid and I was laughing and having fun, we switched. And switched again., and again. And again. All in front of our partner.
They said they wanted to talk to the one of us who felt bad and I stopped. I didnt know what they were talking about. I said I was ok and that they knew about my mental health problems, they said they "didnt know i had did" and that. It rattled around in my head. I begun thinking, do we have some sort of dissasociative condition. I begun reading medical literature amd stella begun reading other peoples accounts of what its like to be multiple. And after a few days, on Christmas eve. We broke down. I walked for miles. Texting a friend feeling like I was no one, I dodnt know who I was or what I was doing. And that friend suggested I moght be a part of a plural system.
Later that night, stella sent a text to our partner. "I think im plural" explains what that meant. Honestly they didnt beleive it at first. They had known people with DID in the past and didnt beleive we could be a system, though they did tell us what we described sounded a lot like what they went through in the past. It wasnt until I and stella finally broke our communication barrier between us down, that they finally accepted it, and that I finally fully accepted it.
We are multiple, at that point, someone from the past began to reemerge in us. Ember, at first I assumed she was a child or some young part of us that got lost because she was non verbal
But after she began speaking it became clear to Stella, Ember was the angry, hateful voice from back when she first began to live after our old hosts hospitalization. Ember was still mad. Even more so now because she had been asleep for almost 4 years. And our body had changed a lot since then.
After a while she's chilled out, but on my long walks she would front while we were down by the lake.
I still remember the first time I got her to calm down, I was doing dishes and turned on a deadwing dork reading of this pinkie pie tulpa thread on 4chan lol. Thats how I learned she liked green texts and message boards.
Then. We got hit by a car. And ember fronted immediately, dealt with the ambulance. The hospital, and a lot of things.
She protected us from the mental toll for a while.
Then Jane began to form, from what I understand she's very much still in a childlike place. She's new and old. And remembers things no one else does from our early years.
A few months After that, greg came out of the shadows. And imparted some early, early trauma on me. He thought he was jist an imaginary friend. A figment of someone long gone imagination, and in a way. He was, the child he split from had been through something and he protected them from it.
The other half, Greg's host, split into stella and ember.
Stella split and made me. And Jane just came to be from pieces of the past.
We live and function, even thrive together.
We arent dangerous. We dont need fixing. We are a healthy system, a group of people. A family. I love my family. Even if they are just pieces of the person who's ashes fromed us.
-dont go to the emergency room with dental problems. go to the dentist
-bagged greens are cheaper than pre-made salads
-taco bell is NOT worth the money anymore. 1/4 cup mayo, 1/4 cup sour cream, 3 tblspoons pickled jalapenos+2tblspoons of the jar liquid, 2 tsp paprika 1 tsp cumin 1 tsp garlic powder 1 tsp onion powder salt+pepper. all in your blender. creamy jalapeno sauce
-dont quit your job unless you have a bunch of job interviews lined up immediately after
-use resources. food bank, unemployment, housing assistance, financial aid, etc. yes there will be paperwork. but Do It
-dont stay awake longer than 20 hours. you Will start to become impulsive and cranky. resting for 20 minutes is better than trying to stay awake
-for every 2 hours you spend looking up close at screens, spend 20 minutes looking at something far away from you. stretch your wrists a lot
-dont do that yoga stretch where you roll your head around your shoulders. youre grinding down the joints in your neck
-be nice to your friends, bullying them as a joke gets old. if you need a ride somewhere at least offer them gas money
-brush your teeth at any time of the day but especially before you sleep. dont snack in bed if you can help it. make your bed the Clean Teeth Zone. keep floss picks by your bed
-dont tell your boss youre adhd/autism/depression/suicidal. dont trust your coworkers with that. you NEVER know how people will take it and its none of their business
-train your pets to go to the front door when they hear a fire alarm
Sorta trauma.vent turned positive, im proud of my headmates
Tw abuse mentioned, trauma, and dieting
Back last year on my 20th our mother, the woman who tormented us for years, forced us to have a birthday party. She picked the place. She invited the guests. And she used that time to dump on her ex husband, one of the few people to support us(me).
All while attempting to coerce us into not moving in with our father to save up for our big move to the east coast and to simply just keep living with her indefinitely.
I'll never not be Proud of Stella, for fighting through with me to escape her grasp. While I may have spent the time in our body working more often then not.
She spent that time actually taking care of our body a good half of that time. Even working with me to lose a massive amount of weight. All while we weren't even fully aware of eachother.
Once we finally moved and semi-uncovered our systemhood, Ember began to come out of dormancy, and she was defensive. She was made, suprised, and sad. Our body had changed since she was last in it at the age of 16. But she's accepted it, shes grown to love being awake and aware, and im proud of her.
Since our accident another alter emerged, Jane, she is pretty mentally young containing few memories outside of the person we came froms early childhood, shes adapted to being in an adult body, and has begun to slowly grow and change, giving me hope someday she will be able to handle a lot more than she can, im proud of you Jane
And Greg, you told me, and eventually everyone else something you didnt want to, you knew it would hurt us, and you, but it needed to be said. And you said it, and shared memories that make it all make sense. And just like you did before we all knew about you. You've supported us, helped us, and kept us on the right track. Im proud of you for adapting and trying to accept our body as it is now, even thoigh it doesnt align woth your gender.
I love my headmates, I love being me. And while I know it can be rough im glad all of them have been with me through all of it
-Ashley
This is turned into a rant about how proud I am of everyone but honestly they deserve it and they are gonna read this
We were trying to explain to some friends earlier that saying "this person is in front" and "this person is co-conscious" isn't always the most useful phrasing for us because either of those terms can mean a lot of different things. We have our own words that we like to use to describe where folks can be in relation to our awareness.
The states on this chart are still a bit of a simplification, as we flow between them and it's more of a spectrum than a discrete set, but they're close enough to the actual language that we use to do the job.
Trauma ramble below, tw for, idk most things, csa, loss of power, hypersexuality, self harm, the whole thing
Guess its damage. Guess its trauma. The places someone touches you when you're young and defenseless, The way hypersexuality hurts you when you're young, and how it almost gets you into a similar situation to the one that caused it in the first place. How it feels to watch part of yourself suffer from something while you feel little to nothing sexually charged. And how the content the person you came from searched out wrecked there brain. How young people who have suffered csa look to the internet to understand what happened to them and find porn websites.
The long since faded scar of an attempt.
The fresh wound of a doctors blade.
The text below is self explanatory but basically its. Where was your god then. Where was he when our petals were plucked by someone much older than us. Where was your shepherd when we needed protected from the wolves. I lived. We lived. We thrive. A beautiful flower. ALIVE.
You know as an American born in the late 90s I’ve watched my country blow up foreigners on tv supposedly in the interest of national security since I was a toddler but quite frankly we live on a natural fortress of a continent with friendly nations to our north and south and have been attacked on our own soil literally two times in the past hundred years and we have military bases on every inhabited continent on earth. It’s never made sense to do these things for “national security”. It never will make sense unless you value the shareholders of weapons companies over the lives of children. And apparently a concerning amount of people do.
