The Malefic Muse

A collection of original poems, ponderings and compositions with a splash of photography, fueled by ones own mischievous muse. All works composed by Cori Carlson unless otherwise stated. Copyright © 2015 The Malific Muse. All rights reserved.   

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Dear Diary,

There comes a time in life where you have to stop to ask yourself, what is it that I am living for and what is it that I have to lose that motivates the grit within me to fight for my life, to accomplish my dreams, if I died tomorrow would I be satisfied with where I left off, is there some sort of legacy that I would leave behind that would leave me un-forgotten in the hearts and memories of those most important to me? And when I say dreams, I am not referring to the tangible crap I’ve acquire, the career path that I have thought defined me and my worth to the world based on egocentric pop cultural hierarchy… Will I have let my clinical perfectionism dictate my satisfaction of my own glory that can’t be calculated by how many goals I’ve met, dollars I’ve made, rules I’ve broken… will my downfall of allowing myself to be continually held back by my recently discovered subconscious fear that, if I am not the best at what I am doing that I am wasting my time and then run away, even if only mentally… perpetuating my inability at times to stop running in fucking circles around myself and to get out of my own way?

My fear, my long haul ‘what do I have to lose’, is that I don’t want to not have positively affected those I love and those whom I’ve only met I passing, that I may have not loved myself deeply enough and allowed myself to simply be that happen chance of an ever developing human-being, will I have accepted my mistakes, my faults and that I am not always super human, and that its okay, that I fought the good fight and simultaneously stopped to smell the roses, did I ever stop for a moment to take my own advice and to not be a peripheral self…

There are four things for sure in this life, we are born, we desire love, we silently fear not to be forgotten, we die. All else is uncertain other than the fact that you can fight for your own truth and that only you can define what that means.

Find your ‘what do I have to lose’, and acknowledge that you are an ever evolving being, that you are not and will never be the same person as you were yesterday, today and tomorrow and that quite possibly through all of that you might just find your purpose and path to a more intimate and accepting relationship with yourself, life and all that is.

Goodnight diary, until we meet again.

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THE OWL

“Thoughts that are in-between the deep oceans of my mind, flourish in the hollow place that truth will always find.” - Cori Carlson <3           

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ABOUT THE BLOG:                                

Herein lies the the mouseion, a collection of original poems, ponderings and compositions, with a splash of photography, fueled by my own mischievous muse. Hidden between my essence and my physical self, is place where the dark things crawl, and bewitching little thought bursts consume me round and round. I do not get to say when they come or when they go. Showing up unexpectedly like a friend that you haven’t seen in, who knows how long. It is however, the difference between, a quick pleasant visit vs. overstaying ones welcome, and yet, it is but forever a fleeting moment, no matter how long they stay, unless quickly written down. 

- Cori         Cori Carlson is a Seattle based: Song Slinger. Camera Captivator. Party Penguin. Whisky Writer. Fabric Manipulator. Feminist. Clutter Beautificationalist. (All Socials = @itsomfgcoco)

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About the Author: You could be forgiven for underestimating Cori: she is full of surprises, this one…. Multi-faceted, multi-talented, and ever-adding to her skill set. Even if you could know everything about her today, by next week you would be far behind the curve.

A talent behind the camera, a marvel in front of it, an artist, writer and designer, Cori is at once luminous & dark, smooth and edgy, cool & warm (but not cold). She is sharp-witted, warm-hearted. Her BS detector is accurate and of high fidelity, but she is not trigger-happy with it.

She was not, to my knowledge, born in a little log cabin in the wilderness; however, should I learn that she was, it would just be another not so surprising surprise about her.

Cori always has a sparkling glint in her eye, most often accompanied by an equally engaging smile. But it is the sparkle in her eye that will distract you. She is often seen wearing sunglasses of surpassing quality in, I believe, an attempt to be less conspicuously head-turning. This is perhaps the only thing she attempts with limited success.

When you first meet her, it feels like ‘not soon enough’ and no matter how long you know her, it feels like ‘not long enough’. If you have the chance to collaborate with her, you should take it.

-Bret Doss               Bret Doss is a Seattle-based fashion photographer as well as photographer and Editor At Large for VIVAFASHIONISTAS.com magazine.

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