I think I might've inhaled you

            Derek Hale Take me to the wild, I’ve been lonely. [place for special people because das what Banana would do. And the story continues...]

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

The broad shoulders flexed when Derek put yet another dried clean plate back to its rightful place, a few last of them still left to try. The werewolf did his best attempt to ignore the pregnant woman on the couch across the room, but the constant moaning and restless shifting made it hard to ignore. She was running on her last months, maybe even last weeks; sometimes Derek wasn’t sure if Sophie look forward to the time after birth or if she was terrified of it. “Do you need anything?”, he voiced out the question that he had kept to himself for the past ten minutes prior; sometimes smothering was harder to keep at pay than one would think. 

[watwouldsophiedo-blog]

She didn’t know if it was the amount of crazy hormones coursing through her veins, or the intense sense of relief she felt at Derek’s words that almost allowed her eyes begin to well with tears again. Although it was perhaps a mix of both, as all morning she had been tossing and turning on the couch in fear of him telling her that he didn’t want a family, or a child of their own. It was incredibly early on in their relationship, but it was still happening and they couldn’t ignore it. Perhaps it was something they would feel more at ease with in a few more years, but ever since they had met, whether they realised it or not, every challenge they faced, they had faced it together. Nine months down the line… They were going to be parents. Just the mere thought of it caused a giddy smile to curl upon Sophie’s lips, yet at the same time it felt as if her stomach was practicing somersaults. Her hands slipped away from his to gently rest upon her shoulders so she could lean forwards to press a soft kiss upon his lips. “You’re going to be a father, and… I’m going to be a mother.” she murmured quietly, her lips still curved with a gentle smile. “And each day is going to be even more difficult than the last but, we can do this.” she wasn’t sure if she was reassuring herself, or Derek, but she knew they both needed to hear it. They both needed to hear the words that everything was going to be fine, as long as they had each other. “Can we wait to tell anyone though, I just want this to be… Solely ours. Just for a little while.” perhaps it was somewhat selfish of her to want to keep it a secret from everybody, but she wanted a moment to themselves. A moment to let the news sink in, and for them to enjoy the peace and quiet while they could.

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

There was a little smile that was touching his lips, his eyes had not lose the gentle look when his gaze found to meet with hers again. He could see the tears that wanted to dwell in her eyes, but he knew they were not tears of distress from the smile that slowly began to creep her lips. Derek was worried, of course he was; he didn't trust his luck when it came to not losing those people he cared about the most. But he sure was hell was going to try, no, he wasn't just going to try. He was going to keep Sophie and this little new beginning safe; it wasn't about luck or trying, it was doing whatever it took to protect what was his and theirs. Were they both aware that this was early on their relationship but had they also gone through more than most had ever during their entire relationship lasted decades, and they had gone all of it through together. Neither of them had lived lives that would have been easy, they had been unfortunate and seen more death that one would ever wish to see, but they had gotten that far and he wanted to believe that it counted for something. His eyes never left hers, not even when her hand left a hollow space between his own as she took them from him, he only relished in what they had. When her hands rested gently upon his shoulders and she leaned forward, he needed not to hesitate to lean to her too. Familiar was the feeling of her lips softly pressing against his and he could have relished in it forever but the softly murmured words simply had his to pull enough back to lay his eyes at her gently curved smile and eyes holding the means of her words. "It'll take some time to get used to of that thought, huh?", he murmured at the thought of becoming a mother and a father. "We can do this.", reassurance laid at every words gave at her, his had become to rest at her sculpture, "And we're not alone here, to keep him or her safe.". A light chuckle that was only a huff at his breath came with the nod he gave at her words, "It is safe to say they'll figure it out in nine months anyway. We can keep this to ourselves for a little while longer.", that didn't mean people weren't going to find out sooner or later; but this was something he could have kept between the two of them for as long as she began to feel comfortable with letting others know.

[watwouldsophiedo-blog]

Her heart was almost jumping out of her chest, her breathing hitched with every inhale as she waited for him to say something to let her know that she wasn’t entirely insane for liking the idea of the two of them being parents. Parents… The word absolutely terrified her, but in a good way, perhaps. It was a new challenge, a new chapter for the two of them. Something that could make or break them, but they had been through enough together already to know that they were not easily broken. Each day they wake up knowing what kind of world they have to face, and yet they keep on moving forward because they know that they have each other, and there’s nothing more they could possibly ask for. His words caused a sudden rush of relief to flow through Sophie’s mind as a bashful smile began to creep upon her lips. “Do you think that we could really do this?” her smile only dropped somewhat as she spoke, yet it still remained prominent. “I know that… We don’t live in the safest of worlds. I mean, I sleep with a gun and you have a set of claws. But, we could make it safe. We watch out for so many people in this town, we do our best to keep everyone else safe but maybe… Maybe it’s time we do something for ourselves. For our future. We’re so busy looking out for everybody else that we forget about ourselves and- we could have our own little family. We could have this beautiful little baby and it would be ours.“ the concept absolutely baffled her, but she knew after hearing his words that this wasn’t something they would have rushed into, it was perhaps something they had known for a long time, but had just never truly let themselves think about it.

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

He could hear her heartbeat, the nervous racing heartbeat with her hitched breath; it was when he knew how badly she needed those words from him. Sophie had been the one to make him believe that there was hope for him yet, she had made her believe he wasn't damaged beyond prepare; they had both been just a little bit broken but piece by piece they've become whole again. She only deserved to know that that he believe that they could do this, together. Maybe it was soon, but just like always, they'd make it through just like they always did. And maybe Derek should have been terrified by the thought, but as he spoke, the more certain he was that there was nothing to be terrified about. A life barely existing was growing within inside her and it was a little bit of both of them, existing because of the two of them. Her hand were still held between his, and he could see the wave of relief washing over her as there was a bashful little smile creeping upon her lips; something to give him a sense of relief when he never wished to see her distressed. Especially not now. "Yeah, I think we can do this.", his words were rooted with his confidence for the two of them, his head. A little smile was to reach the corners of his lips, his eyes were gentle upon her but his expression was growing to the realization what exactly it meant to the two of them, all of them. "We will always live in a dangerous world. But that doesn't mean we can't make it safe. Because we would have to, because it wouldn't be just about surviving another day and saving the day.", he would have been lying to himself if he didn't hold concern at that thought. If he didn't hold concern upon her safety as now also upon the safety of the life that was growing within her, life started with the two of them.

[watwouldsophiedo-blog]

His question caused her gaze to lower to her stomach for a brief moment, there were no visible signs of her pregnancy, but it was still happening… And it was all becoming very real the longer she sat there beside Derek. “I-… Never thought I’d be able to see us being the couple who would be running after a little kid, making sure its shoelaces were tied properly and making sure it had enough lunch money. I thought it would just be the two of us for… A long time.” parenthood had never been something she had thought of for herself, nor for Derek. They had just never seemed to be the couple who would be able to cope with that kind of extra stress on top of all of the crazy in their lives. Sophie pressed her lips together, her gaze hadn’t met his since she had began talking, instead it searched for something in front of her. “But now that it could actually happen… I can’t see anything else. I don’t want to. And I’m scared… I’m so so scared.” she exhaled heavily, her tone thick with worry and she was sure it was more than evident within her gaze as she finally turned to face him. “But this is a little bit of you and a little bit of me and-” her lips dared to twitch into a faint smile, “I know that,” she briefly squeezed her eyes shut, she knew what she wanted to say, she just didn’t know how. “I know that this would change… A lot but, there’s no one else in this world I would ever trust with being the father of my child. You’ve seen me at my worst, and you’ve seen me at my best, and that tells me you won’t leave me with this on my own.” even if they decided that now wasn’t the time for a child, at least she knew that he wouldn’t walk away from her. Because there wasn’t any chance on Earth that she would be able to cope with losing both a child and him.

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

His gaze was never taken from upon her, not even when her had escaped his. He was intent at every word she spoke, even when her words wanted to fail her. His expression was nothing but attentive, even when he could see her own struggling to remain strong as she had become overwhelmed by what it was that now stood in their hands. Maybe Sophie was right, it was all soon, so so soon, but not even for a second Derek found himself terrified of the thought. Not when he had finally found something good into his life, something that gave him a sole purpose aside from making sure that peace remained in Beacon Hills for a little while longer. If he wanted to see a future with someone, it was her. There was no doubts or need to question what it was that he wanted the most. "Sophie.", he spoke her name as he began, only then shifting at where he sat and his hands searched to hold hers between his. "I have never really thought about having a family of my own. And you probably know why.", he knew she knew why, and what it was that he had been spiraling with when he had first left Beacon Hills with Laura after the fire. It was when Derek took a deep breath and he continued at an exhale, "But then I came back to Beacon Hills, and I met this amazing woman who put up with me as much as I put up with her...", his gaze was searching hers to meet because he sure knew of who he was talking about, "And everything kind of just changed. I started to see that there was a chance of moving on, towards something better.". "And I think that at some point, she became my family. And then I realized that if I ever wanted to be the father to anyone's children, it would be to hers. Yours.", it was probably more he had ever said to anyone, even to her, even when he had known it all along.

[watwouldsophiedo-blog]

She breathed out a heavy sigh at his reply, she hadn’t expected anything more from him knowing that he would need a moment to allow the news to attempt to try and sink in. Heck, it had taken her all morning to try and realise what it meant, and even now she still couldn’t wrap her head around it. He was a werwolf, she was a hunter, they had both done things they would never be proud of or even dare to speak of again, and yet there was a tiny tiny essence of who they were that now existed. “Yeah,” Sophie finally responded, her voice quiet yet soft too. “I found out this morning. That’s why I asked you that question because- I needed to know… Where we are heading and if we’re heading in this direction. And I know it’s soon, it’s so soon…” it had been a year since they had met and they were still together, perhaps stronger than ever after proving some many people wrong that they could work, and work well. “And we don’t have to decide anything now because this is-… A huge deal. So this is me giving you time and space to figure out what’s going on in your head.” she pressed her lips together as she anxiously awaited his response. She wasn’t pushing him away, this was far from it, she just didn’t want him to make a decision he would grow to regret in years to come. 

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

Without intended, his gaze had fallen from exchanging with her just as without intended, he was not registering from his eyes but only he focused to listen to whatever it was that he could hear aside of her heartbeat. Questions that never caused panic within the man and the wolf rushed flooding through his mind; was this to be something where his path was meant to take him? Her words finally pulled him back to her, the soft and quiet word that had taken its time from from her, only causing him to realize that she had no better answer to her question that he did. His gaze raised yet again to meet hers, allowing her words to reach him until he fully took them to his mind to process them. While the silence melted the long passing moments into one another, the picture that Derek needed was beginning to form on the back of his mind and it was becoming quite simple the further moments passed. "Where do you see us in two years?", while he knew he was bound to make it difficult for Sophie to read him what it was that was sourcing through his mind, his voice remained calm and steady as he asked her the same question she had just moments ago given to him. They were pregnant, it was not something she would carry alone; what was going to be in two years from that they was their decision to make.

[watwouldsophiedo-blog]

His response caused her to huff a laugh as she shook her head at him, of course he was going to somehow step around the question by answering it without truly answering it. She should’ve known at least that by now. Even just the sound of the two words in her mind caused her eyes to begin to well with tears. She felt so stupid for getting so emotional, but it wasn’t exactly the easiest concept to wrap her head around. She didn’t know the anatomy of it all, but there was still something there, something growing. As she readied herself to finally break the silence, her fingers moved to press lightly against her tear ducts in an attempt to try and ease away her blurred vision before finally meeting his gaze. “I’m pregnant.” hearing the words out loud caused her to suddenly feel nauseous, it was all becoming too real too fast. “I took three tests, all were positive.” and she knew, from that moment onwards, everything would change.

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

It was her laughter that caused his lips to curve, even when it was only slightly in that way his lips usually curved in a small smile he allowed to himself when looking at her. He knew not to smile much further, as it was in her question and in the way she sat that there was nothing to laugh about in the direction her mind was going to. Confusion was brought into his gaze as soon as he could see the tears in her eyes, dwelling and blurring her vision that refused to meet his eyes at first. It was when he knew to except for something that needed for him to be careful about of the way he was bound to react to whatever it was that she had to say. And then when the words simply fell stumbling from her lips; Derek understood. It took him a moment to register the meaning of the words, deep down he was not all that sure what he was supposed to think or how he was supposed to react to what she had just given to him, but he understood. "Pregnant?", he repeated, further reaction not yet to be found in his word or his expression.

[watwouldsophiedo-blog]

Truth be told, she was glad to have the bed to herself, glad to have a little time to herself. She had only been half asleep when he had tried to quietly leave, and so she tossed and turned until Cora had finished pottering around upstairs to leave for class. The moment Sophie was alone, she wasted no time in taking the test. No, three tests. She had to be certain, right? The reality of the little symbol left her couch-bound for the rest of the morning as she waited for him to return. But the moment she saw him it was almost as if her throat dried up, her words refusing to be heard. She had curled up on the couch with a blanket- a very sorry looking affair. As she pulled herself up, she offered Derek a nod, indicating for him to come and join her. “Where do you see us in two years? Don’t ask why, just- answer the question.” a dramatic question, but she needed to know if he was serious before she told him. 

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

Derek had never had trouble in telling when something was weighting her mind, not even when she wished him not to see a single bothering her. This had been a scene he had waited for to happen for over a week as he had easily found something to be shifting about the way she appeared to carry herself whenever he had her at his sight; which was during days and nights. Maybe he found himself in a slight bit of surprise of the dramatics that suddenly took a hook from the words she chose to give to him as his question had been presented towards her, even when he had come home to witness the scene he had now walked into. As the words were spoken from her lips, he simply looked at her for a moment, and then another moment longer. A single thick eyebrow rose as he did as he had been introduced to do, his gaze not leaving her like he was following every language her body would speak. "In two years, I see you asking me this exact same, vague, question as you are asking me right now.", because the truth was; he saw that future with her and with her only, "Other than that, I haven't really given it a thought.".

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

Derek had left the bed before the woman always by his side had woken up to the early sunrise through the large window of their loft. Only hours later he returned back with his groceries, witnessing Sophie to be sat on their couch with expression he had not seen present at her features in awhile. He was not going to beat around bushes, after taking a moment to unload the bags in silence, he returned to their so called living-room and where she was sat at. “So what is on your mind today?”, finally voiced out the question hanging between him and the nervous edge of her heartbeat she could not hide from him.

[recklessyouthinme]

[watwouldsophiedo-blog]

I think by now you’ve just learnt how to put up with me.

Okay… Okay. I’ll make the call, let them know we’ll be coming for a visit. But more importantly, you really trust Peter with the loft while we’re gone?

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

You put up with me, I put up with you, I think that's kind of how it works.

Let them know. I trust Cora the loft while we're gone, and I trust her to keep Peter under a check.

[watwouldsophiedo-blog]

That’s true… You’re way too stubborn, and I hate giving up on something.

Just tell me you’re sure about going. I need to hear it.

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

That's just how we are.

I am sure. About meeting your scary father. About meeting your very talkative mother.

[watwouldsophiedo-blog]

l should hope so too… Otherwise I’d be off jet setting somewhere hot and sunny.

All I’m saying is… I warned you. And I’m allowed to say I told you so when it all goes wrong.

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

Like you'd ever give up that easily.

So then you'll tell me all the told you so' in the world.

[watwouldsophiedo-blog]

Something that makes everything we’ve been through worth it, huh?

And my mom talks a hell of a lot. No but seriously, this is like… A big deal. Are you sure you’re ready to meet my parents?

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

I should hope so.

Now who's going to be more nervous about me, you or me?

[watwouldsophiedo-blog]

At least we can say not everything about us is dysfunctional.

But you know what that means, right? If you come with me?

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

Something good with the bad.

I know, I would actually have to talk with people. Terrifying.

[watwouldsophiedo-blog]

I guess we’re both pros when it comes to dysfunctional families.

No- no… I can’t ask that of you.

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

Everybody's got dysfunctional something, we've just pretty much had it all.

You don't have to ask me anything, Sophie. If you think you can't face him alone, then you won't.

[watwouldsophiedo-blog]

We’re not a functional family. My dad scares me.

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

What family is?

You know you don't have to face him alone if you don't want to.

[watwouldsophiedo-blog]

Yeah here’s the thing… Any hunter in the know has heard of my last name at some point or other. After losing their son to a werewolf kill, which was probably one of the most mortifying things to happen to them, how well do you think they’ll take it that their other child doesn’t hunt anymore?

Who says I wasn’t dating a werewolf before?

[themanwithhellarudemuscles-blog]

Maybe the daughter could explain to their father that they've changed their code. Maybe if they are willing to listen to their daughter, they'll understand.

A good one, Sophie.