The Blunt Talking Witch

You define your own happiness.

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“Have you ever liked someone so much that you just wanted to lock yourself in your room and turn on sad music and cry.”

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“Success doesn’t happen overnight. Keep your eye on the prize and don’t look back.”

— Erin Andrews

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“Breathe. It’s only a bad day, not a bad life.”

— Ashley Purdy

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Intership Syndrom (IS)

At first I thought that I would never experience this type of “short happiness” but I was totally wrong.

Hindi ko nman napapapansin ang taong to nung first week na magkasama kmi sa clinic up until one day he approached me and talked to me

. And simula nun nag iinis at tinutukso na kmi. Pinag ppair kmi sa anong bagay and I felt confident na in one way or another magkakaroon kmi ng chance. Yung buong bwan na un I admit na gusto at ginugusto ko na sya pero alam ko na di pa ako ready. Emotionally and spiritually unprepared. Afraid, very afraid of the things na pwedeng mangyari. Patapos na ung bwan and I expected na di na sana kmi magkarotate but I guess Lord wanted to test me, we still have the same centers. Whoah. Half afraid but I guess masaya ako. Ngayon ibang iba na sya sakin. Mas naging close kmi and he even introduce me sa friends nya sa Antipolo by calling me EVS. Well masasabi ko na pumapatol ako sa jokes nya kaya patuloy nya akong iniinis. Hanggang isang araw, nalaman ko na may GF na sya and as in ang sakit tlga. Nagdamdam ako kse for the kast whole month na magkasama kmi wala akong ka alam alam na may GF na pla sya. I was ready na i share sa mga friends ko although may mga tao na unang nakaka alam na talaga. Ang sakit masampal ng katotohan na kasalanan mo kung bakit ka nasasaktan kse binigyan mo ng meaning ang lahat na panapakita sayo. Nakakalimutan na minsan si Lord and focused lng sa tao na sa tingin mo ay pwede kayo. Hahaha. I cried maybe because may gusto na ako sa kanya but one thing is for sure, na nasasaktan ako kse hindi pwede and di pa pwede. Nagising na ako after that talk The next monday, nagbago ang lahat. We talked to each other more formally with no jokes but he still greeted me. We barely have 2 weeks to be with each other and sana maging maayos ang lahat. Hahaha This is the story of my stupid IS

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Forget. Forgive. Move On

It would be a nice day actually until those gossips went to us...wen to my nerves actually.  It’s okay if it’s just a single gossip but it was a terrible gossip. I don’t know how to digest it well I guess up until now I can’t believe that it actually happen.

I’m really pissed to the point that I get to curse them. They never encouraged us nor give us some point of advice to continue but instead we receive only criticism and words to falter us and tear us down. I never imagines that these people whom I look up to would actually lower themselves and make things that are really immoral.

I just prayed to God that He will give them an open minds and hearts that what they are ding is not CORRECT. That one day they will repent for what they have done and said.

Pinaghirapan ko kung nasaan man ako ngayon I never put any stain sa pangalan ko and I guess I deserve na suportahan nyo. We never begged for our grades we really worked for it really hard. Sana huwag nyo kaming i look down kasi kahit na minsan hindi namin binenta ang puri namin just to pass. The system is really bulok as in inaamag na to the point na nakakasuka na. I really hate to be part of a college kung saan ang mga namamahala ay mga baboy. I might say words that are inappropriate but believe me they deserve it. sana huwag nyong i predict kung sino lang ang papasa kasi sa totoo lang we felt really down. 

The sweetest revenge maybe is to show you that we deserve to graduate. God knows and He only knows everything.

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CPAP MArikina Health Center

It was an overwhelming opportunity for me especially although it was my first time. I really enjoyed being with the kids promise although they would thought that I just did it because it was my responsibility but not, I wanted to help them in own little way.

I pity them because they cannot do what they want to do but in some point I envy them for they do not know how harsh the world is, how painful the world could give them but still they are precious angels from God.

I hope that I will experience this again maybe in different locations or with different patients

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Medical Mission

I am really grateful to be part of these people who are willing to be in the service of others. I'm moved by all of our CP patients and honestly it brought me to tears just by thinking of how hard the went through most especially the parents. I believe that they are precious angels of God :)

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It's Over

I guess I am all over. I'm tired as in dead tired. Lagi na lang ako. Pwede ba kahit minsan isipin mo din ako? Kahit minsan make me feel important kahit minsan lang. Well, I guess ngayon okay na ako. Akala ko talaga naka move on na ako pero hindi pa din pala.medyo ok na ako actually unlike before na iiyak pa ako pero ngayon okay na. I can handle myself. Magiging masaya ako and in the first place hindi talaga tayo pwede. Hindi talaga.

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Reply 1994

The HECK.

This is the drama which I have dragged a lot of episodes. I,m hurt...super. I cried a lot as in during Chil Bong’s goodbye with Na Jeong. I wanted to comfort him so much and tell him to be with me.

It’s so frustrating because I wanted them to be together. It hurts me seeing him cry. I’m super disappointed because seeing him is such a pity. I want him. Haha. But nevertheless it only proves that fate works and that maybe they are not really for each other. I’m really bitter. HAIST!!!!

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Welcome back to the outside world pretty song joong ki. I never thought that these three cruahes of mine were bestfriends. Well, I recently kinda like kwangsoo because of one episode I watched on running man and I like his personality there. For those two, ottokhae? I really love them. As in super. I know that your friendship will bloom and good luck on your carrers. Saranghae

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"Babe"

I don't know but I really love hearing this word. It's word but I want to use this in the future. I am really amazed by it. Love love...

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Her dream

A friend of mine approaches me early in the morning and ask me if I will go to eco park with our other friends and I said Yes. She told me to take care because she dreamt of me. Out of curiosity I asked her what's her dream but she she ask me if I really want to know. With conviction I said Yes. In her dream I was already dead as in DEAD. Of course I'm bothered and I was already puzzled because of the message God has given me this morning. Actually I am really thinking if I will push the eco park but then again of it's God's plan no can stop it. And to be honest hearing it at the back of my mind I'm quite happy because I was thinking that all those hardships and suufering I am experiencing will soon vanished but I think of those people believing and hoping for me. In the end I am here still alive and beautiful. Naiinis na talaga ako kay sir Engineer. May na receive na naman kasi kaming news about compre and it brought tears. I'm really hurt that even our teachers don't know why there are only 10 who passed and even him can't tell them. I don't know but I feel so betrayed and useless. Maybe eto yung sinasabi ni Lord sa message nya na to give all in order to succeed. At the end of the day God provides me His answer. Life is too short to dwell on worrying what will happen because only God knows. Amen.

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It's how I will finish. I hope in the end of the race I can proudly say that I have done my best.

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Super friends. Thank you to all of you. Super happy ako to meet people like you. I am so blessed to have you in my life. We may have different paths in life but remember that I will be alaways so grateful to have all of you.

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아이린

To my friend na laging nandyan for me. Salamat. One tume you asked me kung nandito ka rin ba sa tumblr posts ko and naiisp ko oo nga no wala pala akong tribute sayo dito. Hahaha

Alam kong nasabi ko na sayo on how thankful I am to be your friend. As in super thankful talaga. Ikaw lang ang nakakaalam ng nangyayari sakin and even sa family ko. You’ve been so understanding sa lahat ng nangyayari and I know nasasaktan din kita pero super thankful ako kasi nakahanap ako ng taong kahati ko sa lahat ng bagay. Ang cheesy no?

Salamat sa pakikinig kahit na alam ko nakakainis na minsan. Ikaw ang nakaka alam ng mga bagay na hindi ko kayang sabihin sa kanila and thank you for keeping it. Sana hanggang sa mag asawa ka friends pa din tayo. Alam kong matatapos din natin to konti nalang at intern na tayo. Good luck. Salamat sa lahat lahat.

One of my friend ask kung nasaan na si papa and honestly i was caught off guard that time. Hindi ako ready na sabihin sa kanya yung detail na yun and I just told her na hindi tinatanong yun. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero of all those questions isa yan sa pinaka sensitive talaga. Sorry.

Friend salamat. Feeling ko nga magkapatid na tayo. And yes we are sisters.

[themethatyouneverknew]

I feel at ease already. I have talked to God and told him those feelings that I keep on struggling within me. Ang sarap pala talaga sa feeling na masabi mo lahat kasi alam mo na di ka nya i ju-judge. Masaya din ako kasi nakapag share kami ng mga iniisip nmin. Ang saya pala to be with the people who are special sayo. I am praying that we continue to grow in faith and loving one another. Sana din marami ang mas makakilala pa sa Lord. Up until now hindi ko pa din alam ang reason kung bakit ako bumagsak pero ang alam ko may magandang reason why I have to undergo all this process. Marami din nman ang magagandang nangyari and hindi ko mararanasan yun if pumasa ako. Hahaha pero up until now hindi ko pa din tanggap. Ang gulo no? Basta sana lahat kami pumasa. Isa lang ang alam ko lahat kami ang mabubuting tao. Nakikita ko nman sa kanila yun. Fighting everyone.