What would you do?
Have you ever been in toxic relationship/friendship? Have you ever just not known what to do? For over a year I have been in a toxic relationship with a girl because I don’t know how to move on. She has feelings for me I just don’t have for her and because of it I have stayed her friend to make her happy. We always fight every day and every time I try to end it we fight so much that I just don’t end it and we talk another day. Whenever it does seem like we are done and done talking one of us (occasionally me) actually misses having them around and gets them back in each other’s lives. The worst part is I am madly in love with someone else and i know that I may never get a chance with her again. Have you ever been so deeply in love with someone? Have you ever made a mistake so huge it has impacted your life so greatly? About five years ago I started dating the girl I would find out is the love of my life. Over a three year period I fell madly in love with her to the point where it started to freak me out. I was in high school at the time, had never had a job, and she wanted me to move in with her. I had horrible anxiety and felt I wasn’t good enough for her so I did what any insane person would do and I ended the longest relationship, one of three years, out of fear. For the last two years I had to watch her fall in love with another man. A man who didn’t treat her right, one who bruised her wrists and never complimented her enough. For a year now I have regained her trust, proven to her that all the things people told her, things like I cheated on her, wrong and became her best friend. Now she is single again and knows how I feel about her but I am getting the feeling that the ship is sailed and she will never feel the same. Sometimes it seems like she is falling for me again and others it seems like I will never be what she wants.