Literally never thought I would be in the situation that I am in. Suck in the middle between is moral and what I want. Well what I want, as in, what I hope happens. I donāt want it to be just sex, or a fling, or we just talk when heās in town. I want to work towards something. Heās literally turned my world upside down, and now all Iām stuck on thinking about, is him.. My brothers best friend. I donāt want it to always me to be a dirty little secret. I just want someone to like me for me, not for what I can give. Every guy Iāve been with has been awful and used me. And I donāt want him to be the same way. He is sweet, motivated, and nothing will get in the way of stopping his goals. But I also know, he is willing to put in the time and effort into a real relationship. Iām not sure if I can live up to what that other girl offered. Like sheās the one he was ready to settle down with, and now... donāt settle. What the hell do I even do. All day iāve been thinking of what it could be, and i try to remind myself that all he wants is sex. But i really donāt know what he wants, until he says it, my head will just race. I mean, would he reply all day to me if it wasnāt an option. Would he keep telling me that sex will happen, but is that it. WHAT DOES HE WANT!? What is he thinking? He probably isnāt even worried about me, or what we could become. And iām sitting here waiting, wanting, loosing. This is why i donāt date, this is why i keep settling for her.. but maybe I should forget the rest and listen to one thing he kept saying, don't settle. But not settling wouldnāt leave me with anyone but it. Just stay single till Christmas, just so I can wait for him. And maybe, just maybe, if I wait he will see, that Iām all in. That breezy night on Mackinac Island changed me, for the worse or better?
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