[theodorefinchalltheway]

Today in class we had to pick cards with questions on them that we had to reply to and very ironically I got the question “What are you most proud of of yourself?”

Nothing. Absolutely nothing. I’m shit at everything and nothing is going good at the moment so. Nothing. I hate myself.

[theodorefinchalltheway]

A year or so later and not much has changed.

[theodorefinchalltheway]

Cihan Mürtezaoğlu - Bir Beyaz Orkide

❤

[theodorefinchalltheway]

Procrastination strikes again

I’m just looking around to find another thing to keep me busy so I can delay this very important thing I need to do for a little tiny bit longer. It’s not like I have been sitting here for about 13 hours? Even if someone would take away all of the things that distract me so I can get started, I would still choose to do nothing and look in front of me. I’m that good at it. I have come such a long way with it that procrastination has just become a part of me. In fact, I can say I am procrastination itself. The deadline is less than 3 days from now. It is already almost midnight yet I still refuse to start to this thing or just leave it be. Yes, I am exhausted. No, I don’t want to give up. But I still end up doing nothing. Nothing at all. I always want everything to go so smoothly and well for one time, I literally have the perfect image of everything going right for once. But very very very surprisingly I end up doing the same thing every time again and again. I’m so sick of it. I know I can do so much better than what the result always ends up to be. I know I can. But I still end up here. Even though I don’t want to give up I can feel it’s going to go wrong again. For once I want to surprise all the people who know me better than me by doing the exact thing they didn’t expect me to do but I end up disappointing myself again. No matter how easy the task seems to be, I still end up doing this. My biggest wish this year is to become a pro with deadlines, ‘cause whenever there is a deadline put to something. I can assure you I will leave it to the very last minute. Look at me writing this. Was this necessary? No. Was it something I could do to delay starting the very important thing? Yes.

[tshifty]

autumn is coming

[islamiyet]

[tobjackscus]

[dizifilmkareleri]

dağıldım.

[mayiscadisi]

[frambuazlisarap]

🏴

[kitaplardankareler]

Ayşegül ölmüş,Poyraz delirmiş, Leyla ölmüş , Mecnun aslında her şeyi kendi kafasında canlandırmış, Ecevit Ahunun kollarında can vermiş... Bizim artık o geminin geleceğine dair umudumuz kalmamış, Biz aslında o gemiyi beklerken ölmüşüz.

[frambuazlisarap]

🏴

[senglmerve]

[enesbeen]

[umourivesdaspalavras]

[queerlysad]

[br0ken-and-lost-deactivated2018]

[drowning-painfully]