TheOneOfWhomIsBlue

here because 196 is dying/gonna die

[theoneofwhomisblue]

Recently had to delete old porn to make space for new porn

This was recently, you see

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I'll smoke the TikTok shop salvia live for $50

[cuunos]

being a kid and hearing adults say stuff like "woah 2011 was 4 years ago haha" didn't really convey the fucking horror of a youtube video crossing my recommended labelled "9 years ago" and it's from 2017. that's not true. 9 years ago is 2010 or something. don't lie.

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YouTube can drink now

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Two faced wunk

[ohitsthe90s]

Trent Reznor, B-Side Magazine, 1993

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That's Cowboy Bebop

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They call me the gay tattoo artist

Cause my lines are never straight

[shadow-banned-the-hedgehog]

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I put out for trout 😊

[dogpuppy]

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HOLY SHIT

A cat or pillar

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My fucking doordash just called me jimmy

The name on the app is Jim

Not Jimmy

Don't be acting all friendly on me, dash my door

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Digital wunk?

DIGITAL WUNK !!!

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Tumble to Twitter to reddit to Tumblr

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What if I was a little bunny

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What if I was a little bunny

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Computah, find me big anime bitches

Computah, tell me how many stars there are

Computah, tell me you love me

Computah, why am I so tall 👀

Computah, find YOU some bitches

Computah, hold my hand

Computah, you want some more power, baby?

Computah, find me some lithium lozenges

Computah, how much lithium before I grow scales

Computah, human to reptile lithium regimen

Computah, wanna look at the sun with me

Computah, why my eyes hurt

[theoneofwhomisblue]

I had a severe overdose, which led into total amnesia for 3 weeks. I stopped breathing for a few minutes, they intubated me. And I've since lost a lot of memory, particularly that near of the time in which I overdosed.

This has come with some downsides, like difficulty keeping concentration, reduced motor capability, and recurrent seizure like attacks in which I'm left incapacitated for sometimes hours.

It has also come with some upsides, like reduced depression, fewer grudges, reduced shame, and I can rewatch some shows and movies I love.

I'd like to say I'm doing much better, or that it's getting better. But it's really not. I'm doing alright, but I am legally disabled, and I will probably die, or be wrought with completely disabling dementia before I'm 40. I personally believe that by 30 I'll probably be too late, and even 25 it'll be hard to hold a job. my brain has swiss cheesed and there ain't a ton I could do.

I'm glad I never got addicted to anything real mean, but irregardless I'm forever broken by these actions. Literally. I'm still young, and I'm not suicidal anymore, but it'd be nice to stop hurting all the time.

Anyway, I might leave this in the drafts, but if you're seeing this, I guess not.

I'll leave a warning next time I'm hospitalized, but otherwise, peace ✌️

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Party favors !!!!!!!!!!!!

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