I’m writing this because I need people to truly understand where I am right now.
I’m battling GIST cancer, recovering from surgery, and I’m doing it alone. No one has come to see me. No one has shown up. That reality has broken me in ways I didn’t expect, and today I cried more than I have in a long time.
I keep asking myself, why me? I’ve spent my life helping others. I gave money when I had it. I showed up when people needed support. I stayed humble and tried to do the right thing, even when it was hard. I didn’t do those things for praise or reward—I did them because that’s who I am.
But I’ve been alone in this fight for most of my life, and right now that loneliness feels unbearable.
I’m facing a rent crisis while trying to heal. I need $1,400 just to stay housed so I can recover properly after surgery. I’ve tried to sell my photography equipment, and instead of help, I’ve been met with lowball offers and scams. Even trying to help myself feels like another uphill battle.
I’ve also lost my job. I was laid off, and another job cut me off payroll. To return, I need reinstatement paperwork that could take 8–10 weeks. All I want is to work, to contribute, to help people the way I always have—but I’m stuck in limbo while my bills don’t stop.
I asked for someone to talk to at the hospital, and even that wasn’t available when I needed it most. That moment made the silence feel even louder.
I’m exhausted—mentally, emotionally, physically. My head hurts. My heart hurts. It feels like I’m fighting for survival while the world looks away.
I’m not writing this for pity. I’m writing it because I need people to see me. To understand that this isn’t laziness, or weakness, or poor choices—it’s a human being overwhelmed by illness, financial stress, and isolation.
I’ve been good at helping others my whole life. Now I need help. I need understanding. I need compassion. And I need people to remember that no one should have to face all of this alone.
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