The PARADOX system

medically recognized DID system Multiple undiagnosed chronic illnesses

[theparadoxsys08]

intro post updated 11/6/25

Hello, we are the paradox system we collectively use the name EL! We are bodily 17 years old. We are a medically recognized DID system (still waiting to get in with a specialist for official diagnosis) and we are professionally diagnosed multiple other mental illnesses such as autism, BPD, OSFED, and OCD with panic attacks!! We are also diagnosed with Tourettes syndrome, non epileptic seizures and a brain AVM! We are currently living in a medically negelctful and emotionally abusive home and have a lot of undiagnosed chronic illnesses! We are hypermobile and definetly have dysautonomia and some sort of gastric paralysis! We like music and art and are in a lot of fandoms!!

TW/CW for this blog:

SH/ED (we are constantly switching between recovery and relapse but we are Pro recovery and we tag our vent posts appropriately)

OCD intrusive thoughts and compulsions (we may go into detail in vent posts)

paranoia and psychosis (again only in tagged vent posts)

But yeah that pretty much sums it up! If you have any questions feel free to ask!!

alter sign offs:

Raven 🎸

Cole 🐹

Phinn 🐼

Max 👻

Z 🐍

klaus 💊

Jay 🔪

Crow 🚬

Gutz 🦴

Jinx 🩻

penelope 🌷

Luz 🕷️

Luci 🦇

Katie 🐀

Patrick 🍀

Mason - 🕸️

Mazie - 👁️

Viper -⭐️

note: we do not let the littles on tumblr and persecutors like Gutz and klaus will have limited access which is supervised by a protector

[theparadoxsys08]

[friendlynoodles]

I painted my cats as pikmin 🌱🌺

[theparadoxsys08]

[theparadoxsys08]

i <3 compression socks

[my-arfid-recovery]

my lunch :)

i had two spring rolls and the whole order of steamed vegetable dumplings (8 dumplings total)! the dumplings are low in fat and fiber so they digest easily for me! i also had some chicken noodle soup! i over ate a bit but it was all really low cal, low fat and low fiber stuff so im not really upset about it. i’m probably gonna have to take some pesto bismol later to help with the stomach pain if it doesn’t digest. fingers crossed i digest this in my normal time span!

[theparadoxsys08]

it did NOT digest AT ALL i need to take some pepto bismol

[theparadoxsys08]

in a dystonia flare :(

[theparadoxsys08]

i’m high as shit rn but hear me out benign ovarian tumor, left NMDAR encephalitis. it makes sense…

[theparadoxsys08]

just posting this now bc you never know i could be right…. we won’t know until i go for testing

[theparadoxsys08]

i’m high as shit rn but hear me out benign ovarian tumor, left NMDAR encephalitis. it makes sense…

[melissax77]

I be opening and closing tumblr like it’s the fridge

[theparadoxsys08]

TW ED BED AND MIA MENTIONED

summary: i can’t eat as much as i used to bc of my GI issues and im glad it stopped my BED/mia but now i can’t eat enough to live. so recover while you can to avoid gi issues in the future.

how tf did i ever binge eat. like nowadays i eat a singular serving of dumplings and i feel sick for HOURS. like after my illness onset i could not binge without B/P-ing bc it made me so physically sick for DAYS if i didn’t get it out of my stomach!! don’t get me wrong i still over eat some days but i literally can’t properly binge without get severely ill. i’m grateful that i don’t have BED and mia anymore but now i can’t even eat enough to survive. anyways long story short: RECOVER WHILE YOU CAN AN ED CAN AND WILL FUCK UP YOUR STOMACH!!!

[theparadoxsys08]

you see, i’m very generous with the time i give my food to leave my stomach, i look up how long a normal gastric emptying speed is and double it. TELL ME WHY ITS STILL NOT OUT OF MY STOMACH THE NEXT DAY.

[theparadoxsys08]

TW: hallucinations DO NOT READ IF YOU GET HALLUCINATIONS EASILY, I GO INTO DETAILS

i keep on hallucinating a bug under my eyelid and it’s freaking me tf out. help 😭 WHY IS IT CRUNCHYYYYYYYYY

[theparadoxsys08]

in a POTS flare 🤣

my heart rate was over 140 just from standing still. and it spiked all the way to 160 when i went on a leisurely walk.

[lyssieslifeee]

Hi lyssie!!! HRU???

hiii im okayish kinda struggling rn but it's okay im in a safe place and I'm actually trying to recover now so yeah

Hru??

[theparadoxsys08]

my parents got me a scale and a walking pad for christmas sooo let’s just say i’m not doing well. i’m so proud of you for trying to recover!! ana is a bitch. just know that i care about you and your doing amazing!!

[lyssieslifeee]

omfg that's awful im so sorry if you ever want to talk im here

[theparadoxsys08]

thank you, i’m here for you to ❤️

[lyssieslifeee]

Hi lyssie!!! HRU???

hiii im okayish kinda struggling rn but it's okay im in a safe place and I'm actually trying to recover now so yeah

Hru??

[theparadoxsys08]

my parents got me a scale and a walking pad for christmas sooo let’s just say i’m not doing well. i’m so proud of you for trying to recover!! ana is a bitch. just know that i care about you and your doing amazing!!

[chocoette]