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Losing it?

Am I losing my worth?

Hay.

Hayyyyyyy. Ganon din. Holiday nga ngayon pero parang may pasok din. Sandali lang din nagkatext. Sandali lang nagkausap. Hay. Nevermind.

I'm feeling weaker and weaker.

A day without her.

It's been a long day already for me. Time moves too slow. And I'm missing her badly. I want to talk with her on the phone all day. I want to hear that sweet voice,the giggling,the 'suplada' tone of her voice,etc. And I miss her. Haha. I really really miss her. :)

Wonderin'

Just wonderin' if I'm special. Just wonderin' if everything I do is enough. Or am I always wrong? Work or everything. I'm always a failure. Para naman kasing wala akong karapatan na tumama. Laging pagkakamali ko. Kahit gaanong kaliit na pagkakamali,makikita pa rin. Laging hindi ako sapat. I don't want to be just enough. Hindi ko din alam. Bakit ba ako nagpopost? Kbye.

Nevermind.

I'm sorry Tumblr. I come and go. It's just because I have so many unsaid words or many chaotic thoughts in my head. Like now,I don't know what to write. But I'm in pain. I'm really in pain right now. I want to be missed because I don't want to be one that always misses someone. But everytime I do that,it backfires. In the end, I'm the one who will end up making apologies. I don't know. And a 5 minute talk with her before going to sleep is a really big thing for me. I know she's tired from all day's work. I'm not requesting for an hour of it. Just a minute or 2. Just wanna hear her sweet voice before the day ends. Just wanna get her attention for only a minute. Simple things left unnoticed. Simple words left unsaid. Simple feelings left unfelt. I could tell her now. But baby nevermind. 😔

Wag kang assuming. Hahaha. Ngayon pa lang ako magtatanong. Bakit senseless?

Haha. Natripan ko lang pakinggan. Wala kang kinalaman dyan. :) alam kong mahal mo ako kaya di ako numb sayo. Wahahahaha! At hindi ako assuming! 😝

Last post.

I owe you big time Tumblr. But it's time to say goodbye. People change. Plans changed. I'm gonna miss this. If I want to improve, I'll just have to ignore my feelings. No one will care about it. I'll just have to practice how to live alone. How to depend on nothing but myself. If I'm not good enough for you,then be it. I'm tired of proving my worth. Thanks Tumblr. I'll miss you.

Why is it always me?

It's always me. It's always my fault. I just want to run away from all of these. I've spent my early years doing what they want. After school,I always go home early. Now that I am working, I'm still not good enough?! What should I do? Well I've got a new item on my bucket list. It says I'll disappear without a notice and you won't ever see me again. All of you. I'm alone. I know that. Since I was young I know that I will end up alone. I'm tired. So tired.

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Your voice.

It makes my soul calm. Your voice is the sweetest lullaby I've heard. I want to hear it everyday. I want to hear it when the tine is right for us. I want to hear it in the morning when you wake me up with a breakfast in bed. I want to hear it every night before we go to sleep. If I will be given a chance, I want to hear it until the end of time. I'll never get tired of it. :)

Have you ever had a romantic relationship/ are you in one right now?

Right now I don't know if you could call it like that but yeah. :)

Feelin' it.

Peace of mind that I've been looking for. I guess it's true. That the one who breaks your heart is also the one that can heal it. And thank you. :)

Sunday morning.

Oh. I have take home work. Damn. But it'll only take a few minutes. Haha. Kidding. It felt good. Being in good terms with you. Don't worry I'll still pursue her. 'Cause it's still not the right time for us. But hey,I'm happy that we're okay. I'm happy that you don't leave. We are the living proof that even we fight over silly things or even if it's a serious one,we always make a big come back. That what we have is a long-lasting one. That it's for keeps. God knows how happy I am that I've met you. You're already a part of me. So don't think for even a second that I want you to leave. Stay. Stay until the end of time. :)

Touch My Hand.

Can't let this feeling end. Can't let the music stop until I touch your hand. :)

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Eat food from farmers markets. Drink good tea each morning. Read books that make you feel. Paint, even if you’re awful. Write, even when you have nothing to say. Sit in the fresh air outside. Go on hikes. Swim in lakes and wade in streams. Sleep as long as you need. Work hard at what you love. Work hard at what you hate. Love unconditionally and wholeheartedly.

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Stomping the Roses.

The 1st song that comes in my mind when I woke up today. I don't know why. Hmm. If you really love something set it free. Yesterday I felt depressed,hurt,being hopeless,and tired all at once. It feels like my head will explode from all that feelings and thoughts. My work is being affected BIG TIME! But on my way home,someone little said,"Let it all go and just pray." So yesterday night I've decided that I will not run after her anymore. I'm done. 'Cause if I really love her,I will set her free. So today I'll be focusing on the household chores. And the take home work. Haha. For the first time. And if I finished it I'll be back reading my books,travelling to the wonders of fiction books. And after that,I'll be back at building my GunPlas. I missed this part of me. I haven't seen him for a long time. MJ,I'm healing. Christian Grey is wearing out. Before I start it'll only be David A. :)

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