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[theprincesss]

so,

i'm afraid i can't keep it as a secret forever...

[theprincesss]

Aww really? :( I understand.

Nope. you don't.

[theprincesss]

The harder I try, the more I fail. It sucks.

[theprincesss]

wasting my fucking friday away.

Right now i could be doing homework, studying or writing a letter. But no. I'm depressed as fuck and i'm wasting my precious time away. FUCK MY LIFE. I HATE EVERYONE AND I WANT NEW SETS OF FRIENDS WHO ACTUALLY CARE.

[theprincesss]

he's literally going CRAZY for me... hahaha

he's not good looking anymore idk he acts weird... i wish he had cuter face and hotter body - that'd make this so much better...

[theprincesss]

Pat is literally being the cutest guy i've met. He says the cutest things and has the cutest smile. His dimple really gets me. He likes me a lot, and usually when i know a guy likes me, i run away. But with pat, i feel like i'm talking to the right person. He's making me smile, and i believe i'm making him smile.

[theprincesss]

i hate people. i really do.

[theprincesss]

i want to be different, but i don't want to be singled out.

[theprincesss]

people are annoying as fuck today.

and my stomach is fucking full so i feel uncomfortable.

[theprincesss]

i don't know if it's just me/my moods or you, but you are annoying me right now. And i can't stand you for some reason. I don't like your music taste, and that's such a turn off. I really think that i'm just in a weird mood right now, but it really is a turn off. I can't help it- it just is. hopefully i'll change my mind soon..

And i'm worried about the future. i don't know how this can work. you don't have a car, i don't have a car. we can't hang out on school days, and during weekend, i probably won't be able to pick you up. that's sad but that's how it is. i might not be the greatest person you could choose. I'm scared and worried. i probably shouldn't but i do.

just text me back already.

[theprincesss]

it was worth it. your one word just completely changed my mood.

[theprincesss]

i know i have to let it go, understand, and be chill about it because he's not my boyfriend, and there's nothing more, but i can't help the fact that i'm waiting and waiting for him to text me back or say something that'll make my heart melt, you know? I just don't think i'm creating this all by myself in my head...

[theprincesss]

Trying to write my paper.

It's a research paper, so i have to use the computer - so distracted by tumblr.

Actually not really, but no results actually are helping me right now... my topic is so narrow. i don't know what to doooo. i just feel like writing my feelings down, so i'm gonna do that. Well, at the end it's just me who sees this anyway! ;)

Anyways,

Why does my host mom have to always change the plan at the last fucking minute? Not everything has to change just because of your fucking mood swings. I can't take it anymore oh my god.

[theprincesss]

Well,

i can't sleep, and i can't think. i can't memorize either. What should i do?

all i want to do is sleep, and i can't sleep until i do all those... soooo...

[theprincesss]

i hate you so much.

you get me excited, but i was only looking forward to something that doesn't exist.

[theprincesss]

I hate how i always misunderstand their intention. i'm just stupid to not know what they really want...

[theprincesss]

i'm trying to be happy, but no one's helping me.