I can't forget you

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I don’t want ray ban glasses pls leave me alone

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Excerpts from My Panic Attacks This Week

Excerpts from My Panic Attacks This Week

I don’t know how to explain this, but I understand at this point of time that I do not exist.

I am cold, I can’t feel it though.

I am tired, I can not sleep.

I see with my eyes closed, and I feel the universe with my hands empty.

I see you,

Can you see me?

Lately, all I’ve been writing about is how empty I feel. About how I don’t feel real. How reality is shifting around me,…

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[theproblemswithmissingyou]

I hope everyone is doing okay in q*arantine. And if you're still working, I hope you're trying your best to stay safe.

Take care of your mental health the best you can. Its rough out here right now.

[theproblemswithmissingyou]

It’s 1:56 am. I sent you an anon a while ago about relapsing at 4 months. Life is still hard and my trauma still taunts me. But I’m nearly 9 months clean, I have a boyfriend who understands and cares about my happiness, and I’m getting better. I hope this can sprout hope in at least one person. It’s 1:56 am, and for the first time in a long time I feel hopeful.

🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤 I'm so happy for you

[theproblemswithmissingyou]

It's 12:15 and you just left me again..wondering how many heartbreaks it'll take till I learn

xx

[theproblemswithmissingyou]

It’s 11:58 and I wanna fucking die

I hope you’re well xx

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Send me your anonymous thoughts!

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2:22 AM I'm thinking about him. Wondering if he's thinking about me. I wanted to call him and ask if he has already moved on. If he's now happy with her...

xx

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Maybe this is the end of it. The last thing I have to say. The last thing I know how. I wish I knew you better Before you left. I don’t remember how to write anymore, But I swear if I did, It would be because I still remembered you. You’ve blurred into words that Are lost in pages in notebooks, That I hide in my desk. I can’t bare to read the words anymore. Because the truth is, I finally don’t love you anymore, But when I see your pictures, It hurts me to have to lie That you weren’t the Worst thing And best thing To ever scar me.

//”Leave heavy things behind.”

[theproblemswithmissingyou]

You're not who you want to be, but I'm not to blame for that.

//10:32 ”Please don’t take this out on me.”

[theproblemswithmissingyou]

I pick at the skin on my upper arms constantly. Does this could as self harm? Is it just a symptom of anxiety? I hate that I do this but stopping seems impossible

Yes, and yes. But everyone differs from one another, and reasons and symptoms change with everyone. I'd go see a medical professional it is hurting you. Much love xx

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2:43 AM. I hit 4 months clean today and I fucking relapsed. When will this nightmare end?

Stay strong<3 replace is normal and apart of recovery. You've gotten clean before, you can do it again. Good luck, and take care of yourself

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I hope you are all taking care of yourselves.

[theproblemswithmissingyou]

Coming to terms with being sexually abused as a child is near fucking impossible. New memories never stop coming up and its having to cope with all of it all over again.

And again

And again

And again

[theproblemswithmissingyou]

Speaking to you again cleared a storm, and started a hurricane.

//12:34

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Will I ever get over you ?

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9:05// you can’t leave me now. You’re the love of my life and it’s only begun and now you’ll be 12 hours away and I’ll be here, happy for you but drowning in tears...