[on temporary hiatus until i pass and get my professional license this 2024, wish me luck please 😔]
hello! i'm thera, a fanfiction author who writes for multiple fandoms
she/her | 22 | FIL | aquarius | infj | person who needs sleep, happy hormones, and a real-life nanami kento | ko-fi | quotev | deviantart
❦ this is a list of all my previous works, what i have in my drafts, and everything I'm planning to write, which is why some works may not have links yet since they're a work in progress; if i get an idea, i'll add it right here <3
❦ i don't have a schedule so updates may be inconsistent or on n' off; i only write when i'm inspired and when i have time. also, because of university and life, i'm super busy. just so you know. :)
❦ my older works are also on quotev and deviantart, thus some links may redirect there. still thinking about making an ao3 account, though.
❦ my stories are generally SFW or just a tad suggestive with a fem!reader, but maybe in the future (when i get the guts and the talent), i'll write some actual NSFW.
❦ just message me if you want to be added to my taglists for ongoing fics!
Legend:
∞ - full stories, ↳ - oneshots or twoshots, ✿ - imagines or headcanons
° not taking requests! °
❝ TRESE ❞
∞ INDAY [Crispin/Basilio/Maliksi/Dominic x Skymaiden!Reader] (completed)
✿ shorts & spinoffs (still ideas as of the moment)
↳ PLUS ONE [Maliksi x BestFriend!Reader] (completed)
↳ PLUS THREE [Maliksi x Reader] *sequel of plus one*
↳ POMEGRANATES [Dominic x Reader]
↳ UYAYI [Basilio x Mermaid!Reader]
↳ KABILANG BUHAY [Crispin x Ghost!Reader] (completed)
❝ JUJUTSU KAISEN ❞
∞ THE SWEET OLD LADY IS A WITCH [Nanami Kento/Gojo Satoru/Ryomen Sukuna/Fushiguro Toji/Geto Suguru/Kamo Choso x ScarletWitch!Reader] (ongoing)
↳ COFFEE & TEA [Nanami Kento x Reader]
↳ 241 [Geto Suguru x Gojo Satoru x Onesided!Reader]
❝ YANDERE SIMULATOR ❞
∞ WISHING FOR WINGS [Male!Yandere Simulator x Ayano Aishi!Reader] (discontinued)
❝ HETALIA ❞
∞ LITTLE MISS ANCIENT [Hetalia x Reader] (completed)
↳ WEDDINGS? YOU SURE? [Hetalia x Reader] (completed)
↳ MAN CORSETS [Austria x Reader x Prussia] (completed)
∞ SCARLET & SHADOW [Darkling x Scarlet Witch!Reader] - ◤MCU x Shadow and Bone◢ (ongoing)
∞ VICTIMS [Wonder Woman x Captain America | Supergirl x Winter Soldier | Zatanna x Quicksilver | Starfire x Loki] (on hiatus) - ◤MCU x DCEU◢ (discontinued)
∞ GODKILLER [Gabriel Reyes x WonderWoman!Reader x Jack Morrison] - ◤Overwatch x DCEU◢
∞ ITERUM [Madara Uchiha x Sakura Haruno | Sasuke Uchiha x Erza Scarlet | Mirajane Strauss x Itachi Uchiha | Neji Hyuuga x Kagura Mikazuchi | Tobirama Senju x Ur | Izuna Uchiha x Ultear Milkovich | Shisui Uchiha x Minerva Orland | Kakashi Hatake x Irene Belserion] - ◤Naruto x Fairy Tail◢
∞ QUEEN OF THE DAMNED [Alucard x Akasha Bloodriver] - ◤Hellsing x Rosario + Vampire◢
∞ SUN & MOON [Sesshomaru x Queen Serenity] - ◤Inuyasha x Sailor Moon◢
∞ MYSTERY OF SILENCE [Phantom x Siren!Reader] - ◤The Phantom of the Opera◢
i don't write for many of the other fandoms i'm in, but feel free to chat or interact with me!
ANIME/COMICS
. trese . jujutsu kaisen . attack on titan . mcu . dceu . the old guard . free! iwatobi swim club . kuroko no basket . yuri! on ice . naruto . fairy tail . millionaire detective: balance unlimited . black butler . hellsing . castlevania . rosario + vampire . vampire knight . inuyasha . sailor moon . hetalia . pretty rhythm . cells at work . way of the househusband .
BOOKS/SHOWS/MOVIES/GAMES/WEBTOONS/IDOL GROUPS
. yandere simulator . overwatch . earth defense force . phantom of the opera . hamilton . miss saigon . les miserables . jekyll and hyde . bram stoker's dracula . twilight . a court of thorns & roses . shadow and bone. wandavision. crazy rich asians . game of thrones . the remarried empress . dangerous convenience store . exo . twice . red velvet . (g)-idle . exid . itzy . k-drama . k-variety shows .
as someone who has read both your jjk and darkling fics, i’m gathering that the grishaverse sw is much more unstable than the jjk sw
like it seems that all the mcu events are really fresh in her mind and she seems to lose control more easily than her jjk counterpart
also is there a reason why in the jjk fic she uses a fake name (the yn/ln) and in the darkling fic she uses wanda? (although i think it really fits the universe like it sounds straight out of it)
omg you've read both? 🥺❤️
my heart is super full!
but yeah! although both the jjk!sw!reader and grishaverse!sw!reader traversed through time and space for a really long time to destroy all copies of the darkhold, after that, the paths they choose somewhat diverge? (but both of them swore off their magic for a while because whew, the darkhold did her dirty. grishaverse!sw!reader was more adamant on not using it again, though, compared to jjk!sw!reader who used it for small tricks and tasks and eventually just uses it again)
in the events of the fic, jjk!sw!reader has already been in the jjk universe for a few years now, setting up a cafe/bakery & she's met yuuji when he was still a young kid then later on adopted him after his grandpa died
jjk!sw!reader is also less afraid to rebuild her life again and form relationships with new people (our jjk characters)—she just wants to protect them and that's her peace and she's more or less happy with her new life (and my jjk fic is my personal comfort fic after wandavision and the way gege crushed my heart in the manga that's why it's got more happy-go-lucky vibes lol it WILL have a happy ending for everyone)
on the other hand, grishaverse!sw!reader chose the path to be a hermit in tsibeya and accept her "fate" to be alone forever. she just arrived to the grishaverse about a year ago only or so. she's MUCH more paranoid and scared to form relationships again. (but our baby wanda is GOOD i know it—and that's why she can't help but save the otkazat'sya kids, take them in, send them to the little palace, and be a gardener there to secretly watch over them. and as much as she didn't want to, she already loves those kiddos like her own)
still, she feels like it was the wrong choice when our pushy shadow daddy gets sus of her and keeps questioning her around (and wanda was never a good liar hahaha). little does she know he's been dreaming of her and what's happened to her; he just didn't know it was real and her that time. the universe (ahem, me, the author) is sending them signals to JUST BE TOGETHER AAAAAH.
grishaverse!sw!reader is scared to love again because losing everyone was always the price. then she saw the premonition of the terrible series of events that's happened (and will happen) in the grishaverse. so this gal is ALONE, PARANOID, TRAUMATIZED, and UNSTABLE, you are correct! and she has no one to confide in (yet). girl i'd go crazy too.
her choosing to be alone (even as the palace gardener, she's tucked away in her special little corner) also kind of exacerbates her instability? because she's gonna keep replaying her past + sins in her head over and over again with no one to keep her in check. sadly, she has no support system right now like jjk!sw!reader. :(
oh! and for the darkling fic, i think using "wanda maximoff" just sounded PERFECT for the grishaverse setting instead of y/n l/n, hehe. it kinda irks me though that it's... not that correct? if based on our slavic countries. (starkov for alina instead of starkova, morozova for aleks instead of morozov, etc.) but maybe it's the ravkan way of writing surnames so eh.
anyway, i super loved answering this ask! it made me so happy to see someone compare the two sw!readers in my fics. if you have more questions or comments, pleaaaase share them to me! 🥰💖
and that consequently led to me putting tags on all my fics scattered across the internet if they were completed, ongoing, or discontinued because i have fics from YEARS AGO that i cannot physically remember writing anymore
[i am so sorry to the readers of my discontinued fics if u want closure pls pm me and ill tell u what i remember abt the endings i wanted 🥹]
and i went down a rabbit hole of my all fics realized i've been writing fics for a decade now
BECAUSE WHAT DO YOU MEAN i was 13 when i wrote my first ever fanfic and it blew up!? AND I MEAN BLEW. UP.
exhibit a, when i was obsessed with the hetalia fandom:
WHAT WAS I RUNNING ON AT THE AGE OF 13? A KID. WITH THE POWER OF FANGIRLING. I'M ALMOST 23 NOW. TWENTY-THREE. ten years later and im struggling to even write 1k words per chapter lol.
BUT 3.7k hearts, 2.8k comments, 580k reads AT THIRTEEN?! damn girl and i used to write on apple notes for these chapters because i didn't own a laptop yet
You were no powerless otkazat’sya, Aleksander finds out the hard way. He’s pushed you too far, and he’s left to deal with the aftermath of the new knowledge he half-regrets he gained. On the other hand, you see something bad about this new world that wished you had never seen.
warnings: again, the big bad darkling himself is a warning, he gets kinda pushy and intimidating, aleksander hates liars but is a big one, faint spoilers about the darkling's book story, our baby wanda, her powers, mental instability, bad coping mechanisms, and a whole lot of heartbreak, wanda!reader cuts her palm to prove something, a whole lotta tension between you and the general, no beta we die like wanda
word count: 6.0k
(author's note: bro even my heart broke writing this long-ass chapter, haha. shadow daddy and magic mommy super angsty slowburn!? i just wanna finish this short series and be free from the confines of my crazy fanfic ideas, guys. let me go!)
The smell of paper.
Aleksander walked through the rows of bookshelves, his eyes skimming the spines of the books, searching for the one he wanted. He continued down the row, almost reaching the end, when he stops and his eyes settle on the sight of you, reading on a small couch tucked into a dark corner of the room.
What impeccable timing he had, he thinks as his thoughts shift from the book he was looking for to the woman who’s been plaguing his thoughts as of late. Just in time to get answers to his questions.
After being in Ryevost for a week, his presence was required in Kribirsk, overseeing the status of the troops there. But no night passed when he wasn’t thinking about you, in particular. Aleksander’s eyes zoom in on the book you were reading.
History of Ravka. How unexpected. His gardener was such an avid reader.
A strange feeling stirred within him the longer he stared at you. He’s seen you before, he just doesn’t know where. He glances around the room, checking if anyone else is around to see the two of you. When he’s certain that no one is there to witness, he slowly moves closer to you, coming to stand a few feet away from the couch.
You noticed eyes studying from near the shelves even without looking. But ever since you became employed in the Little Palace, you had grown accustomed to a certain Shadow Summoner’s presence. Slowly, you turn your head to the right side of the sofas to see him.
“Moi soverenyi.” You bow your head as you stand.
“Hello, Wanda," he greets, his voice low and almost teasing. Funnily enough, he finds his gardener not in the garden, but the library this time.
"I find myself surprised. I thought you prefer being in the garden." His tone was light and nearly sarcastic. Was he in a good mood today?
“It’s a Friday, sir. My day off." You smiled a little.
"So it is,” Kirigan muttered, his gaze going back to studying your features, his eyes roaming over your face once again. Now, to the important topic. "Wanda—you and the children… Henrik, Dmitri, and Katyusha…”
You perked up at their names. “Yes, sir?”
“Where are you from again?”
You nearly, very nearly answered Sokovia. Thankfully, you did not. But something in you grew agitated as the Darkling stepped closer, awaiting your response.
“We came from a small town near Tsibeya. Korsov. Barely even in the maps,” you reply smoothly, fingers grazing the rough pages of the history tome you were devouring earlier. "Not exactly the nicest place to live in."
“Ah… Korsov. Indeed, quite a small town near Tsibeya, hm?” General Kirigan hummed, his eyes flitting to your hand. “But Tsibeya is so dangerously close to the Fjerdan border, don’t you agree?”
At his words, you start to have a bad feeling. He appeared to be implying something. “... Yes, it is, moi soverenyi,” you agree.
“And you did not encounter one single drüskelle in the many days you trekked from here to the Little Palace?” The Black General finally drops what he’s been intending to ask for a month now, his endlessly dark gaze piercing through your soul.
Your heart dropped into your stomach. If you thought he was onto you before, this was the confirmation.
Before you could respond, he continued, slowly circling you. Like how predators did to their prey. “Drüskelle are very unjust in their ways of imprisoning and killing Grisha, did you know that?” He added, a faint smirk on his face.
The smug bastard knew he caught you in his trap.
“Fortunately enough, sir, we encountered no drüskelle on our journey.” Your voice was cool and calculated as you watched him stop circling you. Kirigan raised a brow.
“Aside from drüskelle, Tsibeya is also notorious for its bandits, thieves, traffickers in its vast forest. There are many threats—excluding the temperatures and animals,” he pointed out, sounding amused. “Are you sure? When almost always, my soldiers would encounter one or more of these during their assignments there?”
Shit.
You retained your composure as you answered, “None, General. I’m forever grateful to the Saints above that we were blessed with smooth travels that time.”
“The Saints?” The Darkling mused, flipping a page on the book you were reading. The next page revealed an illustration of the Unsea. There was a glimmer in his eye as he looked at it. “That’s quite strange, Miss Maximoff.”
“Sir…?”
“Because I seem to vividly recall young Dmitri gushing over how you singlehandedly took down a drüskelle in your journey. Henrik also spoke of how you bribed two Grisha slavers to be on their way.” He turned back to you expectantly. "But you'd made them close their eyes."
No use hiding now.
A spike of cold ran down your spine. You weren’t sure if the children sold you out or not—it was unlikely since the General had Heartrenders for torture and interrogation and also, they were innocent kids! Children who either feared or idolized the Darkling. Probably both. You could not blame two boys and a little girl if they talked.
Either way, the man in front of you knew about what happened in your journey to the Little Palace. More or less.
You were just getting more and more interesting, weren’t you?
Aleksander sees your demeanor shift into something icier. Guarded. Quite different from the quiet gardener who diligently tended to her plants or the affectionate adopted mother who gives out sweets to her children. Different from the woman who smiled at him while wittily matching his banter.
It was the look of someone who most definitely was dangerous.
“Are you going to keep your general waiting?" Kirigan drawled.
And to think this had been the man you shared your grief to just over a month ago.
“What matters is that the children are here in your palace. Safe and sound and with their people, sir,” you countered, standing your ground fearlessly.
The Black General had absolutely no idea who he was messing with right now.
“I do not tolerate lies, Miss Maximoff,” he spoke slowly—ominously, his features hardening. You watch as the flames in the lamps nearby flicker and vanish completely as shadows engulf the space around you.
Much to his surprise, you didn’t so much as react at the sight.
“I doubt drüskelle or anybody else with ill intentions would just let 3 little children and a young woman escape without any trouble,” Kirigan challenged, stepping closer until he was merely an arm’s length away from you. “So, how did a helpless otkazat’sya gardener with no combat experience like you do it, hm?”
“...”
He scoffs. “Are you truly going to make me drag it out of you, Wanda?”
Menacingly, you tilt your head at him as you dauntlessly meet his gaze above you.
The Black General suddenly felt a chill run down his spine, something that rarely occurred in his immortal life.
Who were you, really?
You open your mouth to speak when—
CREAK!
The heavy wooden library doors loudly open, his most trusted right-hand man walking in. The shadows around you quickly vanish and the lamps flicker back on. A little irritated, he turns around.
“... What is it, Ivan?” He kept his voice reserved, hiding his displeasure at the interruption. He had been so close. So damn close.
“General, the Durasts have completed the new sandskiff prototype at Kribirsk. It is ready to be launched as soon as possible,” Ivan reports, his gaze momentarily shifting to you before returning to Kirigan. “Will you be accompanying us there once more, sir?
You await his response, but you can’t help but let the tiniest hint of a smile appear on your lips. Saved by the bell. His eyes flickered down, brow slightly twitching. He sends you a glare which clearly meant that your conversation was not at all over.
Your seemingly innocent smile grows wider as you bowed. “Moi soverenyi.”
Who was so smug now?
Holding back a snarl, he swivels on his feet, fists clenched. “Come,” he sharply ordered his Heartrender, quickly leaving the library.
You pick up the book you had previously been reading, examining the illustration of the Fold on the page. When you turned to the next page, there was a drawing of a heavily cloaked figure surrounded by shadows.
The Black Heretic.
You had only seen one other likeness of the man—at an almost abandoned wishing fountain not too far from the Little Palace. An engraving depicting the reign of King Anastas, the creation of the Fold, and the prophesied Sun Summoner to solve their problem.
As you reach out—fingers tracing the drawing of the Black Heretic curiously—the memory of your silhouette in the Book of the Damned suddenly coursed through your mind, Agatha’s voice echoed in your ears.
“You’re supposed to be a myth! A being capable of spontaneous creation!”
“This is Chaos Magic, Wanda. And that makes you… the Scarlet Witch.”
“Harbinger of Chaos!”
The sculpture of you in the now-destroyed Darkhold Castle flashed before your eyes.
“The Scarlet Witch is not born; she is forged. She has no coven, no need for incantation.”
“Your power exceeds that of the Sorcerer Supreme. It is your destiny to destroy the world.”
Quickly retracting your hand from the Black Heretic’s drawing, a deep frown marred your face. What was that just now? You return the history book to the shelf, disturbed.
What was crucial was that General Kirigan did not successfully interrogate you. Yet. Never, you pray. Hopefully, he’ll be off for a long time in Kribirsk for a very important Second Army job or whatever Ravkan military business he needed to do.
You could hide. Yeah, that would be the best option.
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For once, it seems like the heavens did heed your wishes. Because apparently, they had found the infamous Sun Summoner during their last trip to Kribirsk. Not without casualties, though. There was reportedly a drüskelle attack on their way back home aside from the volcra that had attacked the passengers of the sandskiff.
From the gardens of the Little Palace, you briefly catch sight of General Kirigan on his black stallion, a woman riding on the saddle in front of him. As the Shadow Summoner helps his newfound Sun Summoner down the horse, ushering her into a secluded entrance in the palace, he stopped in his tracks, looking behind him with narrowed eyes.
Aleksander swore he felt someone watching them.
But there was nobody except the oprichniki guarding the way in.
Without another thought, he followed the Sun Summoner inside. Fortunately, the new presence of the Sun Summoner—Alina Starkov—takes up the majority of his time for the coming days, especially after she was successfully presented to the Lantsov monarchs in the Grand Palace.
She will change the world, General Kirigan reportedly announced to everyone present. And the Fold can be destroyed with enough training. Somehow, it made you pity the poor girl thrown into this prophecy.
A great myth turned out to be a girl who was still finding her way in the world. How familiar.
Speaking of the Grand Palace, the head servant handed you a letter of some sort. A job offer. It seemed like Queen Tatiana was quite enamored with the new, blooming flower beds in the Little Palace. The ones which you’d mainly worked hard on earlier this year, aside from the fruits, vegetables, and herbs you helped grow.
As you walk through the paths of the garden, reading and debating over the contents of the royal letter, someone nearly hurls past you, making you drop the letter.
“... Miss Alina Starkov,” you acknowledged with a bow of my head as you gratefully accept the letter. “It should be me who’s apologizing. I was reading while walking.” You smiled warmly at the younger woman.
“I’m so sorry! I wasn’t looking where I was going!” A girl’s voice cries out as she picks up the paper from the ground. The only thing you could see was her blue, Etherealki kefta until she hands it to you.
Oh.
“Please, you… really don’t need to bow… ma’am…” she trails off anxiously, averting her gaze. She seemed to also be cradling her sore arm. Ah. You’ve never met the old woman, but you heard from Henrik and Dmitri that Baghra was notoriously strict and kind of scary whenever Grisha trained under her.
For a moment, you wondered why it was not General Kirigan who was training Alina.
“If it makes you uncomfortable, Miss Starkov, I’ll stop.”
“T-Thank you.” She stared at the bed of moonflowers nearby. “It’s beautiful here. I haven’t been to this part of the palace before. All the flowers… the vegetables... the colors and the scents… it seems so unreal."
You chuckled. “It’s all very much real, thanks.”
“Oh! You're the palace gardener,” she realized. “The flowers are gorgeous! You must have magical hands, ma'am.”
Funny. The General said the exact same thing just months ago.
“Just one of the few gardeners here, Miss Starkov. I’m assigned to the very tedious sections to maintain, but I'm glad you’re pleased. Perhaps one day, you can help me give the plants more sunlight with your powers during the winter,” you lightly suggested. At your words, she grows hesitant—her voice full of doubts.
“That is, if I can,” she mumbled, making you give her a sympathetic look. A young girl with the weight of the world on her shoulders. She reminded you of yourself when you were young—long, long ago.
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Aleksander is laser-focused on Alina for a long while, working to gain her trust and persuade her to join his cause—to use her powers for Ravka. All the while, he barely has time to think about the other matters, including his unfinished conversation with you. Plus, every time he managed to get a glimpse of you, you just seemed to get away and escape.
His frustration slowly builds. He can’t help but wonder what was going through your mind—you truly were hiding something from him. And despite his busy schedule with the Sun Summoner, the General can’t shake the feeling that the conversation you both left unfinished is important. He quietly resolves to talk to you to clear things up as it was nagging the hell out of him.
It was an unwelcome distraction from his goals with Alina. Alina was supposed to be the priority now.
Unfortunately for him, for some reason, you were incredibly good at evading his presence. The situation becomes more and more of a challenge. He almost orders Ivan to retrieve you himself and throw you into his office (or the underground cells) for interrogation. Almost. But he was not that desperate. Yet.
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“Is she here?” Aleksander asks two of the oprichniki, who were standing guard over Alina at the entrance of the private palace gardens. They nod as he hops off his horse.
“Good. Keep an eye on her wherever she goes,” he ordered before walking deeper into the gardens. Then, he pauses, a delighted look on his ageless features.
Look what we have here… he thinks as he finds you and Alina interacting.
Aleksander stands back for a moment, hiding within the shadows, watching the two of you talk and smiling together. He overhears part of your discussion, and a part of him is taken aback by the genuine care and reassurance you offer to the young Sun Summoner.
It seems like your kindness did not only extend to the three Grisha children you’d somehow brought into his palace.
“I don’t believe that it's power that's your problem, Miss Starkov,” he hears you welcomingly tell Alina as she walks beside you. “It must be knowledge. Knowledge can be gained, in time.”
“You really think so, Wanda?”
One dark brow of his elevates. Hmm, first name basis already with one another? How quaint.
You smiled at her. “I'm certain you will be a wonderful Sun Summoner. And, although I’m no Grisha like you, you are in good hands. With Baghra and… the General, too…” you trailed off.
Aleksander’s eyes widen slightly at your words to Alina. He's a bit surprised by your confidence in his teachings, but he’s even more pleased to hear it.
"Indeed, the knowledge and guidance I can provide will help you, Miss Starkov."
Speak of the devil and he shall appear.
The corners of his lips curved into a slight smile as he approached. Alina gasps in surprise, while you instantly freeze as your head almost snaps to the sound of the voice behind you. Kirigan’s gaze flicks back to Alina for a moment as she clears her throat, before looking back at you. He tilts his head slightly, studying your expression.
Alina looks back and forth between you and General Kirigan, clearing her throat as she senses some tension between you and the man who’d appeared out of nowhere.
Returning to your senses, you bow as he walks closer to you two. “General Kirigan.” Slowly, you back away from them. “My apologies, sir. You and Miss Starkov must have important matters to discuss. Excuse me—
"No, you stay.”
The Black General raises a gloved hand, immediately stopping you from leaving. When he speaks, there is a firm command to his tone. You halt.
You briefly wondered what chaos would ensue if you simply just used your magic now to vanish into thin air.
"You may go, Alina.” He said to the Sun Summoner before turning to you. “I’d like to have a word with you about the… flowers, Miss Maximoff.” The younger girl nods slowly, eyes flitting between both of you briefly, before leaving—the oprichniki following her.
Aleksander waits until Alina leaves, before returning his full attention to you. The look in his eyes is intense and serious. He’s been trying to catch you for quite a while now, and he’s not letting you leave that easily.
“Moi soverenyi.” Your voice was… just civil. Polite. Not as cordial and friendly as when he last met you. Or whenever you would have nice chats in the garden.
He takes another step towards you, and in the fading light of the garden, he seems imposing with his height and black kefta. "You’ve been avoiding me, little gardener,” he grunts lowly. Your brow twitched slightly at his words.
“You wished to speak about the blooming flower beds, sir?” you asked in a faux clueless tone, fully aware that it was not what this conversation was about.
“Don’t play dumb with me, Wanda,” he warns. “Such an elusive mouse you are… hiding around in my palace.”
“I was not avoiding you, sir,” you placidly justified yourself, not at all scared to look him straight in the eye. “You appeared to be quite preoccupied with the Sun Summoner's arrival.”
"—It's hard to fool me, Miss Maximoff.” His voice was silky, mocking you gently. "But weeks and weeks of evasion from me was quite impressive, I’ll have to admit. Makes me wonder why you’re so adept at it."
“...”
The Shadow Summoner can’t help but feel a sort of satisfaction at your silence, as if he’s won an unspoken game. He watches you for a moment before he speaks again, his voice smooth.
"Tell me," he mutters. "Did you really think I’d forget about that unfinished conversation we had in the library?"
You blink almost innocently. “Everything’s just been so hectic with Miss Starkov’s arrival, sir,” you say, hands clasped behind your back. “I can’t quite recall. My sincerest apologies.”
The man scoffed at your feigned ignorance.
“You may forget, but I never forget, little mouse.” Those abysmal eyes locked on yours. He reaches out and takes a stray lock of your hair, running it between his fingers slowly. You stiffened—the leather of his horse riding gloves almost touching your face.
“I normally dislike repeating myself, but I’ll spare you some kindness, so let me rephrase.” Kirigan retracts his hand, leaning over you. "You took down a drüskelle and escaped Grisha traffickers. How?"
“Again, does it matter how? The children are safe in the Little Palace.” Your same response in the library weeks ago. The Black General is not satisfied with your vague answer and his hand moves from to your chin, tilting it up slightly so you’re looking directly at him.
"I want to know." There was a not so subtle hint of force in his calm tone. Despite being so close to you that he could count your eyelashes, his gaze is intense and unyielding, trying to dig beneath your surface.
“... Fine. With my hands,” you hissed out. That wasn’t a lie… exactly. You used your hands to add some energy as you punched the drüskelle, which knocked the holy soldier unconscious before the children could see anything.
The General’s expression remains serious as he listens to your brief response.
"For the drüskelle… hmm... and the Grisha slavers? What did you do?” he murmured, pushing you for a more detailed reply.
“I bribed them,” you say. Just like what the kids believed; you gave them gold and silver. If mind manipulation counted as bribing.
The Black General was in disbelief. He seems annoyed by your refusal to share any details, and his fingers close around your chin more, holding it in place so you can’t look away from his intense gaze.
“Liar.” He was nearly eye-to-eye with you as he leaned down. "Do you truly expect me to believe that you escaped the attacks of drüskelle and Grisha dealers with just your hands and a bribe?" he asks, fully skeptical of your claim and demanding a better answer from you.
“And if that is what happened?”
“Then you must be Grisha. Or an assassin, maybe, if you used your… hands to defend yourself and survived those trained, armed fighters,” he sneers. “You keep lying to me, little mouse. It makes me have second thoughts. You say you’re not Grisha. When were you tested?”
You stare at him passively, unanswering as your jaw clenched.
“Well?” he asked, waiting expectantly.
Before he could react, you grabbed your soil knife from the satchel you carried around to work in the garden.
And consequently slice your palm open.
“!?”
Kirigan’s eyes widened, completely dumbfounded at what you’d just done. You stare at your bleeding palm, rivulets of crimson dripping down your wrist and forearm, droplets pitter-pattering the pavers.
Then, you raise your palm to face him.
“Not. Grisha.” That’s all you whisper, hauntingly unfazed. It was true. No sunlight. No shadow. No elements or whatever manifestations of the Small Science at all.
“...”
Much to your shock, he closes the space between you and retrieves a black handkerchief from within the inner pockets of his kefta, taking your bloodied hand and applying pressure on the lacerated flesh with a surprising gentleness.
“I will fetch a Healer—”
“No,” you stubbornly refused, making his brows furrow.
“... No?” he echoed.
You withdraw your hand from his leather-clad one, pressing the cloth yourself. Your tone was frigid, just as it had become ever since he began questioning you. “It’s just a cut. I’m sure your Healers have more important soldiers to attend to,” you snapped, stepping farther away from the General.
Silence engulfs both of you as the afternoon light morphed into the evening.
“... I have a theory,” he says suddenly. His brows are still furrowed slightly, deep in contemplation as he gazes at your injured hand. "You’re not a Grisha. You’ve proven this yourself. But... what if you have powers, nonetheless? Or abilities? Skills?"
He studies you carefully, looking for any reaction to his theory. But you carefully school your face into neutrality.
“Otkazat'sya can't have powers.”
"You’re not telling me the whole truth again," he muttered, the hint of a smile on his lips. "I can sense when you're lying, little mouse."
Kirigan quirked a brow, not buying your reaction. "True," he conceded. "But perhaps... not all otkazat'sya are as powerless as they seem."
He knows you too well, by now. All those visits in the garden, those talks with you...
The Darkling steps closer, eyes never leaving yours. "After all, you have managed to slip past my notice for weeks. Even when I actively sought you out."
"..."
It makes you want to punch his pretty face.
He knows he’s caught you in another lie—and he’s enjoying watching you try to deny it despite your failed attempts.
"Admit it. You’re not an ordinary otkazat’sya, are you?”
“But I am," you insisted.
“No ordinary otkazat’sya would slice their hand that deep without so much as wincing,” he opposed. “If you were any other person, I’d throw you to my Heartenders for questioning. Maybe you are an assassin, if not Grisha.”
“And why haven’t you, General?”
“Because, my little gardener, you could always tell me the truth,” he says, his tone slightly mocking again. It’s clear that he can sense your internal struggle and is simply waiting for you to crack. “This bothersome cat and mouse game of yours will soon be over.”
“And even if there is something special with me, will you use me the same as you're using Miss Starkov, General?” You look up at him in challenge. This time, it was you who strode closer to him.
The smirk on his face is replaced by a glower.
He grunts, insulted. "What makes you think I’m using Miss Starkov?"
“She is young. Barely past nineteen. Innocent. Easily manipulated. And you are a much more powerful older man. The complete opposite, moi soverenyi.”
The title escapes your lips with suspicion.
"Love?" the Darkling scoffed, unamused and slightly insulted your insinuation that he’s taking advantage of a young and inexperienced Grisha girl. "I have no time for such frivolous emotions. I serve Ravka and my Grisha, my duty alone."
Then, you huffed in disbelief. “Unless... those looks and interactions you give her are true love, feelings that have blossomed from you two being so alike. Two sides of the same coin. Light and dark. Sun and shadow.” You tilt your head at him, pressing the handkerchief tighter against your palm. The cut still bled and soaked the fabric.
Black as it was, it almost seemed scarlet now.
“I’m not blind, General Kirigan.”
But were your words false? Or was he hurt because it was true?
"What you call manipulation, I call training. Helping to shape and control a powerful Grisha. To make her a Saint, a savior of Ravka. And Alina...” he murmured, reaching out to squeeze your shoulder—a warning. “Alina is special. She is all that matters now. She is the future. She is the one.”
"..."
The General quirks a brow at your noncommittal response. "No arguments? No retorts?"
“You will hurt her if you do not stop,” you advised him.
He lets out a low, mocking scoff. "Since when do you care about her heart? You just met her."
“General, she is good. Pure. Bright and determined, but so young, unsure of her place in the world—”
“I do not wish to speak of Alina right now.” He returns to the previous topic, the shadows growing ever more prominent as the sun sets. “The matter at hand is you. But you haven’t been cooperating with me and don’t seem to plan on doing so.”
He removes his hand from your shoulder, dusting off imaginary dirt from his kefta.
"Hence, I shall ask the children myself. Surely, even if their eyes were covered, one of them took a peek. I will have Ivan deal with them—”
Seething from anger, you almost growl. “You will do no such thing.”
What if you just used your magic again to put this bastard in his place? That would teach him. Still, you were not that reckless. No.
Kirigan doesn’t like you speaking to him in such a hostile manner, but at the same time… he loves it. He can’t help but feel a slight thrill as he looks at the protective fire in your eyes.
He’s got you where he wants now.
"Watch your tongue, Miss Maximoff. You’re speaking to your general.”
“I'm not one of your soldiers,” you sharply rebutt.
The Shadow Summoner pauses for a moment, his eyes narrowing at your tone. You’re right—you’re not one of his soldiers. You don’t wear a kefta, you’re not trained and raised in the Second Army, like so many of the Grisha in the Little Palace. He should be annoyed or irritated by your defiant tone, but he can’t help but feel intrigued, his interest in you ever growing.
"No, you’re certainly not. But you’re employed in the Little Palace. My palace," he replied, his tone holding a hint of wry amusement. "I will summon the children to my office. Or would you prefer the dungeons? With a bit of prying and prodding, I'm sure one of them will squeal—"
“Don't you dare.”
And for the briefest moment, the Darkling swore he saw your irises flash a glowing crimson as you seize his hand with your bloodied one.
The handkerchief falls to the ground. Aleksander feels your grasp on his hand, your fingers curling firmly around his wrist as you speak—so tight you might break bones. He can practically feel the heat radiating from you, your rage almost palpable. He’s never seen you so… volatile. So furious.
It’s a side of you he’s never seen before.
He wants to see more of it.
Yet, the red was gone as soon as it appeared, making him doubt his own eyes. You let go of his wrist and distance yourself immediately, taking a deep breath, closing your eyes to calm yourself. You turned around, pacing on the garden path.
The Black General studies you silently, watching you closely as you try to rein in your anger. What did he just see?
“I... overstepped. Forgive me, moi soverenyi,” you whispered. Your eyes were normal again, as if nothing ever happened.
He takes a moment to gather his thoughts, before finally speaking.
"Indeed, you did." His tone returned to its usual calm and cool state. The man doesn’t seem particularly upset about your outburst, in fact, he almost looks… impressed?
"Whatever punishment you wish to—" Kirigan doesn't care about that right now, interrupting you.
"What was that, Wanda?”
“... What was what?” You were genuinely confused.
“Your eyes. Just now.” He steps closer, the darkness growing around both of you. “For a second, I swear—”
He wasn’t sure if it was just his imagination.
Upon his words, you realized you’d slipped.
"—They were red, Wanda. I think they were." He frowns, retracting his first sentence. "No. They were. My eyes do not fail me."
"..."
“This—This was a mistake,” you suddenly whisper, eyes shutting tight. The shadows around you vanish as Kirigan’s brows creased in confusion at your words. “No, no—I should have just left them here... I should’ve left long ago…”
It was as of someone submerged you in ice, a pit hollowing your stomach.
He’d seen a glimpse of it. Your powers. All because you couldn’t keep your emotions in check.
“Wanda—?”
“I never should have come here.” Your voice breaks, panicked as you endlessly whisper to yourself. “I never should have. I'm not even supposed to be here. It’s all my fault… this is all my fault.”
You’ve put the children at more danger because you remained here in the Little Palace. Why did you have to meddle? You were a danger to anyone and everyone around you. No matter what you did. No matter how good you tried to be. You should have stayed alone in your little cabin in Tsibeya, waiting to die.
Gritting your teeth, you pick up the bloodied handkerchief on the ground and hand it to Kirigan, who was growinf increasingly concerned by your spiraling behavior.
“Your hand—”
“I don’t need it anymore.” Your voice was hoarse with emotion.
“What—”
Indeed, when he looked at your bloodied hand… there was no cut at all. No blood on your palm or any that he’s seen dripping to your wrist and arm. Even the droplets on the ground were gone. His eyes widen as he looks at the handkerchief. Fresh and clean. It had been soaked with blood just seconds ago. So was the hand you gripped in anger.
His head snaps towards you.
Teary-eyed, lips wobbling, hands trembling as you gazed at him, face illuminated by the lamps by the garden path.
“I only wanted to make sure they were safe,” you choked out, shaking your head. “Visit them every few weeks or so while… while…”
Aleksander realizes he may have screwed up as he watches your wrecked state before him.
“—While I just nurture something instead of ruining it all the time.” You tearily glance at the majestic flower beds you’d created. The food you grew from the soil. The fruit of your hard work. Real. No witchcraft at all.
Was it worth it, though?
You clench your trembling hands, glaring at the Shadow Summoner. “You truly wish to know what happened with the drüskelle and the slavers? Fine! I'l tell you all about it!”
You were hysteric, laughing and crying. Mad and resigned. The General was silent. Frozen.
“Yes! Yes, I do have certain powers, General Kirigan. A helpless otkazat'sya gardener like me posseses powers beyond your wildest imagination. Powers that not only topple empires, but worlds. Powers I never wanted and powers I never wished to use again,” you screeched, no longer caring about hiding secrets. “Is that what you wanted to hear?”
He swallowed, seeing the crazed look in your eyes.
Wiping your tears, you give him a hopeless smile, eyes glowing red. This time, it wasn’t a mere flash. Your eyes were glowing.
“You want the truth? I’m a witch! A real, living, breathing evil witch." You raised your arms up in surrender. "I use magic. No, no. Not the Small Sciences! No! That so-called little thing you and your Grisha label as merzost? An abomination? I could eat it for breakfast, lunch, and dinner and still have seconds. There you go.” You lowered your arms, fists clenching. “And if I were any madder than I was now, I would have killed you right then and there when you threatened to interrogate the children.”
Vividly, just as the sun set and let the darkness surround you.
“But do you know why I didn't? I can’t. I don't want to. Because that would add one more person’s blood to the countless souls I’ve killed over so many millennia… the thousands I've tortured with my pain." You thread your fingers through your hair.
Witch. Magic. Countless killed. Millennia.
Your jaw clenched at your own words. The red vanished from your eyes as you tiredly mutter to yourself, scoffing, "Perhaps I truly am meant to be alone. It is my curse. I was wrong to believe that I could stay with the children and watch over them here. Damn it all."
Aleksander doesn’t know how to react to your revelation. He only knows that he hates what you just said. However, as he removes his leather gloves—reaching out for you as he slowly steps forward.
You frowned, initially backing away. “What... What are you doing?! Don't—”
His bare hand cups your cheek. His thumbs—calloused, yet so warm—grazed your cheeks to wipe your tears. Your eyes flutter closed at the sensation as you let your guard down.
It felt nice.
However, when your eyes close and his touch warms your tear-stricken skin, you see it. Hear it.
All of it.
A snowy land. A frozen lake.
"I'm a human amplifier."
"I'm sorry! I need your bones!"
"If she wears my bones then you won't be able to push her or her sister around anymore!"
"You must fight. Fight!"
Water. So much water. Drowning.
The Cut. Blood. Fire.
“Aleksander!”
A woman restrained and stabbed. A man falling to his knees before vengefully killing royal soldiers with shadows. Journals. Morozova’s journals. Merzost. The creation of the Fold.
"What did you do?"
“I made something.”
The volcra. The screams.
“Aleksander is the Black Heretic.”
The night of the Winter Fete. The Grand Palace. Crows. Alina Starkov. Malyen Oretsev. Two children running in a field. The Stag. The Darkling’s true plans.
“Fine. Make me your villain.”
The expansion of the Fold.
“You cannot claim what was not given to you.”
Nichevo'ya. Scars. The fall of Ravka from the inside out.
So much death. So much screaming.
There came another Lantsov prince. A ship. The Sea Whip. The Firebird. The death of Mal.
The obliteration of the Fold. The sun vanishing. Sand… so much sand… ash. Fire.
All of it, in just a split second.
“Without me, know that they will come for you.”
“Let them come.”
“Alina… you make sure… there is nothing left of me… please…”
A thornwood tree.
Screaming. More and more screaming.
The making at the heart of the world.
"My name is Aleksander Morozova, but I have had a hundred names and I have committed a thousand crimes. I am not sorry. I do not repent! All I did, I did for Ravka!"
Make it stop.
Make it stop!
“No!” you screamed, unconsciously pushing the Black General away—sobbing harder and falling to your knees, clutching your throbbing head and covering your ringing ears, overwhelmed by the barrage of voices and images flashing through your mind. "It hurts... it hurts!"
Then, as you open your eyes, your heart sinks.
Although it was evening—no one else around, the palace garden around you fell dead—flowers wilted, trees black and leafless, not a single form of life present. The lights of the lamps had been snuffed out.
Black and corrupted like your fake apple orchard when you read the Darkhold.
And you hear someone wheezing from beside you.
Your eyes widened—the General's shadows had tried to protect him, but red wisps of energy coiled around his neck as he struggled to breathe, on his knees.
“No! Stop! Stop, I’m sorry!” you cry out, standing and making the wisps vanish.
You covered your mouth, feeling revolted at what you’d just done. It was Westview all over again. General Kirigan—no, Aleksander Morozova stares up at you—coughing—both of you reeling from shock.
He was speechless, as well.
“Oh, God—what have I done... I’m sorry… I’m—” you hiccuped, voice breaking as your eyes flitted between him and the dead garden. The ruthless, terrorizing Darkling himself seemed horrified at you. That spoke volumes in itself. “I’ll… I’ll fix it. I’ll fix it, I’m so sorry… I didn’t mean to…”
Hands glowing with the mix of red and black mist of your Chaos Magic, you painstakingly revert the garden to how it used to be… before you accidentally killed it. Like nothing ever happened, just like how the cut on your palm mysteriously vanished.
The Black Heretic couldn't believe his own eyes. His little gardener was... something else entirely.
Not Grisha. Not a Shadow Summoner. Not a Sun Summoner. No. You were something far beyond that.
“Wanda—” Aleksander finally says, pulling himself up, approaching you cautiously.
“Don’t.” You shake your head fervently, voice barely a whisper. He stops that instant. “Don’t… Don’t come any closer. Please. I might hurt you again. I don’t want to hurt you. I don’t want to hurt anyone. I’m not a monster.”
Your words broke Aleksander’s heart.
He’s heard them before from his own lips.
You swallowed, staggering from the visions you saw. A premonition. Just like when you read Ultron’s consciousness so many years ago.
“I looked into your head and saw annihilation,” you remembered yourself saying to the love of your life, when he was no more than an hour old.
“Look again,” Vision replied.
Your chest heaves with the effort you need to breathe. You had to get out of here now.
But you had one wish. Just one.
“General, please... please—all I ask of you is that you make sure they’re safe,” you begged the Darkling, lips wobbling. He immediately understands.
Katyusha, Dmitri, and Henrik.
“You have kept them safe, Wanda. All this time,” Aleksander whispered, tone pleading. He had fucked up. "I understand now. How you protected them. Why you protected them yourself. You do not need to go—"
You shake your head in disagreement, sadly smiling.
"There is no place for me here, General. Not anywhere." Another salty tear trails down your cheekbone, your voice shaky. "Not with anyone. Not for me."
"There is no safe place. There is no haven." Baghra's words momentarily echo through Aleksander's head from when he was thirteen. His heart thumps faster and faster when he realizes he can't change your mind. "Not for us."
"Wanda, wait—"
In a blink of an eye, you were gone.
You exhaled shakily.
"Goodbye, General Kirigan."
The only thing left of you—on the ground—were your satchel of worn-out gardening tools and a white envelope. Frowning, he picks it up. A job offer from the Grand Palace to be one of the gardeners there. He crumples it in his hand, fist clenching the fancy sheet.
Wispy, crimson streaks… magic...
Aleksander stares at the garden, in disbelief of what just happened and how you did it. Crickets sounded out from the bushes. It wasn't an illusion, then. He had just seen you destroy and repair an entire garden within seconds. A Durast could do that, too, but not at such a ginormous scale and certainly not as quickly or finely. Down to the crown molding, it looked real.
It was real.
He touches his throat, remembering the crushing feeling of those wispy, crimson streaks in the air constricting his airway. Almost like a Heartrender, yet oh so different.
Aleksander then realizes why you’ve been so familiar to him all this time.
You were the woman who had been haunting his dreams not so long ago.
Yet, you did not seem to know it at all.
And now, he had driven you away because of his greed. He feels the bile creep up his throat.
That night, as he returns to his room in a daze, his strange dreams of the faceless woman with powers return.
Only this time, you weren't faceless anymore.
to be continued.
So he finds out but kinda regrets it! I wanna make this man grovel soon, hehehehe. I honestly also love how I was able to mix some of the show's, book's, and Wanda's iconic lines from her MCU movies here in this chapter. 💖
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You are confronted by a certain Shadow Summoner about your motives in bringing the kids to the Little Palace. He realizes that you've loved and lost so deeply, eerily the same as he had. Perhaps that's the reason why he was so drawn to you; he could see his reflection in your eyes. But the more answers the Darkling got, the more questions he had. Unfortunately for you, Aleksander was a patient and persistent man who would stop at nothing to get what he wants.
warnings: grief, implied depression, mentions of the many tragedies of wanda maximoff, the darkling is getting very suspicious and that's not a good sign for you, no beta we die like wanda
word count: 4.8k
(author's note: so we see his vulnerable side and scheming side all in one chapter, lol.)
The fallen leaves had a crisp crunch to them today.
As you go about your duties in the garden, you hear familiar footsteps approaching. When you looked up, you saw the Darkling making his way towards you, his ever regal air present.
“Good morning, moi soverenyi,” you greet, placing the packet of seedlings down on the grass as you bow your head, gloved hands covered in soil. Moonflowers, he noticed the labels on them. So you did take his suggestion into consideration.
You blinked, slowly standing straight. He seemed much more serious today. Not that he wasn’t, usually, but you felt a… change in his approach to you. General Kirigan glanced around the garden, his expression almost cautious for a moment. Then, he motioned for you to join him as he strides towards a more secluded corner of the garden; an area that's shielded from view by a large flower bed. He stops beside a stone bench beneath a willow tree, motioning for you to sit. Once you're seated on the stone bench, he remains standing for a moment, his back to you as if he's contemplating something. Then, he turned and took a seat beside you.
He stopped a few paces away from you, his gaze fixed—the sharpness in them never fading. “A word, Miss Maximoff?”
It was quite tempting to read his mind right now since he seemed to be thinking so hard.
The General glanced at you out of the corner of his eye, his gaze almost contemplative as he seemed to consider his words. The silence stretched on for a few moments, the only sounds coming from the garden around you—birds chirping, a light breeze rustling the aging leaves in the trees.
“I heard something about you, Miss Maximoff,” he revealed. Your eyes widen slightly, somewhat alarmed. What did he say?
“Pardon me, General?” You very nearly stammered. Kirigan looked at you with probing eyes, his gaze meeting yours directly.
“You were not entirely truthful about why you became a gardener here in my palace.” He regarded you with a knowing look.
“I’m sorry, I don’t think I follow, sir—”
“Katyusha, Dmitri, and Henrik. Familiar names?”
The color almost drained from your face. He tilted his head slightly, his gaze never wavering. There's a hint of curiosity in his expression, almost as if he's trying to decipher something about you.
“... No, moi soverenyi,” you lied. But for the most powerful witch in existence, you were quite awful at it.
“Is that so?” He hummed, sounding in disbelief. “But I heard from the boys themselves you actually brought them to the Little Palace. Not a traveling hunting group, as indicated in their papers. And sweet Katyusha appears to miss her… mama.”
You closed your eyes, calming your beating heart. Did he talk to the kids himself? Were they questioned? Shit. It would be very hard for anyone to lie to the Black General, more so children under ten! Kirigan watched you intently, his eyes studying your features.
“I’m sorry, General—” He held a hand up to cut you off.
“None of that. My only question is why?” He asks suddenly, his voice low. “Why did you do that? Help not one, not two, but three young Grisha orphans?”
You frowned at his incredulous tone. It was terrible that it was a world where acts of kindness to Grisha were so unbelievable. “They deserve to be cared for properly as Grisha, sir. They were extremely young when they exhibited their abilities, especially Katyusha as a Heartrender.”
The General nodded slowly, processing what you've said. His gaze was mixed with something that almost looked like... respect? He's silent for a moment, seemingly contemplating his next words. “And... how did you know they were Grisha, at such a young age? Usually, the Grisha testers—amplifiers are needed.”
“I took them under my care for a year, sir. After I removed them from the streets. And with how… powerful they seemed to be at their age, it was a bit... er, obvious,” you muttered. The Shadow Summoner raises an eyebrow at your response.
“Obvious?” There was pure disbelief in his voice.
“With Katyusha's temper tantrums added to her separation anxiety when she was so young… and her being Heartrender... you can imagine. Like, trying to leave her just to get something from the other room would lead to me being momentarily rid of the breath in my lungs.” You sighed, rubbing your face. “The boys were already using their powers by the time I took them in, sir. Probably because they often had to be on the run to survive. They learned in their own way, somehow. Not the proper way like in your Grisha school—I suppose. But they survived because of it."
The Black General frowned. He knew exactly what that felt like, centuries ago. He hated the fact that even until now, with Grisha of the new generation, it was still the same problem.
You looked at him, swallowing a little nervously. “General Kirigan, I... will confess. I did apply for the gardener position here at the Little Palace to… mainly to see them every once in a while. If there is a punishment for this, I am more than willing to—”
He shakes his head, stopping you. “You care about them. All three of these children."
The Darkling observed as you get a little riled up. “And... you, Miss Maximoff... are not Grisha, are you?”
“Of course! They are still children, Grisha or not,” you interjected. He senses the protectiveness in your voice. The passion in your eyes.
It seemed as if you were willing to die just for these children, he noted. That was rare to find in someone who was not like them.
“They deserve to have a chance at a good life! Not out on the streets, cold and starving, running from people who know nothing."
You shook your head. That was one truth you did not need to change, thankfully.
“Your care for them is quite remarkable, Miss Maximoff. Especially since you're not Grisha,” he remarks curiously.
“My care for them should not be remarkable. It is human decency,” you huff indignantly. A spark appeared in his dark eyes at the sight. “I did not want them to be persecuted by the villagers who don't know any better... just because they are Grisha. That's why I brought them here. Some people are just… heartless.” You exhale, recalling the state the kids were when you initially found them.
The General tilted his head slightly, watching you silently. There's that curiosity again in his gaze, as if he's contemplating something, trying to figure out something... you.
Kirigan nodded, fingers tracing the smooth stone of the bench you two were sitting on. “Many Grisha are feared and hunted, even as children. They are perceived as... unnatural. Monstrous.” His eyes darkened momentarily, unpleasant memories running through his mind. “It was noble for an otkazat'sya like you to personally bring them to the Little Palace.”
You shook your head. "Moi soverenyi, again, it is simply basic human decency. All I wanted was for them to live a better life."
“You’re not like other otkazat'sya, are you, Miss Maximoff?" At his words, you do your best not to freeze like a deer in headlights.
“What do you mean, sir?” Your voice was measured. Controlled. Neutral. The lying was never the easy part of all your secrets, huh?
Kirigan leaned closer to you now, his gaze focused intently on your face. He's studying your features as if he's searching for something. “I've met many otkazat'sya in my life. But... you're different. There's something about you. Something I can't quite place."
Mother of all saints, he was onto you. Though, he did not know much about it yet, thankfully. Still, you weren’t doing anything illegal in Ravka. So why was it so disconcerting?
He tilted his head. There was something about you that seemed so very familiar. “Miss Maximoff, have… we met before?”
That made you pause. No. Never, as far as you could recall. You shake your head. “Not that I remember, General.”
“Well, Miss Maximoff, do you disagree with my observation? Do you not believe there is something different about you?” You honestly had no idea how to respond to that.
“I don’t know, sir...”
He looks at you, his gaze steady; intense. There’s a look in his eyes that seems almost... expectant. It’s as if he’s waiting for another answer. Or an explanation. What could you say?
“I can easily have you taken away for questioning if you’re lying, you know,” he prodded, his voice casual; a hint of humor in his tone. “I could also have you executed, if you like. Possibly for insubordination.” It was as if he were discussing the weather and not the idea of ordering someone’s death.
“... You could, yes,” you murmured calmly. Too calmly.
“But it seems like you’re not afraid of death, Miss Maximoff.” Kirigan was impressed. Perhaps he should retrieve Ivan or Fedyor to see if you were truly unafraid as you appeared to be. Another reason why you seemed to be such an intriguing otkazat’sya.
At his remark, you chuckled. The Darkling looks at you, his gaze now more intrigued than before. There’s a hint of fascination in his eyes, as if he’s trying to figure out what makes you fearless in the face of mortality. “How peculiar. Why not?”
“I guess you could say it's an old friend,” you replied vaguely. His expression turns slightly puzzled at your response.
“An old… friend?” he mutters. You nod.
“Explain.” A deep frown had curved his lips down. He did not understand.
“Is that an order, moi soverenyi?”
“Hmm... death is…” You look up at the fluffy clouds in the sky, trying to word your response. Kirigan looks at you, his gaze intent, listening closely as he awaits your response. “... Like a friend, always there. Always waiting... patient, silent. It bides its time until it’s your time.”
He looks at you, his gaze unwavering. “No. It’s not an order. It’s a… request, Wanda.” His voice was slightly softer than before.
And it was the first time he used your first name.
He was silent, considering your words.
As you fiddled with your fingers, you added quietly, “When you've lost enough people in your life, you'll realize that... death may not be something to fear. It's almost... peaceful, the finality of it. That all of the suffering and pain is gone."
Unbeknownst to you, the words struck a chord in the Black Heretic himself. There’s something in your words that resonates with him.
“You have a unique understanding of death, Wanda,” he mused.
“Do I, moi soverenyi?”
“You do. Most people fear death, but you seem accepting of it. You talk as if it’s a comfort to you.”
“And if it is?”
Kirigan watched you closely, noticing the tiny smile on your lips as you gazed downwards at the grass at your feet. There’s a moment of silence as he studies your expression, trying to understand the depth of your acceptance of death.
“Powerful Grisha age slower... don't they, sir?” you asked suddenly.
“Yes, that’s correct,” he confirmed. “Powerful Grisha live longer than ordinary humans. But why do you ask?”
“You're perhaps the most powerful one right now. So it stands to reason that you must be much older than you look, General.” You pointed out, an inquisitive look in your eyes.
The Darkling looks at you, a hint of surprise crossing his face at your observation. He grew a bit more guarded, and there’s a hint of something else now in his eyes—a slight wariness at the thought that you’ve managed to deduce something about him.
“You have a keen eye,” he said curtly.
“Just been reading at the library,” you murmured, before adding. “When the Apparat is not around. Although servants aren’t prohibited to go there—as far as I can recall from the rules—I prefer to read in peace.”
Kirigan looks at you, an almost amused smile tugging at the corners of his lips. From your answer, it sounds like you’ve just been casually reading about Grisha and their powers. “You’ve been studying Grisha in the library?”
“I wanted to know more. Especially for Katyusha, Dmitri, and Henrik,” you shared genuinely. “To understand who and what they are even more. What I can do to perhaps support them in the way that I can. Learning."
At your answer, the Darkling feels a strange tug on his heart… and his lips.
“If you're older than you look because of your powers... I'm sure you have some thoughts regarding death as well.” You rest your elbows on your knees, leaning forward as you sit on the bench. “Perhaps you disagree with me. About it being an old friend.”
The dark-haired general doesn’t respond immediately, but something in his eyes suggests you may have hit a nerve. His expression remains solemn and contemplative for a moment before he speaks again.
“I don’t disagree,” he mutters, his voice soft but slightly distant. “But death… is not something I have accepted.”
Wistfulness washed over his stony facade, as if he was contemplating something far beyond the conversation you’re having now. “I am not immune to death, even as a powerful Shadow Summoner. It is inevitable, unfortunately. But... I do not accept it so easily. I am not yet ready to embrace the finality of it all.”
“I can understand why,” you whisper, meeting his eyes for a moment. He appears surprised, his eyes searching your face for a moment, as if he’s trying to see something deeper within you. There’s a touch of vulnerability in his gaze now; a glimmer of what he’s keeping hidden.
“What makes you say that?” he clarifies hesitantly. You tilt your head at him. Even without you reading his mind, you were certain about his motives. It was clear from everything that you’ve read about the current history of Grisha and Ravka and the Black General.
“You are the Black General. An infamous Shadow Summoner. The leader of all Grisha. I figure that you dislike the finality of death because there is still much you wish to do... to accomplish,” you remarked after a few seconds of scanning his features. “And I have a feeling it's for your people, the Grisha. Or for Ravka…”
General Kirigan looks at you, faint astonishment and... could that be admiration in his eyes? He seems almost taken aback by your astute observation.
Little did you know how accurate your words were.
For a moment, he stands in silence, his expression thoughtful. Finally, he responds, his voice soft.
“You are too perceptive, Wanda.” He muttered, a slight smile tugging at the corners of his lips. “Too good at reading people.”
You could read minds, too, but you haven’t done that since you sent those Grisha slavers away from you and the children months ago. The General did not need to know that, though. Not ever, you hope.
You laugh softly as the two of you sit on the stone bench in the garden, the gentle breeze rustling the leaves and plants, leaving a fragrant, fresh scent in the air.
“My apologies, then, moi soverenyi.”
“No need to apologize,” he assured you, shaking his head with a slight smile. “In this palace full of fools, it’s refreshing to talk to someone with a modicum of sense.”
“You shouldn’t call your people fools, sir.” A small giggle escaped your lips. He finds himself drawn to the sound.
General Kirigan looks at you, an amused expression on his face at your playful scolding. He pretends to be affronted by your comment but there’s mischief in his eyes.
“Am I not allowed to criticize my own Grisha?” he hummed, a hint of a smile on his lips.
You smiled at him. It made your usually gloomy demeanor brighten the same way it did when he spotted you with those Grisha children days ago.
He likes seeing you smile, he finds.
“Well, I'm an otkazat'sya. I don't think I have a valid opinion on that.” You gazed at the nearby flower bed.
He shakes his head slightly, a soft breath of amusement leaving his lips.
“Ah, but your opinion is welcome nonetheless,” he muttered, his voice a touch fond. You returned the tiny smile he shows, before he asks. "Why... may I ask, have you accepted the finality of death?"
You somber down at his words, the smile fading. “I do not have many goals or aspirations left in life, sir. I guess the only one I have now is seeing Katyusha, Henrik, and Dmitri happy and thriving as growing Grisha."
He examined you, his expression becoming more serious as he noticed the subdued tone in your voice. The hint of a smile on his face slowly fades away, and he gazed at you, his eyes gently studying your features.
“Your only aspiration is seeing the children thrive as Grisha?” Was there concern in his voice? Maybe you imagined it. You nodded.
“You... don’t have aspirations of your own?”
“... No. Not anymore, at least,” you whispered.
“Then…” You focused on your dirty garden gloves. “I'm more than content to be with my old friend.”
He studies your face, as if he’s trying to see the depths of your soul. “If you have no aspirations, then you have nothing to live for,” he commented solemnly. “But... the children will grow up. They will be grown Grisha, capable of taking care of themselves someday. What then?”
Death, he remembers. And the relentless Darkling didn’t realize that a part of his cold, broken heart could still break. He searches your face for any sign of jest or insincerity. When he finds none, something strange passes through his eyes—something he doesn’t want to admit, even to himself.
“You... you would truly accept death so easily?”
This time, the smile you gave was nothing near joyful.
He shook his head. “You are strange, Miss Maximoff.”
Silence grows between you two for a minute. Then, he breaks it.
“You said you’ve lost enough people in your life… who, if it’s alright for me to ask?”
Everyone, you think. But one person always stood out. Vision. “... My late husband. Amongst… many other people.”
He can sense the pain and sorrow in your words, and he gives a soft, quiet hum in response.
“I’m sorry for your loss.” His voice was low and gentle as he offered his condolences.
At his words, you smile a bit. Genuinely. “Thank you, moi soverenyi.” You scoff a little, amused. “You're... actually the first person to say that.”
The General’s eyes widened.
“Am I really?” Disbelief coated his voice. “No one else has said it to you?”
“I grieved his death alone,” you whisper. “I did not exactly have a... body… to bury. So there was no funeral.” Realizing the weight of your own words, memories of creating the Hex to cope with your loss ran through your mind.
You don’t notice him staring at your forlorn expression, mirrored in his face. His heart seems to tighten at the thought of you having mourned your husband alone, with no one to comfort or reassure you.
“You... you mourned his death alone. No one was there to comfort or reassure you during those dark times?” Kirigan was stunned. You inhaled sharply.
“... No.”
Unbeknownst to you, he knows exactly what it's like to grieve alone.
Only the rustling of leaves and chirping of birds could be heard in the garden.
Unable to help himself, he finally speaks up in a low voice. “You did not deserve that.”
Your head snaps to him, a questioning look in your glassy eyes. Both of you make eye contact for what seems like forever as you await his next words.
“You… you did not deserve to go through such grief, alone. No one should have to endure that burden alone,” Kirigan murmured.
It was quiet once more. For a minute.
General Kirigan waited for you patiently, not interrupting what you wanted—needed to say out loud.
Then, you smiles sadly, fingers fidgeting as you let your walls down to the only person who listened, for the first time in decades.
“I was ten when my parents died. But I had my twin brother, Pietro…” The mention of the name on your lips stings your eyes. It seemed almost so foreign now. “We were practically inseparable after… the incident.” The bombings of Sokovia which left you and so many orphaned.
Which left you and Pietro—starving and terrified—stuck under the rubble, waiting to die or be rescued.
“And when Pietro died…" Your voice hitched. "It was like this wave washing over me again and again. Knocking me down. When I try to stand up… it just comes for me again." Unconsciously, your hand comes up to rest on your chest, where your heart was. "I… thought I was drowning every time I breathed.”
Kirigan watches, jaw clenched at how you described your grief.
"I thought, then, what did I have to live for? My entire family was gone and I wasn't even twenty yet." You paused, a melancholic smile appearing on your face. “But my husband was there to comfort me. Not yet as my love, but as a loyal friend."
His features softened as he sees the sadness in your smile. “Your brother was there when your parents passed... and your husband, even before you loved him, was there after your brother was gone,” he echoed.
“But when my husband passed…” You chuckled humorlessly. "... That was it."
“Where were your friends?”
You shook your head. “It's complicated. It was a tough time for my... friends, too.” The Blip reunited many loved ones. Good for them, you thought. “I cannot blame them for not being there.”
“Not even one of them?”
You pondered sadly. “Natasha would have been there, I think. If...”
The Darkling has a questioning look on his face at the new name. “Natasha.”
“A mentor of mine. Also my best friend. She was like a sister to me, especially after Pietro died." You smiled fondly, then shook your head. “But she died around the same time as my husband, too.” On Vormir for the Soul Stone to revive the snapped other half of your universe.
The Soul Stone for your best friend and the Mind Stone for the love of your life.
General Kirigan was left speechless. How many people you loved did you exactly lose? You seemed so young. But it was as if you could more than fully grasp the depth of solitude he had experienced. And he was centuries old.
The Black Heretic himself.
“Did you have any children with your husband, if I may ask?”
“Twin boys, just like my brother and I. Billy and Tommy.” There was a sparkle in your eyes as you remembered them. Kirigan takes in your smile at the mention of your twin sons. He listened quietly as you whisper their names, as if you've thought about them for a long, long time.
Suddenly, you shook your head and stand, finding the conversation a bit too much. You stand from the bench. “I—I’m sorry, General. This must all be too overly personal. I'm oversharing—”
He shook his head, motioning for you to sit back down on the stone bench beside him. “No, no. It’s fine. And besides, you look like you need someone to talk to, Wanda.”
“...”
And should that be the General and the head of the palace you were currently working in? It was quite embarrassing, now, that you were venting out to this man.
Sighing, you sat, chuckling. “... You must be wondering where they are if I'm here living at the Little Palace, spending all my days gardening.”
His brows raised, but he had a feeling he knew the answer to that question, too.
“You don’t have to tiptoe around it. My boys are… in a better place now,” you murmured. "I'm just grateful I got the chance to even have them in the first place. And even see their first milestones in life."
The man senses the heaviness of your words; the weight of your grief. Obsidian eyes swirled with emotion—he knew your pain in a way that few can understand.
“Is that why you're so resigned to death, should it come?” Kirigan asked quietly, his tone low and gentle. "Have you been alone for so long, Wanda?"
You gave him a sad smile. “Perhaps it is simply my fate.”
The Darkling himself had mixed feelings about fate. He was old, so very old, and yet, a part of him still held onto the hope that maybe the Sun Summoner—his balance and other half—was true. But this fate of eternal solitude that you spoke of… he did not want to believe it at all.
“And yet, despite all that you have lost, you still chose to care for and bring those three children here to the Little Palace,” Kirigan noted.
You look down on your hands. “They were never mine, General."
Many people told you the same thing with Vision, Billy, and Tommy. Not yours. Not real.
He can tell that he's just on the cusp of understanding something about you, a hidden depth to your character. There's a strange pull to you, some indefinable quality that's drawing him to you more and more.
“You're stronger than some Grisha I know,” he says, true admiration in his voice. "You’ve endured solitude, grief, and loss more than once, and yet you continue to live, to breathe… to love.”
You meet his gaze. It feels like you were being beckoned by the intensity of his inky eyes. He could feel the same, too, mesmerized by your own.
But before you could respond, you two hear the crunching of grass and rocks, someone approaching you. Quickly, you stand from where you were seated beside the General, placing a more respectable distance between you both right as one of his oprichniki comes into view.
General Kirigan turns to look at the approaching guard, a slight frown on his face. He eyes the soldier that has come to see him, a slight annoyance evident in his gaze. As soon as you move away from him, and he notices the distance you've put between you and him, his frown deepens even more and a flicker of something almost… possessive passes through his eyes.
“What is it?” His eyes narrowed.
The oprichniki spoke, bowing. "Moi soverenyi, your carriage to Ryevost is ready.”
He nodded, sighing exasperatedly at the soldier's words. He glances at you for a moment, then back at the soldier.
“Very well, I’ll be there in a moment. Go wait at the gates,” Kirigan commands. The soldier bows once more and quickly turns and leaves, leaving you and the General alone once again.
“... Thank you, General. For listening,” you say before he could leave. Said man looks at you, the frown on his face slowly fading. He studies you for a moment, his eyes roaming over your face. It’s clear that he’s still somewhat annoyed by the soldier interrupting your time together, but he tries to hide it from you.
“My apologies, but duty calls." There’s a hint of something… almost satisfied in his gaze, as if he’s pleased by the realization that you’re not such strangers anymore.
His gardener was even more of a fascinating person beneath all the layers.
“Safe travels, moi soverenyi.” You bow. You don’t see the slight smile curving his lips upward as you do.
“Until we meet again, Wanda.”
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As the General rides in his carriage to Ryevost, his thoughts continue to circle back to you. He thinks about every little thing you said, everything you did, every expression on your face and movement of your body. He’s unable to shake you from his thoughts, running his fingers idly across the top of the leather seat of the carriage.
What an enigma.
An otkazat’sya woman who willingly brought three Grisha orphans to the Little Palace out of her own volition? And even applying as a gardener to covertly watch over them?
You must be truly dedicated to those kids.
His brows furrowed as he remembers once more that when those two boys—Henrik and Dmitri—had admitted that you were the one to personally escort them. Alone. You guys did not accompany a traveling hunting group, as they initially mentioned all those months ago.
“Fedyor, those three children I spoke to earlier this week,” he starts, turning to the man inside the coach with him. The Heartrender listened attentively.
“Ah, the boys who are so attached to little Katyusha?” Fedyor smiled. He’s met the very young girl before, amazed that her being a Heartrender manifested at such an age.
“Where did they say they traveled from again?” the General asked.
“Hmmm… I believe it was a little town somewhere near Tsibeya, sir. Korsov? They traveled on foot for days to get to the Little Palace,” the Heartrender replied, unaware of the General's growing concern. “Brave little ones, aren't they?"
Aleksander’s eyes turn to the view outside his carriage, thinking deeply.
Tsibeya was so close to the Fjerdan border. And you were out there alone. In the cold. With three Grisha children. The boys didn’t mention either if there was anyone else accompanying your group in your journey into Os Alta. Only that the traveling hunting group was a lie.
It would have been immensely unlikely for your small group to have survived had you encountered a drüskelle in your trip. Moreover, it should have been likelier that you and the children would have encountered one whilst traversing Tsibeya.
A few months ago, too, Fjerda had sent a fresh batch of drüskelle past the Ravkan borders. He remembers it quite clearly, given the number of casualties in his northern regiments during that time.
The timeline wasn't making sense.
The children were not clearly Grisha yet without their keftas and all, he supposes, but the drüskelle still could have attacked any Ravkan—Grisha or not. He’d also seen that Henrik and Dmitri were already somewhat well-versed with their powers so young. If a drüskelle, say, saw a young Inferni lighting a fire to keep his group warm in the cold…
Something was not adding up.
Plus, there were a couple of units of Grisha assigned in those areas. Surely, your group could have passed any of them. You could have chosen to hand over the kids to them, too—it would have been safer if they were protected by the Second Army soldiers, right? The children would have had Grisha escorts bringing them to the Little Palace.
But no, his mysterious little gardener did it all by herself.
And not a single hair was harmed on the children’s heads even after such a long, dangerous journey.
He scoffs to himself. They were even more unharmed than the armed, trained soldiers he sends to the north.
The more he knew about you, the more questions Aleksander was having. But he had to be patient. This conversation would have to wait until after his stay in Ryevost.
Unfortunately for you, Aleksander was an incredibly patient man with centuries of experience.
He would get his answers from you soon enough.
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Reblogs, comments, and interactions are welcome here! 💖🙏
What do you think about Sasha here getting even more sus of you, hmm? Will Scarlet Witch-in-hiding be able to hide from the Darkling? 🤭
Few things in the jjk x wanda!reader series I've thought about for a while now
Why hasn't gojo asked wanda!y/n to use their reality altering powers to get rid of sukuna's fingers? I mean plot wise it would be too easy, but gojo's not always dumb, he should've considered this
Will wanda!y/n ever tell anyone about how Maki can be on the same level as toji? Ofc in your story the shibuya incident and everything after didn't happen luckily, but that also means Mai never dies to allow Maki to reach her full potential. Now my fantasy loving brain thought about the scene in the show The Magicians where basically what happens is there's chemicals used on a few people to stop their heart and then adrenaline was used to kind of bring them back to life. I think that's fun to think about but I don't know if the rules around cursed energy and how it works would allow that
Last one, and the one I thought about the most: Will wanda finds out that toji made a bet with nanami? I remember how one of the things toji agreed to when wanda!y/n brought him back and allowed him to live with her was he had to stop gambling. I don't remember which chapter it was but nanami and toji made a bet on something like which horror movies dark!wanda!y/n would kinda replicate and I would love to see if there's any sort of repercussions to that
All in all, I love your series so much, and I'll wait as long as I have to to see it through. Don't feel like you need to rush though!! I don't want to seem like I'm pushing you to release a new part this second
Hmmmm, interesting questions! Let me try to answer them!
Getting rid of Sukuna's fingers isn't much of a priority now because of her reality-altering powers! So it's more of just an inconvenience now than a totally debilitating threat in their universe.
Who knows? Wanda!Y/N might give Maki and Mai... a boost? Seeing how she was a twin herself whose brother was killed before her powers grew amplified. 🫀
I feel like Wanda!Y/N would just bonk Toji in the head for betting, lol. She won't kick him out and is just relieved that he's not super hardcore betting all his money away.
Hope that answered your questions! Thank you so much! Last message in my inbox for now. 🐣
i just wanted to ask what are you thinking about the sukuna and scarlet witch y/n’s relationship?like will they have a big fight for yuji because i feel like scarlet witch could end sukuna yk?
Hmmmm, it's kinda complicated, lol. But I think Wanda!Y/N is just keeping Sukuna in check while not wanting to kill him. 🫡
