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second chance

bled

bed

Grad school

graduate

classroom

Baz

freedom

apartment

Jason

kiss

Barty

terminate

pandemic

moving

Leon

st.paddies

crowded

fired

Lisa

Booker

new school

ESF trips

Mango

missing

Fajitanavidad

engaged

repainting

house

graduation speaker

DC trip

Christmas Eve

wedding

yearbook dedication

Japan

car

thanksgiving

Christmas Eve prt2

maternity leave

Jonas surgery

baby shower

so many things I would have missed, and so many things I am grateful and thankful to be here for.

tomorrow is never promised, everything has been bonus and I am so glad one horrible chapter didn’t keep me from experiencing all the goodness life has to offer.

it gets better. There is hope. Hang out for another day and another and another and carve out a life where happiness is a feeling that seeps into your bones.

chase the dream that someday things will be better. It’s worth it.

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therabbitsfoot

Maybe this is what healing looks like, being able to go back to the bridge you never burned when the world was on fire. Now things are good, the world is wonderful and full of fantastical bridges. But this one is a standing testament to the littlest seedling of hope that brought forth this entire garden of beauty. And I’m no longer scared to cross it, because I’m not on fire, I’m not running away from anything, I’m just thankful I didn’t destroy what was once one of the only natural and peaceful thing in my life.

I’m so glad I made it this far.

I am so madly in love with Jason, I have so many beautiful people in my life, my siblings are carving their way through the world and I am so proud, I am blessed with the worlds strangest animals and students, I am honored to be a part of so many queer spaces.

I’m never going to neurotypical. I’m never going to healthy. I’m never going to not have to fight for each and every day. But I’m fighting, and I’m not alone, and on average- I’m really fucking happy. Life is good.

itsguiltyland

cpahlow

Had to share this @WeHeartIt

I hate you in so many ways, but the rage bubbles over when I see their faces. I have their picture in my home, my moose and olive, I saw her face on their website and I went to the helping hounds to see her and make sure she was okay and I broke down when it was that morning that she was put down- I missed her by hours and she had been there for Weeks. Alone. Confused. I fucking hate you for that- for being a selfish coward- for not holding her paw while she died. Did you do that to Olive too? Did she die somewhere alone- afraid? You were supposed to be the one with the money, with the options, with the superior ability to care for them. It breaks my heart. And I will carry it with me forever, it will haunt me forever and it will hang over me because it should have been my choice to make and my punishment for handing those responsibilities to someone else - because I was so desperate to get away- my punishment is knowing I was hours away from being able to give her a dignified death and never knowing what became of her sister. I hate you but I hate myself so much more for choosing myself over them and thinking being with you would be okay. I should have taken them away with me, I should have saved them too.

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I can feel it crawling on my skin

pin pricks, thorns adorned with vitriol coat it’s segmented body

the darkness

it skitters on needle feet up my legs, around my belly

between my breasts and coils around my neck,

pausing to hiss flecks of ice into my ear before burrowing through my skull

I feel the darkness nesting there, my mind shifts and warps away from it in vain but is it all consuming it grows, stretches, Cascades down my spinal cord until every cell is crying out, fighting the cold, the numb, the pain

I feel myself falling, dragging down into molasses, deeper I feel the void engulfing me, swallowing me from the inside out

I’m exhausted And it’s everywhere, it fills my eyes, my lungs, my soul. I can’t speak, there are no words and no one to hear the incoherent whimpers that involuntarily escape.

what is it escapes? This torrent I hold captive in my body I am drowning, I am disappearing again

there are no witnesses, no one to grieve, no one to endanger, no one to possess, perhaps this time- it vanishes with me

sleepy-bebby

Baby Clifford & baby Snoopy

gregorygalloway

Maria Montessori (31 August 1870 – 6 May 1952)

Things I don’t want to forget:

Dinner-Talking about how much better our apartment is than our old separate apartments. Agreeing that there’s so reason to move unless we like a place better than our current place

Things we like:

Front porch, back porch, dish washer, open floor plan/good house flow, high ceilings, central air/heating, Bee Room, our own rooms, natural light, being so close to E&K ~Mira and Desi <3

Things we’d add:

More porch! Bigger bedrooms/2 more bedrooms, better view! extra room just for library, finished basement, more closet space!

Reminder:

I got FIRED.

I got fired for starting an LGBTQ+ club.

I got fired for standing up for what I know is right and for helping my students.

I got fired and they emailed ME in August asking for MY curriculum. With all due respect, burn.

I got fired and I got a new job.

I got fired and I’m happier.

I got fired and my people reached out and hugged me close.

I got fired and I survived.

Keeping this memory

Him singing on the way to Brick and Barrel. I love when he sings for reals, his silly singing is fun too, but his ACTUAL singing leaves me weak at the knees.

2.25 years already? I’ve never been happier. This school year is going to be tough though, new courses, more prep, I hope we’re strong enough for it.

First dance to TC? Absolutely. Alterbridge? For sure.

I can’t wait to marry him T ^T <3 It’s been a lot of work, it continues to be a lot of work, but we’ve built something fucking incredible together.