Welcome to Hell

A system side-blog consisting of a host named Max and her 30(ish) alters

[syspositive]

Covert systems: you are not faking your disorder. You aren’t “not obvious enough” either.

Being less noticable or distinct does not make you less of a system, and you deserve just as much support as anyone else.

[puppyenergy]

some DID things i wish someone had told me sooner

tumblr is not a resource.

dissociation isn’t spiritual.

systems aren’t spiritual either.

other people won’t usually notice you switching but sometimes you won’t  notice yourself switching either.

you don’t have to know who was fronting at all times.

alters can influence you even if they’re not currently fronting (re: passive influence).

sometimes you won’t realize when an alter is co-con with you, other times you will but you won’t know who.

it’s ok if you don’t know who you are.

it’s ok if you don’t know how many alters you have.

your alters don’t have to have their own names.

it’s common to not know every little detail about your alters.

it’s also common to not have good system communication.

persecutors are traumatized, not evil.

every part of you deserves a chance to recover and be happy. treat your alters kindly.

you don’t have to identify as multiple people just because you have DID.

alters are parts of one whole.

you don’t have to have a system name.

you don’t owe anyone anything about your alters or trauma (but you should consider sharing with a therapist).

it’s ok to not know everything about your system.

it’s ok to be confused about a lot of things.

DID is confusing.

[the-pixel-system-deactivated201]

~Mine~

[clever-and-unique-name]

Finally sat down and made this, after a lot of deliberation.

This casual explanation addresses the theory of Structural Dissociation in regards to DID/OSDD, and if you’d like to learn more you can read “The Haunted Self” by  Onno van der Hart, Ellert Nijenhuis, and Kathy Steele. Or you can check out this article written by the same authors. Be warned, both are quite clinical and use language you might find confronting if you are a system!

Learn more about: Integration Parts In Control How Alters/Parts are Experienced Internally

[therainbow-system]

You know why we're called the Rainbow System?

Because nobody in our system is cishet

Happy Pride Month!!! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

[themindfriends]

PSA FROM SYSTEM:

Your trauma does NOT have to be the worst in the world to still be valid. We have a lot of trouble accepting that our trauma was actually trauma because “it wasn’t as bad as everyone else’s”. So what? It’s still trauma. It’s still caused you pain and suffering and irreversible changes to your mind and psyche. Thank you.

[multiplicity-is-a-spectrum]

Dear fictives, it’s okay if you’re very little like your canon source. It’s okay if you’re “ooc”, from an “au”, or if your memories, personality, motivations, relationships, etc, are different from canon. You’re also allowed to grow and change from what you were like when you first woke up here! It’s all okay. 

It’s also okay if you’re exactly like your canon source!

Regardless, you’re valid.

[fangirlinginleatherboots]

spread the word that DID (dissociative identity disorder) is a very real disorder and traumagenic systems deserve respect and compassion for their struggles 

ok 2 rb if you dont have DID

[yourfaveisbabey]

Your System is Babey!

If you’re a singlet please do not rb/comment unless it’s to mention/tag it for a system!

[pariaaaaah]

Person: your disorder does not define you!!!!!!!! Your personality does!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me, has a personality disorder: what

[howjuderolls]

To finish off DID awareness day here are some facts we have posted already and some we haven’t!

[goodbyeworld95-deactivated20190]

ughh it’s so weird tumblr kinda makes me feel invalid. I have four alters, only one fronts sometimes, the others are just there making me feel things sometimes, but no one knows anything about them. They don’t have name or anything. Here on tumblr everyone’s like “this is X!! He likes pink and is 12 years old, and has blue eyes!!” and I’m like.... what. Mines have faded features from my headspace (except one who drew herself? I didn’t even know she was there) and that’s it??

Tumblr makes a lot of people believe that systems have to be a certain way to be considered real and valid. But fun fact: All (traumagenic) systems are valid - and they come in different shapes. That’s okay. 

You have 100+ alters? Valid

You only have 2 alters? Valid.

Your alters are very different from each other? Valid.

Your alters all kind of look and sound the same? Valid.

Your alters have cool names, look colourful and are very loud about what they like and dislike? Valid.

Your alters don’t have names and unique appearances? Valid.

You know alot about your alters? Valid.

You don’t know anything about your alters? Valid.

Your system communication is A+? Valid.

Your alters don’t really communicate with you at all? Valid.

Your alters talk a lot to you, frequently front and are very active? Valid.

Your alters rarely front or don’t front at all? Valid.

In case you really needed to hear this: You are valid. Your system is valid. Your alters are valid. Your system doesn’t have to be like other systems. Every system is unique in their own way. The way your system is has helped you survive when terrible things happened. If your alters just communicate with you through emotions, then that’s perfectly fine and valid too.

- Lin

[madman-with-a-book-is-abusive]

Madman’s New URL 2.0

I was informed that Madman has change his main blog from the URL cosmos-system to fragmented-cosmos! Make sure you block him under this new URL and watch out for him when interacting with posts!

[therainbow-system]

We’ve pretty much come to terms that Max is frontstuck for.....however long. But I want to bring her into the headspace, at least for Thursday. I know I can speak for a lot of us when I say I don’t want her out during then. 

[crow-operating-system]

Tumblr after watching Venom: can you imagine having another being living inside you??? And having them take over your body???

Everyone with DID/OSDD:

[therainbow-system]

I don’t understand why of all people he was spared in the reset. Not even Gideon or Michael, no it just had to be him didn’t it Ace? God I wish he had just fucking died with the rest of us. I’m tired of these nightmares of him. I’m tired of getting fucking phantom pains of his hand going through my fucking stomach. I don’t ever want to fucking see him again.

[therainbow-system]

Okay so I think we figured out the “original” alter situation.

So for context, for a while I’ve been questioning whether or not I’m the “original” alter. But after getting a few answers from the Fish Tank discord I think Holly, Muse, and myself all existed while the brain was still in development. Honestly it makes the most sense to me.