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My name is Cloud. I live in England this year.

[alecwiens]

I have a bad habit of assuming I’ve annoyed people, and it usually ends up with me dropping communication and hoping they’ll be the ones to continue it.

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my life

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the xx makes this sadness a little less.

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I really don't want to but I'm getting so lonely that I'm afraid i'll come crawling back to you but i don't i dooonnn'''tt i donndnndndndn't want to ugh 

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AGHGHGHG HOW CAN THINGS GO FROM SO GOOD AND PERFECT TO SO TERRIBLE AND DEPRESSING SO QUICKLY

[macarena-of-time-deactivated201]

I’m so insecure like I could be married to my husband for 40 years and I would still wonder if he likes me or not

[agarfield-deactivated20160309]

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It's like this: you wake and watch TV, get in your car and listen to the radio you go to your little jobs or little school, but you don't hear about that on the 6 o'clock news, why? 'Cause nothing is really happening, and you go home and watch some more TV and maybe it's a fun night and you go out and watch a movie. I mean it's got so bad that half the people on TV, inside the TV, they're watching TV. What are these people watching, people like me?

[marianawho]

(003/365)

We Need To Talk About Kevin (2011) by Lynne Ramsay

★★★★★

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New favourite movie. So, so well made.

[notsoplainsarajane]

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oh ezra

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So tonight is my last night in Europe. I have been here for 403 days now, and it is the weirdest, weirdest feeling. I'm super excited to see all the lovely people I at home I haven't seen for all this time and I'm super sad to be leaving this amazing continent, my best friend and my life in the UK. Combined, this just makes a kind of weird anxiety that isn't all bad, but isn't wonderful either. Less than 48 hours until I'm in the land down under, and there's still a motherfucker of a flight to get through. I wish I could get this adequately into words, but I can't. I think it's all a bit surreal, so I'm struggling to work out exactly what I feel, except a bit numb and nostalgic. Maybe I'll do some journaling on this flight, but then again I have sleeping pills and free alcohol so maybe not. We'll see what happens. 

I'm currently listening to All Time Low. What the fuck? Flashback to 14 year old me. It's still as great and lame as I remember.

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No seriously, give me The Vaccines, the internet and a blank word document and I'm occupied forever.

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i am just so sad. so so so sad. goodbye handcross, you have been the best thing that ever happened to me. 

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It's all over.

I am more sad than I have been in a long, long time.

It is going to take me a long time to get over this place and everyone here. 

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I just need one of those big cries. Just to let it all out. I feel sick all the time, with everything that is happening and ending in the next few days. I've been so close to tears twice today at the littlest things that the kids have said. I am going to probably shrivel and die on Friday. 

[imwideawakeitsmornin]

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I have almost been abroad for 365 days. Tomorrow, I get to see my parents come out of the arrivals door of London's Heathrow airport, which is going to be the best. I have 3 days left working at Handcross and I am going to miss this place more than I can really understand right now.

Everything is ending far too soon.

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