Room 2046

30/M/Los Angeles. I'm a visual artist & work in public health. www.theminordetail.com

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Gonna make this whole blog private very soon. Maybe one day I'll return. Tumblr you've been good decade of my life!

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Visual Diary: Escape

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Socially distant adventures

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Today I swam in a frosty alpine lake, and my body acclimating to water made me feel so alive. I indulged every single moment as if it was my last day on earth. Amidst everything going on in the world, joy is a blessing and privilege.

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I look ridiculous, but safety first I guess

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It's been a month since I deactivated my Instagram and it's interesting how rarely I take selfies nowadays. I don't even care to look in the mirror or weigh myself as often as before. I'm not thinking about my appearance according to the gaze of social media and I'm not feeling bad about being at my heaviest weight. I'm also not doomscrolling and absorbing everybody's angry energy. However, Instagram was the only medium where I was able to freely express everything going on in my head, and for others to still connect with me. But I'm reminding myself that the people that matter will be there no matter how long I'm unavailable on social media.

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Listen y'all: This is a wonderful time to dump some of the heroes you've outgrown and seek new geniuses.Trust me when I tell you that you'll feel a sense of relief to no longer maintain loyalty to what only half compels and wholly does not serve you.

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I’m grateful for my countless sessions of therapy to have prepared me for 2020. It’s interesting seeing the most well adjusted people crumble during these times because they’ve never really had to deal with immense anxiety and uncertainties. I’m not saying I’m okay with all the turmoil going on right now, because these are sad fucking times. I’m just dealing with this way better than I expected; Taking everything day by day, doing my part with my work in the community. I deactivated my Instagram for the first time ever because there was too much noise, too much blaming, too much fake activism, too many opinions from folks who I’ve never even seen in the community doing any type of advocacy work. It was just making me angry and annoyed. It’s so important for everyone to put in the work outside of the limelight. There are countless numbers of people who work tirelessly in the community, fighting against injustices, and not visible on social media or media pages. Too much talk. Let me see you in the streets, during community events, something other than social media. 

I really want to travel again, but with COVID-19, I’m not sure how feasible that would be. I have tickets booked for Europe in August, but I’m still torn about it. I don’t even know how to navigate everything anymore. Like is it even ethical to travel right now? Even though it will support the many people who rely on tourists for their livelihood. Even if I take all the precautions when traveling such as getting tested beforehand, wearing masks, sanitizing, washing hands, self isolating when coming back, it still feels like I’m doing something inherently wrong. Honestly this is why I avoid social media, because everything I do would have been judged whether through snarky Instastories or comments of how selfish I am for doing so and so. 

Anyhow, hope you all are doing well and staying safe.

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CONTACT YOUR ELECTED OFFICIALS

CONTACT YOUR ELECTED OFFICIALS 

CONTACT YOUR ELECTED OFFICIALS 

CONTACT YOUR ELECTED OFFICIALS

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Went to the grocery store the other day and was very turned on by many of the men in masks. Were they actually good looking? Am I just turned on by a good mystery? Springtime pheromones? Who knows! All I know is that my testosterone was raging, my loins burning.

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Is anybody really seeing "emotional growth" during this time? I am regressing and I hate it.

This global mess just shows how much we're all truly just fucking self destructive animals at the mercy of Mother Earth. This wasn't China's fault, or the Americans; Deadly viruses have always been here and have spread like this before. We're all just looking for something to blame. Of course, it doesn't help that people are such fucking idiots who blindly vote against their own interests. People shouldn't be dying as much, but then again they should because we're all just stupid dumb dumb dumb animals driven to commit mass suicide like lemmings.

Ok clearly my mind is everywhere. And I haven't been able to sleep before 4 am this whole week. I just think everyone's survival instincts are coming out during this whole pandemic, and we're all on fight, flight, and freeze mode. This overarching feeling of mortality is awakened and we're just feeling humbled by it all.

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I'm happy I was able to have one big solo trip this year, before the world essentially shut down for who knows how long. It was quite a meditative process creating this particular video. Usually I'm a stickler for super quick paced edits, but I decided to be a lot more slow and reflective with this one; completely letting go of the process, letting go of expectations. I don't care if nobody sees this. This was for me.

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Promised myself I'd lose some weight this year. No better time than now!

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Visual Diary: Taiwan

Now that I'm forced to be home, I've been able to finally produce all the videos I've been meaning to create!

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Visual Diary: New Mexico

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Crazy how only two months ago I was traveling the globe, only to now have such an uncertainty of whether that’s even feasible anymore in the coming months. Hope y’all are safe.

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Mood for the year. As the philosopher Fergie would say, “If you ain’t got no money take yo broke ass home!”