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2019 is about doing everything you find scary so that the universe can stop giving you repetitive lessons and elevate you to another level. Rebirth is in the air.

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The reunion

You’d think the reunion for twin flames would be easy, super romantic and that’s it, you’re together forever life is great. I mean it could be for some, but in my situation it’s the total opposite. It’s probably the hardest part. It’s an emotional whirlwind and I currently don’t know where I stand.

After 8 years of no communication, I get a random message from my DM apologising for everything that had gone on between us. Since then we have been in contact. We were talking every week at one point, then communication died off for a bit and during this time I’m always thinking about “should I make the first move to message him, is this whole thing over? Like was this just the closure I had been wanting? What’s going on?” And I’m in a constant battle with myself on my feelings towards him. I get to a point where I’m finally moving on and feel like I got what I needed and I can move in with my life and then he slides into my dms yet again.

It’s been like this for 9 months now. And we still haven’t met up in person yet, after a few times in trying to organise it, It never happens, im not sure if he’s even interested or is just scared, because I too am shitting myself at the idea of seeing him again. It’ll make the whole thing real and awkward and I’m worried I won’t like him as much as I thought I do and all these “what if’s” go through my head. So after some liquid courage I asked him if he wanted to hang out next weekend, I got no response for 24 hours, it was painful! I spent all day freaking out that I fucked it all up, I get a respond “if I’m around I’ll let you know”. I’m not sure if he’s trying to play it cool or ease me off because he’s not interested but if he’s not interested then why is he the one messaging me first? This is the constant battle I’ve been dealing with. And yes it’s probably a typical girl thing and I know I shouldn’t read much into it and everything happens in divine timing and if I try to control the situation it’ll only just block the flow of it all. But I’m trying to prove to him that I am willing to fight for him. He told me many years ago that I don’t fight for him. How do I get what I desire if I don’t put in the effort? The struggle is real. Stay tuned.

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[thesecretlifeofjasmine]

How do i know i am in a Twin Flame relationship?

My DM and I always knew our relationship wasn’t quite “normal”. It was very intense and we were very similar, we shared same interests, life goals and values and similar personality traits. We came to a conclusion we had to be soulmates. It wasn’t until my mother whom had also been in a Twin Flame relationship pointed out that we were probably Twin Flames. I’d never heard that term before but at the time we were told it was when one soul splits into two, the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine. So that was it, i thought. He was the one and we’d live happily ever after. 

Once we came into our separation i just assumed the whole Twin Flame thing was stupid and he wasn’t the one. Yet for some strange reason i had a feeling it wasn’t really over between us. Like i just knew that we’d be together again. I just thought that maybe when we were 50 or so we’d somehow find each other, but again i also thought i was just being a silly girl and that i seriously needed to move on from this guy and accept the fact he dumped me and it was over.

Approximately 7 years later i get a snap chat from the cousin she’s ran into my DM at a party and he had told her that he wanted to catch up with me for coffee. I was completely gobsmacked! I was convinced he hated me and/or forgotten about my existence. 

I hadn’t really thought about my DM for a long time i had locked and buried him deep and threw away the key. But one little snap chat rattled me. I couldn’t get it out of my head and he was back on mind like 24/7 this frustrated me, I began drinking and smoking heavily, i was confused and was trying to work out my feelings towards him. I was angry that he could still make me feel this way. It had been 7 years why am i not over him yet?

Eventually after a few months i began to move on again and live my life as i was before, I see him, He’s with a couple of mates sitting outside at the pub and i’ve just gone outside with my mate for a cigarette. The thing is he’s the first thing i see as soon as i go outside, I’m not sure he saw me but i’m majorly freaking out! I’m shaking uncontrollably and i never get the shakes and i’m trying to act as normal as i can but wow this guy has a freaking huge affect on me.  Again took me a couple of months to get over him again. 

I spoke to a couple of my girlfriends on how they felt about their first love and they all said that they’re completely over their first love, felt nothing and would never go back there. I was the opposite i’d be with my DM at the drop of a hat and my love for him was completely unconditional and doesn't help that i think he’s the sexiest person alive. I then started to think something was wrong with me, am i just lonely? 

Then once i’m living my life happily yet again.. He messages me out of the blue after 8 years since we split, apologizing for everything that went down between us. I was baffled. speechless. Never thought in a million years i’d have anything to do with him! I was curious about what the Universe was doing.

I then got the idea to do research on Twin Flames. I looked into the different stages of the journey and i found this couple on YouTube called “Twin Flame revolution” and my god they explained the whole thing to me and i was shocked. Most TF couples will go into some form or separation. Yes i was currently in that. The runner chaser phase, Well that explained why whenever i saw him at a club i was drawn like a magnet to him and he was so incredibly eager to get the hell out of there! Thought he just couldn’t stand to be in the same facility as me. There mirroring aspect of the TF really got to me. We brought out the worst in each other and i couldn’t understand why it wasn’t until i realized we had been mirroring each others insecurities and fear. Then there’s the reunion process.There’s just so many answers and explanations to everything that happened in our relationship, I could forgive him because i understood why and what happened. I had a major light bulb moment. Shit we are Twin Flames and it was okay that i was still head over heals for him because he’s in the same boat. What we have is unique and i’m incredibly greatful to be able to be able to have this experience in my lifetime.  

[thesecretlifeofjasmine]

The separation Process

Just a warning this may be a long entry!

Parting ways with my DM was the most painful thing i have ever experienced. It was if someone had died. During our relationship i was obsessed with him, he was everything to me, my world. I stopped putting in effort with friends and family and even myself. Once he was gone, I had nothing left. I had to rebuild myself, get to know me. 

 The seperation period in a Twin Flame journey is an absolute blessing. It hurts like a bitch but it’s the time where you really grow and discover yourself as well as heal.

  I learnt that i didn’t need to depend on anyone and i could live without my DM, Yes i struggled a lot. I hated him and i loved him.  In my situation i was still in High School, So i was forced to see him every day, we hung out in the same area and it was hard to pretend that he wasn’t the most important person in my life. I suffered from depression and was heavily suicidal for about 18 months and i had planned to do the deed, everything was set to go, my DM even had a goodbye letter that was set to be mailed. 

That was until i got the opportunity to fall in love again, It wasn’t the same love as i had felt before with my DM and the relationship was different, it was just a normal relationship and i was happy. I had almost forgotten about my DM. I was now in Year 12 my DM had left school and i was really enjoying life, i was 18 had a lot of friends and had discovered the clubbing scene. 

I did see my DM from afar a couple times at a club and as soon as i saw him my stomach dropped, I’d start freaking out, It’s bizarre he has such an effect on me. We never spoke. I’m not sure if he even noticed i was there but i couldn’t stop looking at him and mind you i was perfectly happy in my new relationship but yet infatuated with my Twin. 

By this point i couldn’t understand why i felt like this about him. I kept putting it down to him being my first love and you know how apparently girls feel attached to person they lose their virginity too? Well i thought i had that i felt stupid, why can’t i get over this bloke?!

During this time i got Glandular Fever quite bad so i was bed ridden and going stir crazy i got thinking about the past and i was beginning to feel ashamed of how i treated my DM while we were together so i messaged him on FB apologizing and we had a good chat for most of that afternoon and that was that. 

I then went on to never seeing him at clubs or even thinking about him. I began to really move on with my life. I became single yet again and so i moved overseas to London, I came back, moved out of home with friends, did further study and then gained full time employment. 

I had fully accepted the fact that he was never going to be apart of my life and i kind of forgot about him, Until our reunion started to take place.

I know it’s hard but if you’re in the separation phase yourself, I just say, hang in there, you’ve got this, allow this time to become a better version of you, live your life to the fullest and just let time heal old wounds, hating your twin won’t get you anywhere, this is a process that has to happen, Just roll with is as much as you can.

 As i get told a lot by the angels, be patient everything will happen in divine timing. 

[thesecretlifeofjasmine]

The Beginning..

A few years ago i made my last post about my twin flame experience. Since then a lot in my life has changed, things i thought would never ever happen for example my twin flame has come back on the scene... still trying to comprehend that. 

Hey everyone. My name is Jasmine and I've decided to write a blog on my experiences of being in a Twin Flame Union. 

Mostly i thought this would be a good place to get things off my chest seeing as not many people know this side to me or the secret research and work i do to enlighten myself and my twin. I’m not even sure of my divine masculine knows that he’s part of a Twin Flame connection but he’ll surely have to know somethings up because what we have is not normal!

 But I also i thought it would be cool to share our story to other Twins in the same boat or people whom are generally interested in this kind of relationship.

I met my DM in 2009. Unlike a lot of Twins, We grew up in a small town in Gippsland, Australia and some how spent 15 years not crossing paths. I first saw him in Food Tech a class we were both in, He was in year 10 and i was in Year 9. He walked in with his friend. Both were tall almost Emo looking, my DM having long black hair and he looked scary. i made a mental note then and there to keep away from those guys they seemed like people you wouldn't want to cross. 

Funnily enough a few weeks later i got to meet one of my friends new boyfriend and it was my DM and too my surprise he was a really nice guy. We got along really well, we had a lot in common and of course we ended up really good friends. I spoke to him i think almost every day on MSN messenger.

 Keep in mind during this time i did have a boyfriend of my own. 

My friend ended up dumping my DM but we remained friends and hung out quite a bit, it’s like we just had this instant connection like finally someone actually got me. Anyway i started to really like him but i didn’t think he liked me that way so i didn’t think to much about it then one day he asked me out via text message and i said yes! 

Oh shit, i now was dating two guys! How did i end up in that situation? I had to dump my other boyfriend over text. Still do feel bad about that. 

My DM and I dated for 18 months. It was very passionate but also very turmoil. it was if all emotions had been in heightened and we were mirroring each other. I didn’t know anything about the Twin Flame at the time. I just thought we just so toxic. If we weren't fighting we were having sex and it was just full on the whole thing and at the age of 15 i defiantly wasn't mature enough for this relationship. I was miserable and i know he was too but we loved each other so much! 

So one night he made the courageous decision to end it and it was the best thing that has ever happened for us. 

[thesecretlifeofjasmine]

Twin Flaming

Similar to Soul Mates in which souls are from the same soul group, Twin Flame’s also known as Twin Soul’s; are parts of the same soul, It is said to be a multiple parts to one soul. Many Twin Flames connect during their life span weather it for a brief moment or a lifetime together, they'll find a way to connect and help each other in the accession process.  Twin flame love is an extraordinary kind of love, it’s such a powerful thing for a human to experience. It’s a combination of love and the essence of your soul and being. It’s magical yet a burden. With such powerful love comes a powerful hate. I was fortunate enough to experience the Twin Flame love when i was fifteen, some may say i was too young to know what love was or because it was my first encounter in romance that it was simply “ the first love” love.  

But i knew it was the love of a Twin Flame, For someone who wasn’t interested in boys I fell hard and deep. I yearned for the scent of his skin, I can still smell it today. I can remember the shape of his hands, the way his skin touched mine, our bodies were like puzzle pieces and fit together perfectly, You never notice how suffocated you are until you meet your twin flame, just by being in their presence you get an overwhelming feeling of being able to breathe for the first time. 

Then comes that heart wrenching pain of being separated from them, It’s the equivalent of grieving a loved ones death, nothing can make you truly happy except your other half. 

With such a enormous intense emotion there are bound to be negatives. ..And there was.  I grew up as an only child so i was quite an independent person, i liked the sense of being free and doing my own thing. All a sudden my soul happiness came from just one person. We became inseparable, We understood each other, we had a similar way of thinking, same interests. I got to a point where I felt like i couldn’t enjoy time with my friends, i couldn’t enjoy relaxing on my own, I was not happy unless i was with my partner. I was so infatuated by this person i gave away myself and took on his personality, I couldn’t be myself anymore and this is when i came to resent him.

I hated the way i felt when i was with him, Our love was too strong and we began to turn on each other. I was fifteen and he was sixteen, we were way to young.  The fights, they were wicked, ask anyone in a Twin Flame relationship, I don’t think we’ve let anyone else see the sides of us that we’ve shown each other, I have never been so angry in my life then when i was with him, i saw a side of myself that scared me, He would scream at me with tears running down his face whilst throwing things around the house. I could see the pain he was in and it broke my heart. But i was naive and would say nasty things which angered him more, and yes we sometimes got physical with one another, emotions got amplified everything about us was so full on we didn’t understand it or control it. After a few hours of us cooling down on our own and one of us would join the other person and just sit in silence until someone spoke. We broke up…a lot!  I hated the way i felt about him, I couldn’t control it, i became miserable, i felt trapped by my own being and i couldn’t get out, Our love was becoming toxic, we both knew. I suspect he was in the same position, Trapped buy something more powerful than us.  I never thought the day would come, the day where i’d lose him for good.

It was Saturday night, We got into another massive fight on MSN Messenger and he ended our relationship after a year and a half of being together. I cannot remember another time i was in that much emotional pain, It was excruciating.I cried myself to sleep. I spent all Sunday lying in bed, I couldn’t move, couldn’t eat, couldn’t smile, couldn’t stop the tears from running down my face. I had lost a part of me. How was i going to survive now? We went to school together, so when Monday came around, I did not want to go, I felt so sick, the thought of seeing him made me want to vomit, I knew it would be as if a dagger had been stabbed and twisted into my torso. I was right, for the first time ever, I cried at School. 

It’s been just over five years since that day. I still see him from time to time, we don’t speak and i still get a gut wrenching pain when our souls reconnect, which reminds me of what we had and how real our love was. I am greatful to have shared that experience with him and to have shared our lives with one another for a brief moment,  Not going to lie, It took me three solid years, a lot of pain and hatred to be able to finally move on from my first love, and a long process to rediscover myself was made, I’m now on the other side and have come out a stronger and better person. 

Since then i had fallen in love with a new person, and he made me happy, we got along really well, never fought, it was the complete opposite of my previous relationship. But now that i look back on it, He wasn’t my other half, He didn’t make me feel like i could breathe again and i particularly wasn’t fond of the scent of his skin. He wasn’t the missing piece of my puzzle. I still look for my Twin Flame love, I hope to be as fortunate as my mother whom has met two of her Twin Flames, When done right, Twin Flame love is the most magical and beautiful thing that ceases to exist.

- J.J