The UC Senior

I'm starting a new chapter in my life. No matter now hard things get I hope to hold myself up and try to stay positive. We'll see how this goes.

[thesingleucsenior]

We’ll See I Guess

Sometimes I worry I am too reliant on other people to make me happy. I love spending time with people and quite honestly when I am alone I feel absolutely horrible. The feeling of being alone overwhelms me and I can just cry for hours. I’m not sure what I should do about it or if it’s just something that will go away after awhile. People always said that living by yourself can be liberating and that it’s really enjoyable. I 100% disagree. I have always lived with someone, whether it be my parents, or my friends at school, or the boyfriend at the time. I hate, hate, hate not having someone there. My anxiety level goes through the roof. I don’t know what I’m so afraid of though. I don’t even need them to entertain me I just like knowing that they’re there is I need something, or I need someone to snuggle up with and watch Netflix.  I really hope that I get over this because I feel like it will bite me in the ass later in life. We’ll see I guess. 

[theglasschild]

Take a shower, wash off the day. Drink a glass of water. Make the room dark. Lie down and close your eyes. Notice the silence. Notice your heart. Still beating. Still fighting. You made it, after all. You made it, another day. And you can make it one more. You’re doing just fine.

(via fawun)

[thesingleucsenior]

I fell asleep last night and somebody obviously didn't think I should sleep alone. :)) So my bf took a picture. #cuddletime #samson #dogsofinstagram #cincinnati #firstweekworking #love

[thesingleucsenior]

I opened my own etsy store! BecomeWireWrapped Feel free to share and tell others if they are interested in handmade jewelry pieces.. I can make custom pieces as long as you have some sort of idea of colors or themes! 

[thesingleucsenior]

Senior Spring Semester

Finally I am in my last semester of my senior year. It's been almost 4 years but time has flown. I can't believe that in a little less than 4 months I will be expected to get a job, make money, and actually pay for things myself. I have had friends come and go, relationships end and new ones begin, and I have had extremely hard classes where I wonder if I'm actually going to pass...  It sounds cliche, but with that being said I wouldn't change it for the world, I love my school and my major. I love the opportunities I've had and the people who have helped me with it all. I have a better grasp on who I am know and what I expect out of my relationships with other people, and what I will permit. 

I'm glad undergrad is almost done, but I am so glad I got to do it. 

[thesingleucsenior]

I'm in love with two guys

Before anyone judges, I have to clarify. One has 2 legs.. And one has 4. :) I got my dog Samson with my ex, hoping that if we had Samson in common we would work things out and be happier. This was obviously not the case. When we broke up I offered to share him, but it didn't take long for my ex say he didn't want him anymore. It baffled me. Samson is one of the most amazing dogs I ever met, he can be happy to just snuggle up with you all day and watch Netflix. Or he would love to go outside. I am 10000% glad I rescued him. He makes me smile even when I'm too upset to be happy, he loves me even on my worst days, and he's just happy to be around people. My boyfriend is just as wonderful. He came into my life when I has struggling with my soon to be over relationship. Even as just a friend he treated me incredibly well and showed me that I was deserving of being cared and being paid attention to. He even helped me as I moved out of the apartment I shared with my ex and began to start my new life. Since then I have had nothing but good times with him. My parents love him, he gets along with my friends, and he's open to do pretty much anything, from just watching movies to going out to a park with Samson. I even enjoy being able to do homework together. I haven't been this happy in a relationship in months. I'm so thrilled things are going the way I want them to and that I have someone to share it all with. I honestly couldn't ask for me.

[thesingleucsenior]

We're both procrastinating on this whole sleeping thing. We're going to be dead tomorrow. #sleep #couplesofinstagram #boyfriendsofinstagram #cincinnati #school #itsgoingtoberough

[thesingleucsenior]

My hair is crazy wavy when I let it air dry I don't known of I should love it or hate it. #hair #brunette #wavy #naturalhair #girlswithpiercings #cincinnati #uc

[figililly]

[thesingleucsenior]

This is basically my face when I wake up every morning. My cuteness is on point. 

[thesingleucsenior]

I don't understand

I hate when people feel like they have to hide things.  I was out with my bf earlier and saw was he was snap chatting another girl, & I am perfectly okay with that. What I'm not okay with is that he felt the need to try and hide it from me. Unless you're sending a snapchat of your dick or she's naked I don't really care. Like this is why I have trust issues. 

[thesingleucsenior]

Ok Then

I found out the other day that my ex started dating someone else a while ado. Surprisingly, I wasn't really upset at all, I have a boyfriend who I truthfully love and adore. But what bothered me was that before my boyfriend and I became official my ex guilt tripped the hell out of me for talking to someone so soon after our break up. To be honest, I am pretty sure that relationship was over well before we called it quits officially. But why would you make someone feel so bad for being happy with someone else, when  you're literally doing the same thing.  I truly hope that he's happy, but it was extremely that he did that to me. It's hypocritical and extremely unfair.  It goes back to the whole think about "remove the beam from your own eye, and then you will see clearly enough to remove the speck from your friend's eye". He had no room to talk but he felt the need to make me feel bad for feeling happy for the first time in a good month or so.  He said he wanted to remain friends, but after I learned that I highly doubt that will ever happen. 

[thesingleucsenior]

It's that simple

I've never been one to trust other people. It's so easy for people to lie or back out on their promises that trusting them seems almost pointless. I tend to be one of those people who try to see the good in everyone, but it's never 100% because you never know what is coming out of their mouth is the whole truth or not.  I am one of those girls who will look through messages and texts. And before someone says that sounds really controlling or weird, just think about it, if you have nothing to hide then there's nothing to worry about.  It's that simple

[aggsart]

[thesingleucsenior]

I just want my hair to be long again. These are beautiful

[frackowiaky-blog]

[thesingleucsenior]

It's hard for me to accept myself for who I am and what I look like.  Especially since I had severe weight gain with medicine I just came off of. 

[thesingleucsenior]

Throwback to my sister and I in DC about 7 years ago! It's so weird to think it was so long ago. We had so much fun. 

[whatshouldwecallsinglelife]

When I send my friend a bunch of screenshots of the conversation I'm having with a new guy

[thesingleucsenior]

My friends are the best for this. I don't know what I'd do without them. 

[whatshouldwecallsinglelife]

When I pregame with my best friend

[thesingleucsenior]

no matter what, I'm guarenteed to enjoy the night when I'm out with my friends. Whether it's a good night or bad, we always have something to look back on and laugh.