YO. i cant believe it its the soul from hit chonny jash album chonny's charming chaos compendium ‼‼ this is a ✨fictionkin blog✨ so that i may gleefully reblog everything cccc that floats to my dash without drowning my main blog ( @fallen--starlight ) further than it Already Is.
{very basic info}
any pronouns! nonbinary. 19 y/o! asks are & probably always will be OPEN! please send me stuff! talk with me! sourcemates are very very VERY welcome & encouraged to shoot an ask & have a chitchat. i am very mentally ill & very chill (●'◡'●)
{also in case i didnt make it clear this is Not an RP blog & i am personally Not into rp-ing ^_^ ok good we're all clear now}
i am asking you about headcanons. please share headcanons. spill the hcs {im very normal abt wholesoul & i must know the thoughts of the local authority with a phd on wholesoulology from the university of cccc}
ohh let me dig up some wholesoul thoughts...
soul likes to stargaze. something about being so small in an infinite universe is comforting for him in a strange way. in his dreams, he's in a field under the stars with whole, teaching him the constellations. whole just lies next to him silently the whole time, sadly staring out into space. soul doesn't know if he's really there, but he tells the same stories each night anyway.
soul doesn't have a lot of possessions of his own. he set his room up like a shrine to whole, not as his own bedroom. it's pristine, carefully curated, and devoid of any personal touches. when whole arrives, he encourages soul to decorate his room more. it takes soul a while to know what he even wants in it, he's so used to focusing on what whole would like that he doesn't know what he likes. eventually it becomes an eclectic hoard of both of their things :-)
soul gets pets... whole does it absentmindedly once + soul's tail wags so hard that it slaps whole's leg. so now he gets pets whenever they cuddle. sometimes whole braids his hair too
whole paints soul's nails... soul is a chronic nail biter but he would never ever ruin whole's work, so it helps him to stop chewing on them
cheek kisses... soul gets lipstick all over whole's face. got too excited to see my cat etc. etc. and whole kisses soul on the forehead a lot when he's on her lap :-)
ok ok wholesoul rambling christmas edition because im Feelin a Certain Way and youre the wholesoul authority in my head youre just the wholesoul guy. consider :
the holidays roll around and soul is, one one claw, HEAVILY squicked out by all the nativity stuff and jesus stuff and general christian-holiday business talking about "jesus is god" and all that. hes like No yourw wrong youre so wrong. you see, random white lady, god is actually this specific yellow dude
but on the other claw, it doesnt help his obsessiveness much. he makes little gifts for whole that he knows he wont ever get the chance to give, whether physically, or restrained by his own nervousness. he keeps heart and mind as civil as he can because "HEY ITS CHRISTMAS STOP ARGUING BE JOLLY" but its so much more draining. he wishes so badly whole could be here. he wishes the headspace had a fireplace he could lay in front of, the others asleep and safe and okay, with his sovereign there next to him. everything would be perfect. but that isnt happening, right? it could never. whole would never, surely.
also heart and mind find a little cardboard-cutout-whole ornament on the tree (somehow they got a tree into the headspace idk) and are very perplexed and soul is like I MADE IT MYSELF :DDDDD
idk how well this aligns with your hcs but we ball
I am Honored to be the wholesoul guy. I love them so so much it's insane
it's not often that soul gets to celebrate christmas during the loops, since the day usually doesn't happen during concord. he likes to pretend, though. pretend that he can have a normal holiday. he likes decorating the house, wrapping presents that he'll never give, making stockings they'll never use {and if he makes one for whole and stuffs it full of presents, hoping desperately that maybe He would see them somehow, what's the harm in that?} he tries desperately to keep the peace as his christmas gift to whole, begging them to get along and have christmas spirit- it's mostly an excuse, but at least they're not trying to kill each other today. he's exhausted from trying to make everything perfect that day, but maybe whole will be proud of him grateful for it.
re: religion, soul is generally kind of uncomfortable around christianity (see: two wuv), and I think that religious trauma informs how he sees whole. after all, in christianity suffering is seen as just and holy, and soul definitely sees his suffering as a form of worship. he's the ultimate martyr, the sacrificial lamb, using his pain as devotion because otherwise it's just pain with no meaning. he desperately wants all this to mean something, to be appreciated and his god be proud of everything he's gone through. it's also a more comforting religious experience, one untainted by past experiences. he knows that the christian god would hate him, but he can at least pretend that whole would love him. and he revels in that. clings to the possibility like a drowning man clings to a life preserver.
fun fact about that last part! my upcoming work actually has a passage about soul drawing whole:
It's never seen Whole, not exactly. Not like this. It sees Him in brief flashes, more of an impression of a face than His true visage. It's a face he's tried to recreate, to draw over and over, every single loop, so he doesn't forget what it looks like.
{He refuses to look at his own for a reference. It feels blasphemous, to imply he could ever be comparable to Harmonia.}
and in the beautiful world I've crafted in my brain where they can interact, I think soul would be so incredibly nervous getting anything for whole. after all, what do you possibly get a god? how could your gift possibly be enough for divinity? he tries dozens of ideas: a tacky gag gift to make him laugh {too disrespectful}, a handmade gift {his work could never be good enough}, a simple gift {too mundane for a god}, an over the top extravagant one {too flashy for someone like whole}...
eventualy whole finds him sitting in his room, half-finished and destroyed gifts strewn across the floor. he says it's okay if he doesn't give whole something perfect, that the fact someone cared about him enough to want to give him a gift is the perfect present :-)
It's something he'll never admit, even to himself. He likes the way his Mind and Heart flinch whenever he catches them arguing. He likes how every room goes silent when he enters. He likes the weight of his trident in his hands, knowing its presence will quell the Cacophony, if only for a moment.
There are very few things Soul has control over. He can't stop Concord from ending. He can't break the cycle of Cacophony. He can't even control himself, because his life is not his own. He's just a placeholder, a shard of a shattered window, a sacrificial lamb who can never quite die.
There's one thing he can control, though.
Fear.
The fear of regicide. The fear of pain. The fear of consequence.
Soul doesn't think he's a cruel person. {He likes to think that, at least. Likes to imagine himself without sharp teeth and bloodied claws.} Is a starved lion cruel for hunting humans? Injured and hungry, unable to catch anything else?
He thinks a lot about symbiosis. He calls the others parasites, feeding off their host. Draining him of sympathy. Soul prides himself on mutualism instead. He gets the power of being the host, a sliver of freedom in this helpless loop, and in return, he keeps trying again and again to become one.
{He thinks about how mimicry is a form of symbiosis. How mimics can be parasites too, powerless creatures leeching off the image of another to be feared instead of afraid. Is he Batesian or Müllerian?}
Yes, Soul relishes control. But what else does he have left?
it’s so funny watching people make me act as if i worship the very dirt footprints that whole makes with every stride. like no bitch IM the one with the god complex. i moreso get in trouble with whole like im a kid who’s throwing a fit and he’s the parent. i KNOW how uncool this mfer is IM APART OF HIM!!!! I JUST WANT DINGUS AND WINGUS (mind and heart) TO STOP FUCKING FIGHTING FOR TWO SECONDS!!!!!
~🦊🪡 (as the soul from chonny’s charming chaos compendium)
I’ll be honest I have no idea why these two resonate so much with me, they barely interact in the album one on one. But I think they’re really cute and I’m kissing them on the tops of their heads. They have so much potential.
(Please don’t crucify me for any of this, I acknowledge that some of my takes may be ooc. This is all based on interpretation and whimsy. Soul is hard for me to characterize.)
My version of Soul is tired. He’s driven to drastic decisions that he does not want to do. He loves his Heart and his Mind with his entire being just as much as he hates them, they’re him! They’re a package deal! But in Cacophony Heart and Mind are far too absorbed with their rivalry to really acknowledge him unless it’s to turn the argument in their favor. He feels ostracized and used, more like something to be fought over than a friend. I think he’s really lonely.
And then you have Heart. Someone who yearns to be understood but struggles to express himself in a healthy way. He craves for unity just as much as Soul and Mind do, but ultimately crumbles beneath his own perception of the others and his loathing. He wants to love, he has the capacity to if he is the entire emotion spectrum, he just can’t express it right now because of everything going on inside his head.
Soul really needs a hug and to feel loved -> Heart really needs a hug and to feel understood
Both are incredibly lonely in their own ways, but they also have the ability to be mutually beneficial for each other in Cacophony.
Assuming Soul is half and half of both sides, he’s able to understand and at least sympathize with Hearts point of view. He doesn’t agree with it, he can see past all of the twisted perceptions, but he’s able to provide the sympathy/understanding that Heart needs. No matter how small. And in turn Heart is able to provide that brief feeling of togetherness and unity. Heart is most likely the easiest to connect with on a surface level, and therefore the best option for when Soul is feeling down and hopeless.
Heart thinks the entire world is against him, he believes that Mind and by extension Soul hate him and want him gone. Soul is able to quell the moons worries, at least for the night. Soul believes that his sides hate him just as much as they hate each other, he wants them all to get along. Heart can provide that feeling of unity, physical touch acting as a form of reassurance and communication. He can pretend that everything is good for a moment and that the warm body beside him is how it’s supposed to be.
I headcanon Mind as touch adverse and Heart as very physical, so Soul is the perfect middle ground! Heart and Soul are able to connect on a very emotional level, and therefore have an easier time showing affection and being close. Lots of cuddles! Lots of comforting! They don’t have to talk, there’s no pressure, they can just hug and everything melts aways. They want to keep each other safe and happy.
Their relationship is so appealing because there’s no barrier between them. They can connect with and understand each other on a very emotional level, switching seamlessly between comforter and comfortee in most scenarios.
I have a lot to say about them in an angst sense, but it delves a bit too far into headcanons and is incredibly long. That’s a discussion for another time, I’m trying to focus on the positives of their dynamic here. Heart and Soul angst absolutely cooks though, trust.
I may be delusional. But in my HEART and in my SOUL they are very close. They share the same night sky! The moon orbits the earth and controls the tides! You can only see the stars when it’s night time!!!!
(Quickly going to clarify that I personally accept a lot of different interpretations of Hearts blindness as canon, I generally like and accept most headcanons even if they conflict with eachother. Soul blinded Heart? Cool. Mind blinded Heart? Epic. Heart was always blind? Awesome. I personally don’t really care and I think all of them can be true simultaneously. Why the hell not, time does not exist on a linear scale. I don’t agree with Soul being 100% an abuser though, he’s just as much of a complicated victim as the other two.
I personally like the idea that Heart did it to himself in apathy the most. Doodle Heart has subscribed to that, as will all/most of my interpretations of him. My Soul didn’t hurt him in that way. And I think he was actually quite mortified when he found out.)
Be silly be goofy, do whatever the hell you want, at the end of the day this is my own personal point of view. They swim in my brain like little amoeba and have rerouted all my nerves. I’m definitely more inclined to be soft on them so take everything I’ve said with a grain of salt. My ass is biased. On my hands and knees begging for more content of them though. PLEASE.
On a less serious note. I think Heart is Souls little guy. He love him :(
