[thesufferingofjules]

Für etwas Besonderes, steht man alles durch.

Man wirft sowas nicht einfach weg.

Man muss behutsam damit sein.

Vielleicht findet man sowas nie wieder.

[thesufferingofjules]

Hate and love are so close, yet so far away form each other.

- The difference is that hate leads you nowhere else but beside a dark road you‘ll have to walk alone.

[thesufferingofjules]

Hate is a temporary source of strength. - And if you‘re abusing it‘ll cost more and more parts of your soul.

[thesufferingofjules]

No one‘s sorry until one recognizes the total consequences.

[thesufferingofjules]

Black is a color for the ones who can really see the dark .

[thesufferingofjules]

Every angel that falls due to betrayal, gets intoxicated with trust issues, pain and hate so that a new demon comes alive.

Know your angels and treat them right.

[thesufferingofjules]

I deal in absolutes. - I hate with every fiber of my body and love with every piece of my heart.

[thesufferingofjules]

Don’t let a miserable past ruin your personality. You can do better everyday for sure. - Some people are just not smart enough to see this and do so.

[thesufferingofjules]

A heart that’s full of hate used to love the most, but no one ever comes to the love’s funeral because everyone rather witnesses the birth if hate.

[thesufferingofjules]

Anger and hate won‘t make you strong. - It‘ll let you suffer the most and is the absolute level of being emotionally lost.

[thesufferingofjules]

Everything‘s aching, I can‘t breathe due to this pain. - I feel like sitting on a bench, all alone, during a heavy rain.

[thesufferingofjules]

You can find them everywhere. - Fake people.

I’ve found tons of them.

You cannot see them sometimes, because their apparition seems nice and charming.

But they’re here. - Everywhere.

Don’t you underestimate what such a person can do to you. - They break your heart just as your trust.

There’s no escaping from these people.

We all have to make these experience of getting backstabbed.

But there’s strings attached to it. - You’ll either become stronger after you’re getting backstabbed or you’re left, broken instead.

Be careful gurys...

[thesufferingofjules]

Lies.

Everywhere I listen to, I only hear lies.

“I love you” - A lie.

“I’ll never hurt you”. - A lie.

It’s all lies.

You better be somebody who rather dies than telling lies.

[thesufferingofjules]

My soul feels like it‘s soaked in hate. Memories from deep below are coming up. Shutting down the positive feelings. I have nothing to give anymore. I exist.

[thesufferingofjules]

It‘s violently silent all around me.

What is it that this silence‘s causing?

I really don‘t know.

I sink in, to my bed.

I can only think about ....

It haunts me.

In my dreams, as in reality.

What is this feeling?

Am I drowning in emotions?

Seems like I do...

[thesufferingofjules]

They say „Pain is temporary“.

It‘s not for me.

It finds it‘s way inside my body, my soul.

It lives there and eats me up from the inside.

It won‘t stop until I‘m hollow.

It hurts so much.

I want to cry.

I want to scream, but I am paralyzed.

What should I do?

Giving up is not an option.

Not this time...

[thesufferingofjules]

It doesn‘t matter what I am doing.

I‘m doing it wrong...

Why should I even try?

What would it be for?

It goes to waste anyways.

Because of me.

Always.