The Full-Figured Tattooed Beauty

Write a little bit about everyday life of a mom & wife or just whatever gets into my mind at the time.

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Gonna be real my depression/aniexty has been getting the best of me lately. So I finally said fuck it you gotta get back in beast mode and start moving around doing workout/dance whatever. So did my first one in like a week I believe. With my son being home for a while now learning remotely I been letting myself go cause I’m stressed out by end of day and need a break so I just read instead of this but I’m back and I refuse to let everything get to me. To me it isn’t about losing weight per say. It’s bout getting back something I do for just me, at the end of the day I have to take care of myself mentally and physically to be able to be there for my family. So this is me trying to make staying healthy fun and to just get back me. I have lost me and it isn’t a good feeling. Here’s to all the stay at home moms/wife and dads/husbands who stay home and here all the time you don’t have a real job, you must sit on your ass all day. We have the hardest job of all that doesn’t pay we are taking care of our children (the next generation) we are feeding them, making sure their homework is done, cleaning up after them (til they can help) we take care of their booboos and wipe their noses and hold their hands when they are scared, we help them deal with the everyday problems they face, we com, clean, organize appointments (drs,ect) we take them to their sports/dance games whatnot, we don’t get sick time or holiday time. Our job isn’t really ever done it’s 24/7 and it’s hard and stressful and it matters it what helps keep the glue together while our spouse work to be able to provide for us and our children and their job is hard too and long no job is without their ups and downs (let’s normalize being stay at home parent/spouse and or working parent they both are important) we all need time and breaks to ourselves, here’s to me getting that. I know my body/mind will appreciate it and whoever wants to come on this journey let’s do it together (no matter distant) we can lean on each other and be healthy together!!

Wednesday-9/7 workout number one today~ 40 minutes of just dance!

~~~ all it takes it getting up and moving doesn’t matter what, it’s moving around getting hard rate going that will help mentally and physically 🙂 hope everyone has a blessed day! 💜

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I have always had issues with my body, I have never really been thin when I have been a teen/adult. I have always been Full figured/ or overweight is what the doctors would say. I hate overweight and fat and most of all obese. Those words are just hurtful. Yes us plus size girls or full figured we know we are big, we don't always need it pointed out to us in such cruel ways (that's just wrong). We all deserved to be treated right and loved for who we are, not what we look like. I know the world is run by sex appeal, but don't you think any size, shape, color, race, body type, sexual orientation should be treated the same with respect and love. I hate hate in general. Life is hard in general with everything going on war, gas prices going up, living cost going up, groceries, child care, bills, car payments, ect. Being an adult is hard and sucks at times. Growing up us children when we were children thought grown up life would be so much better, that we would have such a great life being able to do what we want. Spend money how we chose to spend money and just be able to stay up all night. Then we wake up and realize being a child is so much better, less stress not having to work everyday. We didn't have to deal with the very real adult problems of the world that our parents had to deal with that we now face being adults ourselves having families of our own or just being responsible for putting a roof over our own heads and all the stuff we need. What I wouldn't give to have it easier but I know that isn't gonna happen for a while yet. I'm sure others understand trying to balance and pay everything and not having enough for everything or falling behind. Life is hard but rewarding watching ourselves being able to at least figure shit out and hopefully do right by ourselves and our children and ect. Life is what we make it and I say we bake in the accomplishments we do complete and love ourselves as much as our family and loved ones do. We only get one life so we need to make the best of it and just live everyday like its our last. LOVE is LOVE and no one should feel bad about who they love or anything that involves love and who they are on the inside and outside.

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A magical outlet

While everyone is sleeping most of the time I am up. My mind doesn't wanna shut off very often. I am always thinking about something or just too wired up to sleep. I guess I have always been like this, I've always been able to function on 3-4 hours of sleep and some nights I would stay up all night. Life isn't always easy so a lot of my downtime when my kids are asleep is when I tend to either write in my journals, Yes I use to have a diary/Journal I don't always write in it all the time but I do like to write about what is going through my mind at the time. It can be about what I have gone through that day or stuff from my past I am still dealing with. Someday I think I would like to write about my life or some of the stuff I have gone through, kind of like a memoir. Who knows what will happen in the future. I have always loved reading and writing anything that I could really write about that has interested me.

Life isn't always easy so I still to stuff I do know. Writing about my life and the tough times I've gone through or just to write stuff down so I don't forget it. I have issues with long term memory. My mom told me the doctor said I would have to write stuff down if I wanted to remember it. Hey its life, I don't know any better so it really doesn't bother me in the least. A lot of my childhood til about 10 I don't really remember everything. I remember pieces. Which stuff I have had to deal with I'm glad in these times I don't remember it all.

With writing I have also LOVED reading it has always been an escape for me when there was something in my life that weighed heavily on my mind. I struggled with reading for years growing up cause I am dyslexic. I found ways to understand what I was reading so I could enjoy it and I'm glad for it. I worked hard but I have always pushed ahead when it was something I was passionate about. Reading is really magical and I really enjoy it. Reading can take you to any place, time period and hell you can even read about shifters, vampires, witches and all kinds of other stuff. I'm big into reading all about romances from romantic comedies, to smut, to dark romances, to shifter romances and magical romances with witches and vampires. I love MC Romances and Military romances and just all the in between. I remember reading my first romance I believe it was a Sandra Brown romance that at 12 probably shouldn't have been reading but I had also was reading those harlequin books that I loved and was reading 2-3 in a day during the weekend growing up.

What are some of the things that your passionate about, that you enjoy doing that helps when you are down and need an outlet to forget for a little bit? I hope you have something like I have with reading/writing and I also have it with music too. There are a lot of outlets you can have to help when you need it.

I hope everyone has a blessed night!

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Mom Life

Mom life is hard. There is a lot of times when you stop taking care of yourself cause your so in tune with your children's needs and wants or your husband's needs and wants. You kind of go to the back burner with your mental and physical health. I have taken that times over the last 10 years but there's always a time in between where I just get to involved in everything else a mom does and forget about myself. I am a type two diabetic and there are times where I forget to do things for myself to help better it, if its being too tired in am to workout or after a day of doing things for everyone else to workout. I know I got to get better about fitting it in. I fit in reading and other stuff for myself. I need to become that beast mode mama and workout again. I am starting today I don't care how tired I am. I am gonna start and keep going to keep myself in shape it helps my mental health where I don't look in the mirror and see someone I hate. I am body positive it doesn't have nothing to do with that, its growing up and hearing my whole life that I'm fat and only thing I have going for myself is my big chest size. I hated I heard that from family well family meaning my stepfather who are just awful growing up. I refuse to let that bother me. Everyone was made different and we are all beautiful inside and out. I refuse to let myself sink, this is my way of starting up to find myself and learn to love myself and eat better and exercise even if its dancing around my house. I have to make that time for me. I also will always make time for my family but if I don't keep up with me I will fade away and get sick and that isn't what I want. SO this is me getting back on the band wagon and saying I GOT THIS SHIT!!!

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BULLYING! It needs to stop!

I have to say being a mom isn't easy all the time. I love being a mom, but sometimes I wanna just scream. My youngest is getting bullied in the school he's in on and off since he's been in it. I have to say I am getting highly upset. I have called the school and talked to the principal in the past and talked to the assistant principal and told them what is going on. It isn't even kids in the same grade as him, their younger than him. I have told him to not do anything back but then nothing gets settled. I have always said fighting violence with violence doesn't work. But I have gone through proper channels with no solution to him not getting bullied, I'm not sure what's the punishment for these children cause of laws, but it seems like once they fix one incident another one happens. It isn't just one kid either, it has been a bit of kids from his bus. I'm getting beyond mad that my kid is being targeted and bullied for what, I have no clue. It doesn't matter at this point what matters is that he should feel safe in the school he is at. So I told him to fight back, I've always told my kids I don't beat them at home. I do not expect my kids to go to school and not feel safe and get hurt at school by other students. My child has been choked which good thing didn't cause bruising most likely cause it was a younger kid who did it. He has been punched, slapped, called nasty nasty names I would never call someone. They have made fun of his hair when it was longer, they make fun of his weight which come on, do better. They have made fun of his sexuality, calling him gay. Which I have told him what that is and he has expressed he isn't. Which even if he was I would totally support him. LOVE IS LOVE. I've always been a big supporter of LOVE IS LOVE and people should be able to love whoever they love. I have gay/lesbian/BI friends. I don't know how children can be so hateful. I have told my children never to put their hands on anyone unless someone hurts them first, Even then sometimes I'm not too sure. But it has happened numerous times and I finally told them do what they have to, cause if it isn't gonna stop why shouldn't they be able to defend themselves. Parents need to teach their children to be better. That regardless what they shouldn't hate/hurt other children. That their words and their fist hurt and they shouldn't do to others what they don't want happening to themselves. Hate is awful and we should all treat others the way we want to be treated. I have always expressed this to my children and I will always enforce it, it is so important to treat others with love, respect and just how you would want to be treated. We all must do better to help shape our children into people that would help the world be a better place. I love my children yes I ain't the perfect parent, but I always am there for my child when they are getting hurt and I refuse to see my children so sad. Lets end bullying! LETS do BETTER!

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Life goes on...

Putting my feelings into words has never been a problem for me since I was younger, in my teens. I have issues with getting my point across to people I love cause some of them are hard headed in the past and just couldn't believe what was coming out of my mouth. I really wanted to scream sometimes during my almost teens and my teens. I didn't have it easy growing up, which I don't regret now cause it shaped me into who I am today. I don't wish that for my children though, so I let them be a kid and don't give them too many responsibilities. Yes I still make them do some stuff to realize you have to do stuff for a living so they don't think they aren't shitheads. Yes I said it I don't want my kids to be shit heads.

I grew up helping my mom with my younger brother and sister while of course she worked to keep food on the top and a roof over our heads. Yes I had a stepdad who is my sisters father, but he was truly useless at times. He drank a lot while she was with him during me growing up he worked at a bar when she met him. I didn't really like him and I wanted my dad cause we have moved away from him and he didn't really bother with me. Then she brings another man into her life and my life. I didn't want him to be this replacement dad at all. She had my sister a couple years later and they got married and she wanted me to call him dad, mind you that never really happened. I did it for a while got confused didn't like the way he treated me at all. I didn't live long with either my mom or stepfather once I turned 19. Since then I have had a really strained relationship with him over the years, now I don't even talk to him and I'm happier for it. I won't get into all the other shit that happened. I have issues in my family just like any other family.

Life is only what you make of it, yes I don't have all good memories but I treasure the good memories I have of my mom, I forgave her for marrying a jerk who didn't treat her right or the kid she had with him or me or my other sibling that wasn't his. My mom blessed her soul couldn't be alone. She always thought she couldn't do any better. But my mom never realized it didn't matter about her weight it was the beautiful soul she had inside her that mattered. If a guy didn't like her for that she should have stayed away from them.

My mom has been gone now for 6 years and it doesn't get easy doesn't matter how many days have passed. It still feels like it was yesterday. She died from cancer and let me tell you watching a loved one die from this AWFUL disease is so heart broken and I wouldn't wish this on anymore. It's painful to watch a loved one in so much pain over and over, and not be able to do anything about it. I wanted to break down everyday and I knew I couldn't cause I had to be strong for my siblings and my children who were pretty little at the time. I am glad for the memories my siblings and I got to have with my mom, I am grateful she got to have a relationship with her grandkids (my kids) before she passed away.

Life does sometimes bring you down and make you really be grateful that you have the stuff you do have in your life and the people also. It made me realize who truly wanted to be in my life and in my children's life. I won't ever let anyone who doesn't deserve to be in my life or my children lives. Family/Friends have truly showed me what it is I don't want in my future and around my children. The people that truly wanted to be in our lives have showed it everyday. I refuse to let drama in my life, I am old enough to know it solves shit to deal with family/friend drama and just say I don't want that and just to separate yourself from that kind of life. It is so less stressful when I don't have to deal with yelling and screaming and just drama. I love the life we have and the quietness we have bought by not living really close to anyone that has drag us down.

I have learned in my life to not let people have that power over your life. That I deserve to be happy and stress free from drama that I don't need.

My favorite quote that will go well with this post is

Life goes on!

I truly believe this. I hope someone can feel better reading this if they have a similar situation and feel comfort that they aren't alone in this world.

I end this post with I hope you have a blessed day. <3

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A Mother's Rant

So If I forget to post anything tomorrow. Happy Mother's Day to all the Mom's, Step Mom, Foster Mom's, Grandma's, Aunt's, Any women who is the the mom figure to some kids. I hope you all have a great day.

I would like to start this post with saying I've been a mother for almost 14 years. My oldest will be 14 years old soon. I have to say it is the most rewarding thing I have accomplished is being a mom. I ain't perfect I cuss, I get mad, upset, sad. I have days where it is hard and just want to stay in bed. But I don't do that, I have my kids and know I have to be strong for them. Sometimes I don't want to be strong, but know my kids deserve me at my best. This is why I need to find time for me to deal with my mental health and physical health and be able to juggle it all being a mom, a provider at times, a shoulder to lean on, a cook, a cleaner, ect for my kids who need me but also be able to find time to think about my problems and find a solution. Mom time I call it, to either read, mediated to help with my mental health or just to do nothing at all. I always am busy trying to figure everything out for my kids and husband I tend to put myself to the back burner and forget I need to take of myself to. I need to start working out again and take my health by the balls again and become that bad ass lioness who worked out and found that it really helped with what was bothering me. I need to make time for me, even if it is late at night or when the kids are out of school. My boys are bigger now they can help out around the house with a little chores, with still being kids and enjoying their childhood. I know some mom's feel like me and think it's selfish to take time for ourselves but we really think it for our mental health. We need time to have us time, being a parent/ mom is important but so is having time for ourselves to do stuff we enjoy, not just our chores we do around the house at night or doing the day or whenever. Doesn't matter if your a stay at home mom or a working mom our jobs are never done as a mother. It really is a 24/7 day kind of job that never ends and we don't get paid for it, but truly is the most rewarding title we will ever have, well I feel that way.

So What I hope every mom will take from this we shouldn't just be treasured every mother's day we should be treasured by our children everyday like we do for our children. I love being a mom it is hard at times and makes you wanna pull your hair out at times and just want to scream, but remember this you aren't alone. I have had days like this and it is okay to feel like this but remember this you have that wonderful kiddo that is a perfect blend of you and your partners and they love you unconditionally. Everything will be okay, just remember that and have a blessed day!

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So Damn true. 

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A closeup on a topic that’s important to me

My blog is gonna be a little different. I have had blogs in the past. I really would like to write about issues or problems that happen in my life. I want to make this more of a peak into my life. I am more of an open book and I would love to share my life with you, well the parts I will share. I won't name any names in this blog to protect my family, internet isn't always safe. But I would like to share what it is like in my world. A little peak into a life of a stay at home mommy and wife. Your welcome to check it out and comment. I love hearing from people. Hey you can comment with your thoughts and fears, it is a safe space. We all need that and I would like to do that here.

First blog I would like to go into disabilities as a parent and if you have children fighting the same thing as yourself. So a little more into this topic is below, I truly hope you read my blog and maybe if help you or if you are in the same boat, help you feel like you aren't alone. Everyone needs a space to rant/open up and have some positive feedback.

I didn't always believe it was easy to read and understand what I was reading, I have a lot of issues with it growing up and was diagnosed with a learning disability called dyslexia. So I finally knew why I took longer to read and had to write things down about what I read to understand fully what I was reading. I also was determined to read and understand what I was reading, and actually enjoy what I was reading. It was a long battle through school when I was growing up, but then I found a way to actually read and understand, it took longer than most. But I was determined to love what I read and totally understand it and just finish high school so I could have that achievement.  But now I can read and understand what I am reading, I keep a log of what I have read and I blog about what I read so I don't forget. I love to read.

There are still times when I get messed up with what I am reading or it's confusing if the author keeps going from past to present, but I don't give up and I refuse to sink. If I can do it anyone can do it. Just takes a lot of hard work and understand you may fail at times. But to pick yourself back up and you keep on trying and that you will accomplish your goals if you just keep on trying.

I impress to my children to do the same, to try their best and they can achieve anything they set their minds too. I know they get mad when they can't figure something out the first time; or that they learn at a longer time period as another. I tell my kids that everyone is different and we all learn in different ways. That if you don't learn that way, to try another way. Write it down if you have to, repeatedly write it down if it helps you.  I try to get my children to know that they can be whatever they want to as a career when they get older that just because they learn differently and have a learning disability they aren't no different than anyone else. I want my children to grow up and not have to struggle, I know everyone wants that for their children.  

So what I am trying to impress that anyone can do what they set their mind to regardless of disability. I would love to someday maybe write my own book or write a blog like this that can help other people and maybe become a job. I have always loved to write and I love writing down my feelings, or writing about the books I read or just something that I am passionate about.

We all need to feel like we have a purpose in this world and regardless of anything, there's truly nothing standing in your way of achieving that besides yourself. I truly hope this can help someone feel not so lonely in their own battles or just open someone's eyes about disabilities cause theres more then what I was writing about. So what you take from this is up to you. I hope I can at least brightening someone's day and make them not feel so alone. We can all use someone to bounce ideas or fears to, to feel like we aren't being judged by who we are. I hope you all have a blessed night.