Apparently top surgery is grounds for excommunication so I guess I’m getting fucking excommunicated.
I went to the prophet devotional on Saturday in Seattle and he spoke of welcoming everyone and yet:
Because I am trans I cannot go in temples.
Because I am literally going to be kicked out of the Mormon church.
Because I am lgbt some of my best friends from church have shunned me, girls I had considered my best friends.
Because I am trans I do not attend 3rd hour of church or mutual bc I refuse to go to young women’s and am not allowed into young mens.
Because I am gay I cannot be with whomever I marry for eternity.
Because my sister is gay she also cannot.
Because she is a woman she is seen as not supposed to go to school or have a career because being a mother is more important than having a life.
Because we are homosexual, should our children decide to join this church, they have to denounce us and our “lifestyle”.
Because we are lgbt, despite being sealed to our family in the temple, we cannot be with our families forever.
We are seen as dirty and sinful for things we absolutely cannot change about ourselves.
And people dare to ask me why I hate this sinful church that falsely proclaims to be the only true church of a god and Jesus who loves everyone
Except my bisexual aunt and mother
Except so many other lgbt Mormon youth who are believed to not be in heaven right this very second because they would have rather died than continue living in this church.
I refuse to believe in a god who doesn’t accept all his children whom he lovingly created in his image.
You can’t cherry pick like that.
If I believe in a god, I believe in one who loves me
Loves my family now and my future family.
I refuse to believe in a god that allowed my parents to pour their heart and soul into a church from a young age for the sake of an eternal family they are now being told they can’t have because their children are lgbt.
I refuse to believe in a god that supports men who abuse women being in power positions and pays off these hurt women so that their “repentance” bullshit doesn’t come to light.
I am aware the church does do some good things but those absolutely do not outweigh all of the bad.
I feel such a burning, raging, hatred for all of the Mormons hurting innocent people and the ones allowing the pain to continue.
Mormonism is not a church.
It is not powered by god any longer, if it ever was.
And you cannot change my mind.
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