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do you think hudson had ever been lifted like that while being kissed before…….. bc im just saying if that was me that kinda thing would’ve cast a spell on me for life
Alright y'all, after seeing some comments on here and Twitter the powers that be are moving weird and it feels like it's personal, as in there are some lurkers 👀who care a little too much about what we think. I'm just going to comment on some things that others have brought up.
Anastasia and Aika: Both Hudson's stylist who also dressed K for VF, and his groomer did their "part" to promote H/K at the VF party. Posting stories and pictures of them and using that stupid hashtag 🙄. But people pointed out recently that it appears Aika is the only one still playing this game, and Anastasia has pulled back. I find that interesting. We know that K hung out with Aika when they were in Europe together. If she's truly cool with K like that then fine, but the whole thing just gives me the ick.
Editing Connor: The publications and media outlets editing out Hudson's mentions of Connor yesterday in print and video reposts is Wack as hell. Especially because everything he said was completely innocent nice things about his costar, co-lead, and best friend. They're just making it too obvious and weird for no damn reason. Especially because the only people super happy about those Hudcon mentions were us in the Fandom. Which brings me to the fact that Hudson's team, or PR managers, and all the rest are lurking on social media seeing our reaction to things. What's weird about that is the media has gone to great lengths to paint all Hudcons as "crazy fangirls 🤪" so why be so pressed about what we think about the nature of Hudcon's relationshp?
Hollywood Already Knows: Remember when the media had this to say about Hudson and Connor at the CAA Pre-Oscar party.
"While CAA’s pre-Oscars party is typically a private kickoff to awards weekend, it has long been viewed as a key networking event where industry relationships are reinforced, and future collaborations quietly take shape. Williams and Storrie spending much of the evening together did not go unnoticed among agents, publicists and studio insiders attending the event."
Remember Connor's "date" for the VA party was a Director, Nia DaCosta. Everybody wants to talk to Hudcon at these events. If anyone suspects that Hudson and Connor are both Queer, and more than friends, the cat's out the bag. The industry has seen them together. Now we have to see if this affects their careers at all, but I still think it's too early to say. Is it a strong possibility that this H/K push has to do with marketing him to a Straight audience, sure, but everybody knows he was on the "Gay Hockey Show" and he's off to film another season of said show this summer. Bottom line is if his PR team didn't want rumors of Hudson being Queer to affect his career, they're doing a shit job of managing it. Because he could've tastefully posted K or brought her up every now and again, if they wanted that reminder. The big role out of a private citizen as the gf of an actor who has been famous for 5 minutes is beyond ridiculous. It's overkill and and it's annoying, and I doubt anybody in Hollywood gives two shits about K 🤷🏽♀️. Mabye if Hudson was dating another actress I could see Hollywood caring, but a regular girl from Vancouver that he has to be forced to mention? I don't think so. But what do I know.
This feels personal: I know Queer actors having beards and being put in PR relationships is a tale as old as time. But it seems like that has more to do with rumors around an actor's sexuality and not necessarily a same sex relationship they're in. Which is why all of this H/K mess is so weird. There are no Gay or Queer rumors about Hudson outside the Fandom. We're the only ones who think he's Queer. The mainstream media, and GP is happy to call him Straight every chance they get. They're eating this shit up and they all hate "shippers." It makes no sense to try and distance himself from the Queer project that made him famous, especially when he was already doing Queer art before Heated Rivalry. Which brings this back to Connor. Initially I thought that K being in the picture was a cover so that people wouldn't look to closely at Hudcon, and honestly, I really only came around to that idea after VF. To me Hudcon saying they're best friends who are really affectionate was enough of a cover to me. But now this seems to be a campaign directed at any thought or hint that Hudcon is together to the point where any reference even as Hudson's costar and friend is diminished or erased, and there is a weird animosity towards Connor himself, that makes it hard to believe this has anything to do with protecting Hudcon. If this is a plan from his PR team, then they need to be fired because they suck at it and it shows. If you want to drop information on a straight relationship it should look like this 👇🏽
The couple is by themselves (as much as you can be with paparazzi around 🙃) with a shot of them hugging intimately, and her riding on his bike. In the picture of them walking down the street they're not touching, but she's not walking 10 ft. behind, and the other pictures off set it. Awkward group photos where Hudson is never touching K and solo photos that look staged are to no one's benefit, especially because who are they for? Like I said Hollywood has seen Hudcon up close and personal, and we'll wait to see how that plays out, although Hudcon being an open secret just seems the most plausible to me right now. The GP and Media are buying it. So why be so pressed that a few of us on the Internet aren't convinced?
This post wasn't done to give any answers, I just had to get my thoughts out, because this thing gets weirder by the day. Back when the C/F shit hit a frenzy pitch in early February it peaked, then tapered off, and then was DOA by the time of the GLAAD Awards , and an afterthought if that at the Oscars The performance last weekend to me was the H/K saga on its last legs. I really don't care how or if we see K again. She's always been a non-factor to me, and this charade isn't sustainable. Let's just make it to Season 2 filming and tune out the mess the best we can.
Bomp the way you write about Hudson… I genuinely haven’t seen another person actually write it all on paper ever. It’s either they don’t understand him at all or they don’t share what they actually see, but you will always write something so beautifully thought. That whole thing regarding sexuality… YES! Exactly that!
Sometimes it isn’t what people have or haven’t said to us, it isn’t about their reaction. It’s about how we think we should be in every situation. It’s about the role we decide for ourselves, what becomes our “normal”. We let people get used to that, and when sometimes we think “what if we change it up, what if I don’t want this anymore”, we’re so deep into the play, everyone has forgotten it’s all a character that’s in front of them
on my hudmusings — i kind of do it (the directness) as a way of giving back, i guess? because for the number of people who follow me or send me things, i'm honestly a pretty terrible tarot reader lmao. i hate doing daily readings, i'm too lazy for weekly ones, i do not care about the horse(s), i'm not interested in the friends or co-workers, and i don't really feel the need to constantly check in on hc as individuals or as a bonded pair either
a lot of the time i share my posts because i figure maybe it's useful to put another perspective out there? mainly for newer readers, or people who are trying to get into tarot without immediately spiraling into spiritual fanaticism. my hope is to create fewer "hudcon fated soulmates, hudson gay, horse dead by sunrise" people and more "these are two deeply complex individuals who exist beyond whatever narrative i personally want from them, and i'm rooting for them without feeling entitled to any particular result"
even if that's only like two or three people, a win is a win, i guess. so i mostly just throw my thoughts into the pile in case someone finds them useful. or interesting. or at least mildly mind-opening. i don't know. i also just like over-typing and over-talking and oversharing. sic vita est
on the other topic — i mentioned this before somewhere, at some point, but i think we're living through a really strange moment.
like, you can be queer now—openly, visibly, unapologetically queer—and in a lot of places that's not only accepted but celebrated. people mostly see the celebration. queerbaiting? in 2025? just make them gay already. a hockey show where the leads are weirdly close? time to ship them! they can date, kiss, be happy, because being gay is good now!
and to be clear, that's a good thing. it should be good!
but i think a lot of people underestimate how recent that shift feels to some of us who are hudcon's age. younger people grew up with heartstopper and knowing "old" queer shows like glee, good omens, or rupaul's drag race, and with a growing number of queer stories where being queer isn't automatically treated as a tragedy (these aren't even the best examples, but i'm not bothering to come up with more). they hear about brokeback mountain as a cultural milestone, but not always about the fact that, for a very long time, queer audiences became accustomed to stories ending in death, separation, punishment, loneliness, or sacrifice.
not that long ago, a happy ending could feel revolutionary.
for a long time, the bar was astonishingly low: let them survive. let them stay together. let them be implied as happy.
i think that's part of why something like heated rivalry resonated so strongly with so many queer viewers. not because it was doing something wildly radical, but because it gave people something that historically wasn't guaranteed: two men who get to be complicated, flawed, deeply in love, and ultimately, explicitly happy.
that extends beyond fiction.
a lot of queer people in their twenties and thirties were raised in a cultural environment that taught us there were consequences for standing out. maybe not always life-or-death consequences, but ridicule, isolation, judgment, being turned into a joke, being alienated from your peers, your family, your community. even if your parents were supportive, the wider world was still teaching you lessons about what was acceptable and what wasn't.
i think, as progressive and insightful as you can be, it's still hard to unlearn years of self-monitoring. it's hard to stop anticipating reactions. it's hard to stop editing yourself before anyone else gets the chance to. and it's especially hard when there is still so much hostility, exhaustion, and cynicism in the air. sometimes it feels like the worst people keep ending up with the most power, and we're all walking backwards while insisting we're moving forwards.
the thing about repression, self-denial, performance—whatever you want to call it—is that it isn't always dramatic, like it's always some conscious decision to hide. sometimes it's just practical; it's genuinely easier to keep your head down and get through the day than it is to constantly push back against everything around you. defiance is very brave, but to me, not every queer kid needs to be brave. sometimes being okay is enough. sometimes being happy enough is enough
i think that's part of why i sometimes struggle to relate to the sense of urgency that surrounds hudcon. do some people want them to be the gay version of tayvis or something?
on the chance they do end up together, i think part of me would actually find it a little sad if people immediately turned them into symbols. i don't need them to prove anything, validate anything, or change the world. that's a lot of pressure to put on two people who are just trying to live their lives.
part of why i enjoy doing tarot for them is that most of the people i read for are dealing with bleak, harrowing difficult things—addiction, grief, trauma, abusive relationships, wounds so deep they don't even know how to begin putting them into words. so there's something unexpectedly healing, at least for me, about sitting down with these two and seeing their cards echo each other so naturally and consistently. it restores a little bit of magic to the world in my eyes, i think.
i love the idea of destined soulmates. i don't know if i believe it as a literal thing, but i love it as a possibility. as a concept? either way, these two are the strongest example of that i've ever come across, i think. there's something deeply comforting about it. it's nice to be reminded that connection can exist at all—that sometimes people find each other, understand each other with a single look, and keep choosing each other. that sometimes they do it publicly, too, even when it would be easier not to.. just the possibility that human affection can be that profound and enduring, and that visible
i don't need anything more from them than what i already have now. i'd be perfectly happy with them just being two people who get to be okay together, in whatever way that looks like. happy enough together. i think they already have that. and for now, i'm happy enough to just watch where it goes and see how it evolves
ending thought: i think jacob mentioned something about queer joy before. i've always like that. queer joy.
A gentle reminder that all of this could be easy. Simple. Tidy.
At any time, Hudson could have shut down the romantic speculation about him and Connor.
At any time, he could tell us that’s his bestie, he loves him like a brother, they have a nice bromance, or whatever other nonsense men that like each other platonically say.
No one is forcing him to flirt with that man in public. Online. In interviews. On camera. Off camera.
No one pressed him to talk about their relationship that bloomed into something lovely. No one pushes him to use romantic language when he answers questions. Every interviewer that asks about their connection gives him a platonic way out. Every time, they present the question in a friendship-shaped box and every time, he eagerly undoes the ribbon and says oh no, i love him. my soulmate, my baby. I need to hold my baby.
Mentioning him unprompted, drawing hearts on his pictures, dedicating special slides. No one told him to mention him several times yesterday. No one told him to dedicate his most prestigious award to him last weekend.
No one tells Hudson to touch that man intimately, to hold him closely, to caress his hands and kiss his face. To sit in his lap and share drinks and cigarettes.
This has never been part of the narrative. This is him, choosing to recenter his love for that man every time he gets enough room to breathe freely.
He’s making these choices, every day.
So respectfully, yes, we all have our opinions about the Situation. We all have different, valid interpretations. But one thing you will never do is convince me that he doesn’t wake up every single day loving that man, and making the active choice to share his love for him where all of us can see it.
He’s not even private about it. For as much as they share only with each other, he still carves out time to make sure that we know how much he thinks about him, and that his world and his universe would grind to a halt without Connor in it. It’s imperative to him that we all know he would kill any one of us for him.
And I didn’t even include shipping into this… this is just taking him at face value. 100% face value.
I see a lot of angry solos and antis and gossips chiming in these days to say mean-spirited things like, “he doesn’t love Connor.”
I have to ask…
When has he not loved Connor?
He’s always loved him. He’s loving him out loud. That’s not something anyone should be debating.
Watching Hudson desperately trying not to burst into tears talking about Connor and thinking how in the world is there anyone who thinks these boys don't love each other to the ends of the earth. There's so much in that speech unsaid that's just surfacing as emotion. Bonded for life.
what got me was how quickly he started unraveling. i genuinely thought he had it under control—he thanked his family, got a little joke in, was basically at the finish line, and then the connor of it all hit him and he got choked up immediately. had to rush it out. "Got through iiiiit!" you sure did, boss!
i always find it kind of silly when people doubt them. i love joking that hudson has the grace and subtlety of a bulldozer when it comes to connor, but it really is true, and the people who think connor doesn't reciprocate on a similar level just genuinely confuse me.
i know i default to the tattoo a lot, but what could possibly be more telling? connor has LIVED a life. we can tell from the pictures, the anecdotes and hobbies alone, no need for tarot or spirituality. do we really think he's the kind of person who gets a matching tattoo with someone less than a year after meeting them unless he's absolutely certain that person is going to matter to him for a very, very long time?
And take it he certainly did?! And take it he certainly did
*muffled screaming*
🚨🚨AND TAKE IT HE CERTAINLY DID🚨🚨
this was about hudson’s psychosexual obsession with how big and strong connor is and how he loves peacocking in front of him and how that led to him refusing padding during the vegas hotel sex scene ON THEIR FIRST DAY OF SHOOTING???? WHEN HE CANONICALLY FELT HE HAD TO EARN CONNOR’S APPROVAL???????
yeah what an insane chain of events that hudson has just offered up to us every step of the way like it’s NOTHING. i often think that if this is the shit he openly and enthusiastically reveals in interviews what in the actual FUCK is in that rpf journal of his
Hudson could have drawn one big heart over the whole picture for his HR family. He specifically only drew it over Connor.
Today at upfronts, he distinguished Connor as separate from his HR family, which again he did not have to do because Connor would be implicitly included in the HR reference.
Once again we see Connor is something very different to Hudson.
And make no mistake, Hudson felt Connor was with him regardless- even if it was only FaceTime before and after. You can see it in his face when he won - you can’t tell me he didn’t want Connor beside him in that moment.
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