the summer before

everything i own just feels like ours

[honeyybrii]

hi i'm brii! formerly @cowboylikebrii

27 ~ she/her(ish, really any pronouns are fine) ~ part time analytical snob, full time queer ~ Canadian

if you are looking for a chaotic place of obsession ranging from tv shows that came out 20 years ago, random queer books i decided were cool, heated rivalry + various other ships, and olivia rodrigo you're in the right place💜

🚨i'm an adult, this is an adult blog meaning minors should skedaddle elsewhere🚨

come for the yap sessions, stay for the thirsting😌

AO3 where i am trying to write more (and in more fandoms but we'll see)

attempted to tag everything but i've been insane on this site for way too long to scratch the surface so say hi and ask or send recs🌞

[honeyybrii]

ok - i give ilya a lot of shit about bringing up other women and specifically the "i could marry svetlana" comment but the more i think about it the more i see the parallels between that scene and the tampa bar scene where ilya is trying to figure out if shane is still with rose and shane is answering every question except That One so ilya eventually just has to come out and say it

there's a lot of that at the cottage too. it starts with ilya not at all subtly dropping that he hasn't been with anyone else, picking each other in the video game, opening up more about his home, then randomly bringing up being a free agent as casually as possible and, "i would love to not have russian passport, maybe canadian team" waiting to see what shane will say - only it doesn't go any further so then he brings up svetlana (to which shane immediately has tunameltdown flashbacks) and it still doesn't really sway shane (who still thinks ilya may want a life outside of them being together) so he confesses that he wants shane and Finally - Shane gives and tells him They'll figure something else out together

(and he does it in the most gorgeous way, shane suggests he could fall in love with someone else to which he says no, no if it's not us it has to be svetlana so i can still have you however i can)

and ilya really did need that because even though shane is very action focused and feels like all of his emotions are crystal clear, there hasn't actually been any communication on what the cottage means for them, how far they're willing to go for each other, does this have a future or is this just a new extension of their old arrangement?

so ilya does what ilya does best and subtly shows shane what he's willing to do to stay near him. he starts with oh so subtly i could just move to a canadian team and be so much closer and shane doesn't give him too much of a reaction so ilya pivots, and says ok well maybe this won't have a future in the live in each other's skin, get married, eventually come out and be each other's fully and proudly BUT he offers to marry svetlana because it would keep him close, out of russia and he'd always be able to see shane as much as he wants so their future could just be more of This and ilya would force the stolen moments to be enough in order to keep shane

so what an incredible relief it must've been when ilya finally showed his hand and shane, all teary eyed and gorgeous said no, don't marry svetlana, we'll figure something else out (together), we both want a future not just whatever stolen time we can get

it was all an effort on ilya's part to subtly, not so subtly see just how entwined shane wants their lives to become (this is also shown when shane is giving ilya bedroom options with ilya prowling behind him already nixing the idea of sleeping anywhere but right next to shane) and it's so subtle and gorgeous and it can come off in so many different ways so i love the way this shows their specific miscommunication and how it's evolved.

from ilya trying to do this Exact Thing during tunameltdown just for it to go as bad as it could possibly go, then in tampa when he's sussing out availability and is met with shane finding him at sunset, and then this, when he's told - in the best way they can say - no, we are facing everything together from now on, this changes everything, other people are not an option.

and he's met with a 3am mapped out life plan and a tearful love confession

[honeyybrii]

shane effortlessly defying ilya's internal self deprecation with the most blunt, heartstopping, to the point sincerity is such an important part of their dynamic to me

"but you know me, i'm lazy, so." "i don't know that side of you at all."

"is that what we are going to do? relax?" "i hope so. i would like to relax with you. for once."

"because you like to be bad." "hey, that's not what this is. you and me. maybe it was at first but, not now, and not for a long time."

to the point where it even usurps other peoples interpretations of ilya before he gets the chance to internalize them -

"but, you hate him." "no. i mean, i get that. but no. i love him."

and ilya has that exact same subtly gobsmacked expression every time he does it

[honeyybrii]

i'm simple ok i do in fact want to live in that pocket of time between ilya asking shane to stay and them getting out of bed for food - the satisfied, sleepy softness, the careful intimacy, the slow happy kiss, the nap in each other's arms, ilya pretending to be asleep but he's just staring at shane and holding him, the light, freshly wakeful teasing and domestic "i'm hungry" "for what" "for food, pervert" i want to LIVE HERE

[loontattoo]

the crack cocaine in heated rivalry is hudcon btw

[scunthotter]

Ilya, just saying the most poetically romantic think that Shane has ever heard (think borderline romantic/possessive cliches in a russian accent) and Shane responding with "shit dude, yeah. 😍"

[sweetbabyshane]

"Your food will get cold. Eat," Ilya said before scooping another bite of his own breakfast into his mouth.

Shane hummed in agreement as he poked at the scrambled eggs on his plate. He was torn because Shane loved it when Ilya cooked for him, but the thought of eating those eggs right now was making him nauseous.

Ilya paused for a moment as he took in Shane's tense movements and hesitant expression. Usually, he was better about catching Shane's shifts in safe foods, but this one got past him somehow.

"Eggs are not friends anymore?"

Shane shook his head with an exasperated yet relieved sigh. "No, I'm sorry. I should have said something before you made breakfast."

"You did not know until now. Is fine, sweetheart," Ilya replied lightly, doing his best to fend off Shane's misplaced guilt. "Give me your plate. I will eat them. You can go find breakfast that sounds good."

"Thanks, baby," Shane said, tone full of gratitude for his husband's easy acceptance. Ilya always managed to soothe his worries about rejecting and wasting food.

After deciding a smoothie was all he could manage this morning, Shane started prepping the various fruits and vegetables while Ilya made quick work of his breakfast.

Ilya then placed both his and Shane's now-empty plates in the dishwasher before wrapping his arms around his husband's waist, happy to watch him build his precise, safe smoothie.

The touch was welcome until Shane stiffened at the feeling of Ilya's lips on his neck, just below his ear. He leaned away slightly so he could turn his head and said, "Sorry, but could you maybe go brush your teeth or grab some gum or something? All I can smell is the eggs."

Ilya tightened his hold on Shane for a moment and let his face fall into an exaggerated pout. "Wow, eggs are my enemy now, too. First, they make my husband starve, and now they stop me from having kisses. Evil little things."

Shane bit back a laugh and rolled his eyes at Ilya's antics. He loved the way his husband could lift his mood in such silly, small ways. "You are so dramatic. I am not starving, and you can have all the kisses you want if you go brush your teeth."

"Yes, sir," Ilya called out with a playful salute before running upstairs, while Shane's loud, endearing laugh trailed behind him.

[ilya-sweetheart]

jackie thinking she’s finally found the one “my friend sally does mummy & me yoga, she’s very into fitness, she’s kind and also vegan!”

shane, head over heels in love with a crass, cigarette smoking, reckless ducati driving russian “oh, i’m not really looking to date right now, sorry.”

(please send your love to jackie and hayden when they eventually find out about ilya after ten years of trying to set shane up with “really nice girls”)

[leeloooonfire]

I'm now imagining Jackie being like, "You could have said you like arseholes, Shane. My cousin's best friend, Lewi - he's a dick. Tattoos, piercings, really pretentious about indi movies, hasn't eaten any fibre in like 5 years, I think. Smokes, drinks, whores around, even wears that slavic fuckboy style you like so much? The adidas slippers and all... want his number?"

and Shane being like, "But is he nice like my Ilya?"

[honeyybrii]

i don't know what's better, 18 year old ilya shamelessly flirting and calling his crush 'pretty' or 18 year old shane, who always hated being called pretty, pissed off that he likes how the word sounds from his rivals mouth

[lastoneout]

Sorry we really went from free the nipple, take back the night, slut walks, and ending gender/sex segregation in sports being fucking milquetoast feminism 101 concepts to fucking girl dinner and "I just worry about fairness if we let trans girls play against cis ones" and "it was right of that woman to call the cops on a black man for existing near here in public during the day time because men are all violent monsters" and "radical feminism isn't transphobic we just need to kill all men including trans ones those oppressive traitors" and I will legit never be able to be normal about it. What the FUCK happened. I'd say I wonder what the feminists of my youth would say about this but I'm one and lemme tell ya I want to throw up. Go fucking read bell hooks or do something else useful please because all of this learned helplessness, gender essentialism, and transphobia dressed up as feminism is actively holding us back.

[scunthotter]

Shane thinks Ilya is the coolest person in the world. Like thats literally Shane's biggest reddest firetruck. And when they are out Ilya loves this. He loves having a built in audience for all his chirps and jokes, he loves that Shane is either laughing or at the very least is hiding his smile. It is such an ego boost that his husband is his biggest fan. That the person who Ilya likes the best clearly and obviously likes him the best back.

[russianblush]

Was it a conscious choice for him to always touch Shane's face? That's Connor living in the character.

[rainbow-femme]

“Why would Shane blow Ilya right when he got to the cottage after he was in a plane and car all day??”

1. They are hockey players, they are probably pretty desensitized to everyday body odor compared to what a room full of sweaty dudes and all their sweaty clothes smells like

2. They have known each other a long time and hooked up a long time, they’re past the need for ideal conditions for every sexual encounter

3. Shane’s a little freak and you can pry Ilya’s sweaty crotch from his cold dead hands

[hollanov-ann]

Oh, I think I know how the staff you like to be treated after all these years 😏 [pinned down in bed by a big sexy Russian]

[namunii]

Shane's only photo of Ilya for several years

[joondemiel]

The Sveta Ilya scene where they’re chatting and goofing around in his bedroom is one of my favourites in the whole show

[joondemiel]

peer review @countryboyskywalker

[honeyybrii]

hi hi!!!! i'm finally getting to this i was tagged by @sun-undone in the "10 people i want to get to know better" ask game!! thank you darling 💛

last song: blank space is currently playing in the cafe i'm in but the last song i put on was richman by 3OH3

currently watching: nothing new at the moment actually, i'm rewatching gilmore girls though to procrastinate starting off campus since it's been recommended so often

currently reading: well!! witch hat atelier actively, kink curious by an author who's name i can't remember (sorry), atmosphere by taylor jenkins reid and i'm probably gonna start bury our bones in the midnight soil OR this is how you lose the time war OR the poet empress (tell me which one i can't decide)

current obsession(s): heated rivalry has not waned nothing new has grabbed me yet, i did also just talk my coworkers ear off about witch hat atelier though so !!! and the summer hikaru died i haven't moved on from them either

currently working on: ummm editing some poetry (if anyone knows anything about that please let me know, i'm floundering), some non fandom related writing and nothing too much fic wise unfortunately

currently wearing: white leggings and sports bra with a pink one strapped top

last google search: the cafe i'm at but i don't wanna dox myself

favourite flower: either lillies, sunflowers or carnations oh and tulips always tulips

i've got a couple new mutuals so im firing at random (sorry) @inthisrinkwehollanov @shaneseggs @bluemoonoverbrooklynn @acemoppet @parsnips-and-meth not ten but i tried ok byeeee