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2020! The decade that shit gets real...

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SOOOOO ITS 2020! HOW EXCITING! 

I start year 11 this year which is exciting but also demanding in a way because of all the overload of school work arghhh. Anyways I’m super excited to go back to school because the holidays so far has been like boring, like the only time I get out of the house is for work. 

I got heaps of new books and spent way to much money on textbooks but I guess thats just how senior years is ;\ 

This year I’m focusing on me and only me. I’m not thinking about boys who are going to pooheads (dickheads). I NEED TO STUDY AND FOCUS ON SCHOOL WORK. Although maybe throw in some party and socials cause ya gurl need that from time to time. Gosh it feels like such a huge weight has been lifted off my chest when I write these short blogs online. 

School starts on the 29th which is a Wednesday and we still haven’t gotten our timetables which is like super annoying cause I need time to prepare for my subjects and the teachers duh? ANyways I hope this year is going to be great to you guys ( jeez whoever is reading this)....... 

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Year 11 social life

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Year 11 is going to be a hectic rollercoaster ahead, drama and yes you bet a lot of tears. I’m in all my classes that I chose which is really good news, cause some of my friends didn’t get their subjects :( 

Anyways highschool so far has been alright I guess, jeez I haven’t written a blog for so long. I chose pretty challenging subjects which is great for my social life not to count that I have tutoring for english and Math/Science = no friends. Wow, I’m really digging myself a hole by choosing these subjects like advanced math who? 

2020 is so close now, arghh which only means one thing our 2000′s baby decade is coming to a end :(

I guess, I am looking forward to buying books and textbooks for year 11. I hope I get good teachers and classes cause it would suck if I get shit teachers. 

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2018 WRAPED UP

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Hello 2018 for the last couple of days... 

This year was such a roller coaster for me, with so many memories and days that never left my mind. I wish I could put some of those days on replay and experience the emotions. Although when there is good things, there is bounded to be bad things cause its life and you need to balance the scale, right?  

2019 is going to be a great year, I can already tell. 

A fresh start to Year 10 and the smell of fresh school books. This year is going to be where good things happen. Reports are going to be amazing and your friends are going to be the best supporters to every move you make or path you decide to take your future to. 

Maybe even try to win Winter netball comp, and improve on Ice Skating and join a figure skating team. 

2019 Resolution list 

1. Improve on skin care

2. Love myself a bit more 

3. Find someone worth thinking about ( boyfriend ) 

4. STUDY AND STUDY 

5. Exercise and eat healthy 

6. Be kind to others 

7. Make new friends 

8. Keep close friends 

9. Be aware of others and their feelings 

10. Honestly enjoy the year!!!

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Friends supporting my problems..

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It’s him i can’t stop thinking about...

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So we all have that one guy that stays on our mind all night and all day no mater what we do it just doesn’t nudge at all. Brain cells and memories cells are annoying like that. Arghhh I have feelings too, and I want to experience the best times and think about other things not just day dreaming about this one guy that probably is out of my league. 

Right now while I’m typing this, it is raining outside which means i can sleep while its raining ( mmm how niceee)... Anyways back to what i was saying..

I don’t know how to express my feelings to this guy, he looks like he is interested in this other girl but I might be wrong. Still, i don’t know tho. 

I miss being in a relationship, it felt so nice to be able to call someone your boyfriend or say something along these lines to people; 

“ Oh sorry my boyfriend is waiting for me, maybe next time?” “ I’m taken , sorry peeps” “ Hug me now and make me feel warm” “ Can i borrow your jumper?”

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I think i like someone...

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Jeez how do i start this.... 

So umm i think i like someone but i’m pretty certain he doesn’t like me back. Which is like totally fine, cause i no need no man to make my life better. I mean our the world we live in now is dominated by so many leaders being man, now don’t get we wrong or anything. Like i’m not saying its a bad thing at all. Just giving my point of view to the wide community of social media a taste on my perspective.

Now look i know when i really liked someone i can be really obvious. Like constantly reading over what i am going to send to them or what should i reply with and i’m sure other girls have been in this situation. ( Its stupid,, they probably don’t even care what you reply with, just be yourself cause that is what matters the most).

So this guy is not in my class and i will stop here incase my fellow friends somehow happen to bump into this post and then i’m stuck with them asking me questions about who is it..or look you smile when i said their name and then somehow the whole school knows... urghh it never ends...

You then end up with that person who you don’t like or you do like in this situation staring at you like a freak cause QUESS WHAT, Yeah thats right they heard the dam rumours about you liking them.!!! 

You then need to calm yourself and start a whole new status at school, while your friends are saying its all good this story will pass.. haha nice try.. 

5 YEARS LATER 

*20 yr old me, walking in the mall shopping for a new life

( Group of boys from your old school ) 

“ Hey look is that ***** that used to like you?”

“ ha couldn’t been that girl actually has a ass and tits plus the other girl was a total geek and just wanted attention”

me ; “ what the hell mate”

also me ; * runs as far away as possible and never return to that mall even if my life depended on it....

( okay maybe that was over excoriating a bit ) 

But honestly tho

I like this guy and have no clue how he feels about me and its killing me inside because i really want this guy to feel the same way about me.... BUT PRETTY SURE HE DOESN’T....

Im too scared to that my heart will break... cause right now its just healing...

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World to myself

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The bright sun peak behind the curtains as i rolled over on my bed. Could it be that i wasn’t enough for her? That i wasn’t everything she wanted? I felt like my feelings were getting rejected. 

Slowing getting out of bed i look at the mirror and image a new mask that i had place on my face. 

“ Morning Clare, i’m going to grab breakfast want anything?” 

“ Can i get out of here....” she nodded and looked away. 

She didn’t know that i was doing this to benefit her as i told myself everyday. 

The summer breeze greeted me and the smell of freshly baked loaf drifting through the town. 

to be continued...

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World to myself

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Ep 2 🎏

Slamming my thoughts shut I started to throw things out of my suitcase with frustration and anger. 

“ Why does this always have to happen, your tearing me apart, Clare” 

“ You don’t need me, i can smell fear in your mind and heart. You are not pure but a disgrace” 

Her face was blood red as she stared at me with her dark blue eye. I couldn’t handle this anymore I felt as if the walls that were protecting me were falling apart slowly. 

“ Clare, i’m sorry I never wanted it to be this way” gradually approaching her silk like body on the bed.

I couldn’t quite catch what happen next but the clear view of the revolver pointed at me. 

“ Clare, lets put the revolver down and talk about this”gesturing her to place the revolver down.

“ shut up Joyce just be quiet!” her hands tremble. 

The revolver still had the safety hatch on. Clare didn’t know how to use it. I ran her wrist on the edge of the bed side table, enough to knock it out of her hand. She fought back her body became tired and thats when she stoped trying. I watch her crawl up and sound asleep. 

“ I will find a way to bring you back...” 

As i switch off her bedside lamp, she was now surrounded by darkness. 

to be continued

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World to myself

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Ep 1 🎏

She is so fragile, she brakes when the wind whistles throughout her soul. She is not broken nor is she nothing but she tells a million stories. I lean up against the edge of her bed. 

“ let me in to your world “ i whispered. 

“ I can’t do this anymore, i can’t keep relying on you” she wipe away the layer of cosmetic that hid her true face. 

“ Why do you push me away? like i’m nothing to you” i grabbed my suitcase and started to shove clothes in it. 

“ Leave me if thats what you desired” As she looked away longing at the waves. 

“ If you can’t give me a better reason, i’m leaving” 

“ A world to myself.......” tucking her hair behind her pale face. 

I couldn’t do this. 

Maybe this world is another planet’s hell.... 

to be continued

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Why is this so me :)

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School work is doing in my brain

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School is like a prison, think about it your trap in a room with one adult and they teach you stuff. The space around you is gated up and you are not allowed to leave what we called “ school ground”. Kids get punish for not learning or disturbing other kids. 

Homework is the worst. Scientist have prove that doing homework doesn’t improve anything but makes the kid even more stress out over a pile of work. shoookkkkkk 

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Kiss me like the world depends on it

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Should i forgive?

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Something that everybody can relate to is that, can you forgive someone who had really badly hurt you? Is it worth letting them back in your life and brain storage? And if you do forgive them, can you really be friends with them or are you telling yourself a big fat lie.

I always try to find a loop hole to forgiving someone, because i think everyone should give chances. But this person had use all my chances and loop holes to make me feel better, and telling myself that i did a good thing forgiving them.

Lying is the worst thing anyone could do. Taking the piss on you. Calling you names. these are just some of the fews i would have to experience if i forgive this person again.

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Crush me till it hurts

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We’ve all been there, whether your the one who stomps on the heart or the one who those heart is crush. We all know that it hurts and you want to get rid of the feelings but it just keep coming up and the more you push it down the further it comes back at you. 

At the mention of their name your heart starts to tremble cause you know what is going to happen. Sometimes you cry it all out and you say to your self its over, but its not over cause nothing is really over when you try to tell yourself that you can get over it. Cause really the hills are bigger than it looks.

‘pretending you don’t need anyone’ 

‘really to swallowed all your pride now’

‘want to give you everything’

- James Arthur - Naked 

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When school is just around the corner.

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Arghhh school is about to start in a couple of weeks but its the matter of time before your their sitting in a huge hall waiting for the dreadful papers to be hand out and on the left hand corner of the page is where you write down your name. 

 Thats right, its call NAPLAN.. 

A test which could change our life. Something which we can’t really study for. Something that we need to reach a band 8 so that we could sit for our HSC. 

On the bright school (if there is even one) we get to enjoy these moments with our beloved friends (oh what fun it is). 

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mornings

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The sun is a reminded telling us to move our body and get really. Sometimes you want to sleep in, well then its simple shut the blinds. Don’t have one? well then ur in a pickle because blinds may one day save you from many things. 

I know that right now and forever i’m probably gonna be writing these blogs for myself, but if your reading this now not including me then thank you for still reading this insanely weird blog. What inspire me to write blogs was this book called ‘ Girl Online’ its a great book if you want some idea to write a blog and a great storyline too.

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